`This can't be happening....`

2010-03-13T11:31:00.000-08:00

I've just realised how bad the month of March is.

So many things have happened, too many for me to comprehend why, or how.

Thought that it'll probably be a good month since it was the month of Founder's Day.

But I was wrong.

To start things off, I get rejected on the first day. Then I lose a close friend in school, and quietly the people around her are turning their backs on me as well. Another friend struggles with relationship issues, and then another close friend breaks up after dating for a year. Another close friend gets a UTI, almost worrying me to death. After that a church friend collapses during a cross country run, risking brain damage and kidney failure, and is probably sedated right now as I type this. All this while I struggle and disappoint myself with my end of semester Project.

Is this how St Patrick's Day is really supposed to be?

No, really.

It's not even halfway through the month and so many things happen.

Usually when times like these come, a questions pops up in my mind. Why do bad things happen to good people? Then I remember, I'm not even good to begin with. None of us are.

I start to think, and I start to wonder. I try my best coming up with answers or explanations. Now that doesn't work, so what can I do?

I try going mad, cause hey, most geniuses are mad anyway eh? Doesn't work either.

Then I try insulating myself from all these negativity, see if I can get through without emotions getting in my way. Ends with me in pieces.

Is there anything I can do?

No, there isn't.

Except for one thing.

Pray.

I don't have the answers, but I know someone who does.

And He knew them even before they happened.

Trading innocence for wisdom is something we all yearn for when we realise that there's too much knowledge for us to handle. There's only so much we can take, but yet our ego pushes us as we go along, feeding us with ideas that we can know everything just because we can.

We judge because we can.

We condescend because we can.

We bring downs others to justify our own rights.

Because we can.

But, really, is that all we can do?

All the little things.

Aye, so breaking news, I've stopped playing Maple so that I can play Granado Espada. Yeah, it's weird, but I just did, don't ask why. It's actually pretty enjoyable, but it's obviously alot more slow paced than my BankaiStory!

P1's picking up as well, hope everything goes smoothly on Monday.

Till then, we'll just keep marching on.

That's what this month calls us to do.

2010-03-11T10:07:00.000-08:00

So I've not slept for about 35 hours now.

And that 30 minute nap at Gary's place was like finding a drop of water in hell.

Just for the record by the way, Min Er is a fat boy. No really, she is.

Had a pretty weird day, where everything was done in a trance-like manner, probably cause I didn't sleep. If you're wondering why I stayed up, work. And I didn't even finish it, what a disappointment. But thankfully Melvin and Gary found the solution to our problem and we've more or less completed our animation sequences for our project. Just need to refilm the interview and scenery shots again, and we're done. Mansoor was pretty hard on us though, pinpointing every little detail in our video footages. But I guess it's all for a better mark.

Can't wait to edit the Gay Bar scene =p and it's ironic that it's a scene involving me o.o

So yeah, basically my day was spent in the 3D animation studio, editing animations and playing around with sound effects. Ended off the day watching Gary getting owned by Aeroga magic spells on FF13 with Xin Yi. Ah Vanille and Hope, so lovely when they interact. How I wish I was Hope =p

Oh, and Jams for Lunch has been pushed to the first week of school in April, which means I'm free this Monday. Also means I'll be going through DOTC2 and DOC first. Mixed feelings about it, actually. Excited to meet new people, but I'm also worried about the effort I'll hafta put in for these camps.

Camps.

Good old memories of Barker.

Sitting at the tennis courts in the alluring darkness.

Watching the stars twinkle and dance to the lifesong of your heartbeat.

So sleepy now.

And my head hurts.

I'll see you soon.

2010-03-09T09:59:00.000-08:00

Hope.

What was it ever there for?

Woke up feeling really awkward today. Had a dream, but can't remember anything about it. And that's what makes me feel weird I guess, when you know that the sweeper of dreams walks by you every morning only to sweep away what could have been dearest to you. Then you start to wonder whether there really is someone who decides what you are to dream of every night.

The Awakening.

So yeah, I woke up, had a porridge lunch my Dad cooked for my Grandma and I, and left for Gary's place. As usual I was late, and the silence that welcomed me really made me wish that I wasn't. Angela was watching anime, Melvin was animating the work we already had, and Gary was busy being completely taken away by every moment of FF13. Honestly it is a great game. Amazing graphics, interesting gameplay, brilliant character design. How I wish I had a PS3 right now...ah artificial vanilla icy...wait what.

Got started on work immediately, started cleaning up audio and video clips, converting my JPEG images to PNG images, etc. Then started slacking by playing Maple. Yes, I know, don't judge me.

Something really shocked me today.

Been a long time since I've been this puzzled.

I can't say much, because I have never been in that situation before. But it's pretty safe to say that all of us, at some point in our lives, have had that similar kind of hope.

Some of us hope that maybe we'll get good exam results.

Some of us hope that we'll get through the whole week of school.

Some of us hope that friends who've turned their back on us would realise that something's missing.

Some of us hope that telling your wife you've got a raise, instead of telling the truth that you've really been retrenched, would make the anxiety go away.

Some of us hope that we won't have to hope anymore cause maybe things will go our way.

Guess what Melvin said was right. We all hope only to regret it. But he missed out a point.

That's just that journey.

Honestly, I wouldn't say it's over until the fat lady sings. And nope, not even caught a glimpse of her yet, so we'll all hafta keep on moving. It's pretty corny, but it's true.

So we may feel empty. We all are, after all, empty vessels burdened by the weight of sin, trudging through an ugly world. You may not believe it, but I do. That emptiness will be filled somehow, and that depends on what you choose to fill it up with.

We're all meant to be broken so that we know how to be fulfilled.

Some things change. Some don't.

What does, is up to us.

It's pretty awkward to read your old posts. No, really, it is. Haha. Felt like someone else wrote it when I was reading it. Can't believe I actually wrote all that.

Realised how many times I posted about how useless I felt when it was a time someone needed my help the most.

A similar incident happened recently, just a few months back, and I could say this one was the ugliest of all. But hey, reminder right there.

It's pointless feeling useless. And after all this time I've still not learnt.

But no, not this time.

Tonight's the night the world begins again.

2010-03-08T11:17:00.000-08:00

A cat purrs as she sits there waiting for someone to pat her.

A plane flies across the ocean at the speed of sound.

A country falls to its knees as soldiers of a foreign nation march out in drives.

A person decides that maybe it's time to start blogging again.

Ok, so maybe I've decided to start blogging again. It's been a long two years since I've touched my blog. And those two years have given me enough time to see the difference between then and now. Alot has happened, too much to write in a URL. Too much for this little soul to grasp and understand.

If you're wondering why I'm back to blogging, I just need some form of cartharsis. No really, I miss those times where I could talk to myself and no one would notice, but it isn't easy to do that with all eyes on you, is it? So I do it here instead.

I miss writing.

I really do.

So hey, it's P1 now, and I'm supposed to be editing scanned images of drawings and animate them. I need to edit video footages as well and find a way to make them look and sound alright. Need to put the images together to animate them, and after that I need to chuck in sound effects. Of course, rendering as well.

Really not a time to be fooling around.

Got Jams For Lunch happening next Monday as well, and I still have no idea what's going, except that it is going to happen no matter what. Also thinking of identity ideas, yes, an identity, for Ophys aka my DOC group.

Also a list of events that made me worry alot last week. Still in the midst of the hows and whys.

So yep, a short post for more shortcomings.

Really.

I do.

But you won't.

2008-05-27T08:42:00.000-07:00

Ok.

So I'm back.

Still holding on. Supposed to be sleeping, but I can't sleep.

Hillsong was brilliant. Never had a time like that since FOP last year. Well Fusion this year was supposed to be special...but it keeps bringing me to a different perspective.

Gave it all I had. Had a sorethroat and my limbs were aching after the concert. And it's also pretty stressful juggling between two groups of friends...man Noelle you weren't alone. Man, miss hanging out with the seniors. It's been a long time, yea it was since FOP I went for an outing like that. And after the concert I was supposed to meet the rest at T3, but they went to T1 instead, so I decided to go back.

And I also went for cell. Coincidentally the video Edmund Bek showed was strangely related to what I was going through. And yep, lotsa catching up. Talking to Edmund, Justin. Yep. Hanging out in Caltex pass 10 again. And buying my milk tea. Haha. But alot of people were overseas also anyway. Daniel, Prash, Ben. Yep. And it's kinda odd not seeing everyone in school uniform anymore. Like Damien and Xavier would be in white and navy blue. So will Josh and Luke. Yep, and people like Becky and Choey would be in Mg uniform. But now they're all in their jc uniform, home clothes, whatever have you. Man I feel like a kid! =D

And sunday. Well going on a lunch date with Noelle was cool. Edmund Tan (Notice I'm putting surnames cause it can get confusing at times) joined us soon after that too. Haha man it was the sunday he finally came and I didn't sing in the choir. How screwd up am I...haha. Yep, and choir practice was cosy. I mean, a cosy feeling I guess. Small crowd. Oh yea and dear Noelle didn't sing too cause of her sore throat. But it's getting better now.

FYI I'm not typing the events in order. Just rambling.

And I'm totally in love with the Saviour King.

As in, not the song.

The Real Saviour King.

Haha I've been pulling through and it's because of Him. Slowly picking up the pieces again. Going back to what I've been doing. Like faithfully going for cell on fridays (I hope), being able to juggle between my 2b2 06 friends (Chia, Zach, KKP, Barney, DJ, JD, Nico, Mitch), 07 batch (Xavier, Damien, Bin Soon, Matt Ong, Prash, D.Ang, other cell mates and seniors), BBB [Last B stands for brothers, btw](BT, JK, JP, BC, JL, others). Aye too tired to tpe all the names. It's hard, but I hope they all understand...I'm caught up in different world nowadays. So yep.

And I read the history of the Greco-Persian War today. I'm officially a nerd. Whoopie.

And Leonidas and Aristodemus are cool people.

I wanna be a spartan. Hawhaw wild dream.

Already revised for chem spa tomorrow.

Guess I'll drown myself in a game of Dawn Of War.

2008-05-18T09:49:00.000-07:00

I'm feeling useless again.

Well, at least saturday was fun. Yep, Lazer Tag at Punggol Primary. Didn't turn out to be BQ at all, heh wrong info. And before that I had some other enrolment parade rehearsal also. Gosh, haven't played the drums for so long. Feels good again. Jammed abit with Weyshi also. I'm kinda looking forward to PND now, though I know I can't cope.

Lazer Tag was brilliant too. Teaching and helping out, with friends like Bryant, Xavier, Saiful. Haha pretty cool. And the dinner and everything, great. Walking around the shopping mall too. Reflecting back at life. Sharing their experiences with me. Kinda understand how they miss it all. I miss it all too. Man, all the fun stuff happens in their batch. Why couldn't I be born 10 months before...oh well. But yea, it was great hanging with them. And I won't be seeing Bryant for 3 weeks. He's going off on holiday for 3 weeks. Crazy, ain't it. =p

And there're so many things I wanna post about saturday. Just that I'm not in the mood now.

I don't feel accomplished. Saturday's was one of the times I felt useful again, like as if someone finally acknowledged I was there. It's that feeling again, that I've lost along the way all this while. That pride, passion.

But now, it's back to square one.

Coincidentally Mr Mak sent an email with a powerpoint around this topic.

Going back to the start. It hurts.

I've not been talking to Noelle properly lately. And I don't know why I can't cheer her up anymore. I can't do what I did in march. Why didn't I even notice she was disappointed.... I can't think of anything now...and it hurt me when she said I was making her upset.

I can't really save anyone, can I...

And that phonecall on friday...I really blew it.

I've been screwing up this whole while.

Why

I'm throwing my second chances away

Why

I guess that's why I've been turning to friends. 2B2 06s, seniors, ex bsf mates.

I'm trying to get my old life back...I still can't accept change.

I'm slowly breaking down here.

And I try picking myself up with worldly things...

And I guess only Saiful knows what I'm talking about...

I'm such a dumbass.

I've lost my true ability...whatever happened to that drumming spirit. That passion for people, to be a blessing?

All I'm doing is hurting now...I know running away won't help...

But I can't find my strength anymore...

I don't feel like it's me anymore...like...I don't feel appreciated at all...and the friends I've been making...are they really right in the sight of God?

Sometimes people disappoint me...

I remember when he said that God spoke to him. I felt encouraged, and inspired to move on. I remember the leadership he took in ltc. I respected him. And the ideas he had of helping me. And I remember when he promised he'd raise 800 bucks for the council. And when he had ideas of leading worship.

I was so looking forward to it.

But it never happened.

I'm so confused with my trust now.

Have I been walking rightly?

I want my past back.

My old friends.

My old family.

My old talents.

My old achievements.

My old memories.

My old me.

I guess I'll never get them back.

That innocence...

Hafta keep pressing on.

Like what that powerpoint slide(sounds cheesy, I know) said..it's not easy.

But pick up the pieces of your shattered hopes and dreams, put them all together and move on.

I've never wanted this ending.

But hey, it's barely the start.

Btw...was woken up by my phone ringing....yep and an sms saying someone sent me an email.

Read it already...I really wanna do my best to make up...but so many things going on.

And so I decided to post.

I wanna be an encouragement to people...I've been trying hard...but most of the time I don't even know when to start...

I'm just a sad song....

And everyone's singing along.

2008-05-13T08:20:00.001-07:00

There I go again.

The stupid things I do.

Why am I always like that?

I hate myself for hurting them.

Hurting her, especially.

I'm regretting a whole lot now.

I need a love that never fails.

My own love has failed.

Failed me.

Failed her.

Just wanna say sorry.

I've always relied on the help of other people.

When am I gonna stand up for myself.

How am I gonna do things myself.

Why do I want to be independent, when I can't even last a single second.

There're so many things I think I know.

Forgiveness.

How can a sin be forgiven?

Have you ever tried?

'Maybe you need to forgive yourself first'

Here I go rambling.

Just needed to type out something.

Why can't I just learn.

Without humility, you'll never learn.

Second chances.

Prayers.

Never noticed that inner beauty in her.

I'm freakin regretting a whole lotta shit here.

And I've got a whole list of people to apologise to.

Well, I'm pretty experienced in this.

I meant the pissing people off part.

Right.

Always wanted to make a change.

And this is how I change it.

Great.

What a dumbass.

Me.

Forgive and forget.

I don't think I can forgive myself for doing that.

It's a war.

In me.

Outside me.

Everywhere.

2008-05-07T23:21:00.000-07:00

Alright. Gonna post.

Feels odd. Haven't done this for a long time.

Hmm it's been exams lately. Having lotsa of fun. Haha enjoyed doing my SSH and Geog papers. Other that that it pretty much sucked....especially physics and a maths for obvious reasons haha. And I hope I can do well for my english paper one. Mhm. Supposed to study for chem. Haha dunnoe what to do now. Just played a game of Dark Crusade. Yep Imperial Guards aren't that bad.

Shall start from yesterday. Went to play lan for an hour with Barnabas, Wayne, Brandon, Jerome, Sean, Jun Kai and Ashley. Met other people there too like Eugene, Joseph and more other people. Hawhaw. Yep, played one game of dota, got owned. Haha at least I killed Sean 3 times hahaha k fine. Yep and my kills were higher than my deaths..not that bad. =D

After that went to Wayne's house. Played his 360. And alot of retarded stuff happened while we were there...haha sth about the maid =p. And we're blaming the dog HAHA =p. Yep and Jun KAi kept punching me non-stop. The way I resemble Wayne's punching bag. Wow. Haha but yea I want those kicking things so that I can train. So cool yayee.

After that, went back home. And then went to Bryant's house at like 7.45. Wanted to go way earlier, but couldn't cause he ended work at 6. Heh. Was planning to watch FF7 AC again. Oh well. At least I played his psp for a while...and we were late for Aikido lesson cause Bryant and Gavin were watching Ah Long PTE LTD. Haha quite funny..though I was concentrating more on the psp :D. And I finally got my white belt and gi! Haha yea I'm retarded I know whoopie.

And I learnts lotsa new stuff. Like my first grapple and some hand lock thing...dammit I can't remember japanese terms. Oh well.

Yep, then had supper, and I left early cause I wanted to go home and sleep.

Man, I can't for Hillsongs. And 28 may. And 31 may. ROD. Finally letting go of my sash.

Stupid Spiderman's uncle sayings "With great power comes great responsibilty." Never really understood that till I got hold of the sash. Mhm.

Cycling trip too! I hope it's at East Coast park. Then we can cycle at the runway! Haha so cool.

And a certain song. Numb. Pretty old song. Never really understood it's meaning, till yesterday. Oh well.

Yep.

Febuary stars.

So temporary.

And thanks Noelle for yesterday =)

And I think I'm going to Swee Lee this saturday with Tim and DJ. I wanna buy new sticks. Still considering between 7A(My current one) or getting heavier sticks, like 5A. And I can't find the stickers Kelly gave me last christmas. Man haha now I dunnoe what to stick on my sticks. Haha geddit stick on sticks. Ok wait now it just sounds wrong. Aww man.

Alright. Gonna study chem.

"You see when bonds form right, the particles become happy so they start throwing a party, then they throw party they give out lotsa of energy. So it's exothermic."

2008-04-10T06:01:00.000-07:00

Gonna be a short one. My internet's screwing up as I type this.

Just wanna say i'm sorry for the promises that I've broken. Guess I've gotta make up for the breakups.

I kinda miss alot of things right now. Cell. The jokes. The company.

The friends. Haha I really miss hanging with Xavier and Damien and Prash and the rest. Hmm I wanna go to BRMC soon...wonder what it's like now. Haven't talked to mst of the people for a pretty long time.

I'm missing alot of stuff. I still miss sec 2 days. I miss the 2b2 gang man. Haha.

I don't mind failing o levels this year. Retaking it again. Staying in secondary as long as possible. Staying in the best part of my life as long as possible. Well, that is if my friends stay back with me. But that's not gonna happen, so I'm gonna hafta move on.

I'm kinda dreading the working life. Don't even know why I'm thinking of it now.

Well unless I become a teacher haha. Nah I suck at teaching, not gonna happen anytime soon =p I already have problems teaching the sec 1s drums...well it's not like everybody's gonna be a Silas anyway. Right k too much info there. =D

Oh well. I keep blogging about missing something. How bout something's missing. Haha k was that a pun? =p

But yea. I miss the drums at choir room. I miss playing behind those friends. I miss playing with the guy who's a little shorter than me, and just makes love to the crowd with his guitar. The guy who looks at much more behind his specs, caressing his black bass with smooth plucks and slaps. The guy who thinks he's Cristiano Ronaldo, who's singing his heart out. The short guy who's strumming up and down on his electric. And guiding all that is a man, older than us, grey hair, with that smile that makes you want to do your best.

I miss all that.

Hmm, I just wanna play the drums again. I wanna count for something. Something good.

Oh well. Hope enrolment's my next chance.

And Nic lent me his PC Game magazine. Loads of cool stuff larr, like Red Alert 3. Haha gosh dogs with bagpacks that amplify their barks to stun people. Crazy shizzzz haha.

Listening to Delirious now. There goes another memory. Last year's FOP. Haha such a pity I got an injury on my hand, I couldn't shake their hands properly during the autograph sessions. Awww, haha can't wait for them to play again soon.

Well, and I read about SoulStorm in that mag too. The latest craze. Well, among Khoo, Gabs and I, that is. Not to mention Keith and Kendrick and the rest. And I'm so jealous of Gabs now! I want SS too!

Oh and I hope Ben's ok. Stupid Pneumothorax. Screw it lar, haha. See lar, tell so many lame jokes, laugh too much, now kena hole in your lung. =p haha k fine, well he's ok now, after the operation. Yep, hope we can see him this sunday.

Hmm I still feel bad for breaking the promises I made. Well, dear I've just gotta say that I'm thinking of long term goals. Hope you got what I meant =)

But I guess I'm gonna hafta forget all that. To move on.

Seems like the yesterdays are getting older. Tomorrows are getting younger.

Everybody's changing, and I don't feel the same.

It's surprising, how things change really quickly. In this fast paced world.

Haha, least I'm still swinging to the beat.

Beat of what? Well it's all in my head hawhawhaw.

K that sounded wrong. And right now I have an email to reply to. I'm thinking a long one, like, really really long. Guess I've got alotta things to say.

And cool I just broke another promise. I said this post would be a short one. There goes my trust. Haha.

Oh and another thing to mention. My da sao's new house is cool. 20 storeys up high. Feels like you're flying. Not only that, the Flyer's in view from there.

By the way, the second part of your present is still on. I wasn't joking about it. Just tell Brandon and I when you're free =)

Oh and MY NAPFA'S TOMORROW! Ahh I'm pretty worried for alot of things. Well, everything escpet sit ups and broad jump. I wanna get all As! Like, I already have an A for my 2.4, so yea. I wanna get that streak I almost got in sec 2. Haha.

Oh well. Signing off.

Flying.

Again.

To where my dream sweeper takes me to.

And when it's all over, the memories are washed away.

Who knows when they'll come back.

We just keep waiting, and waiting, and waiting....

For His eye is on the sparrow. And I know He watches me.

2008-04-09T09:16:00.000-07:00

Thank You
For the promises You made
For the gift of love You gave
Always, I'll sing Your praise

Thank You
For the chance to live again
For Your grace that never ends
Always I'll sing Your praise

Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
I belove a King
To You I sing

Cause You mean everything to me
You're all this world will never be
Your Name reigns in my heart
You're all that I depend on

2008-04-09T08:58:00.000-07:00

Say hi to the world, dear.

Hi.

Now what.

Hmm I'm not hat sure myself. Here I go talking to myself on the internet. Very fun.

Watched Contender today. Realling interesting. What's the most interesting part though, is how one of the muay thai fighter's christian. Not only that, he's from Middle East. So cool, haha gosh. Thinking of picking up muay thai. But I'm scared of the religious things they do. Sian, but looking at contender, I guess it in possible to keep to my religion. Hmm and the fight was interesting. But I feel quite bad for Sean, I could tell he really gave up, which is quite sad. But well that thai guy(I can't say/spell his name, it's in thai) was really strong anyway. Can't wait for next week's fight.

And I was thinking throughout the whole day. Pretty tired of thinking.

I should just move on.

And also, this might be my last time using the com till after mid years. Ahhh I don't want that to happen.

I seriously wanna study out too.

Maybe with the two of them at KAP like, everyday.

I can't concentrate at home.

Hmm.

I can't believe I still miss the 07 batch. I still can't get over the fact that Barker feels really different. From last time. Changing teachers, principals, students. I don't feel that tradition anymore. I don't feel that passion, that spirit. Everybody's changing, and I don't feel the same. I miss the guys running around, hugging, the handshaking stuff, the pranks, the shouts, the really lame jokes, the unity, the spirit. Hmm, how I wish I was born one year earlier....

And it doesn't feel the same with the teachers too. Just feels out of place. It's just one of those times I feel out of place again. Changes.

Changes for tomorrow.

For better, for worse.

The changes two of us has made for the sake of happiness. For the sake of moving on.

Sometimes I sit and wonder, what am I really doing.

Should just drop out of school and travel around the world.

Travel to the furthest star in heaven.

And fly freely.

Like as if we don't have enough free will already...

But please Lord, don't pass me by.

I'm hungry for You Lord.

It's one of those times where I'm stuck again. Slowly picking the pieces of me up.

I miss my brothers.

I miss my old family.

I miss my old friends.

I miss my old self.

I miss innocence.

I miss joy.

I miss clarity.

I miss her.

Going back in time doesn't really help, you just have to get through the same shit again.

So I'll just keep moving on.

Moving on. I forgot what it meant.

What's the purpose of having a purpose.

I forgot.

I forget.

I've been forgotten.

Sometime's I'm there, sometime's I'm not.

Where am I?

I've lost myself, for good within Your promise.

Here I go, rambling again.

How I'd float along yesterdays again.

But don't worry, I'm pretty much happy after saying all this out.

I'm starting to type like my brother.

2008-04-07T08:09:00.001-07:00

And so it is

My heart's been dried up

My body wasted away

The rain's falling again

The storm's everlasting

The whispers are gone

Gone away. Gone from me

Seems so empty

Shadows embrace me

But these shadows of mine

Prove the sunshine

I know you've found that sunshine

I'm still on my way. I'm still looking for that sunshine

But don't worry, I'll find it. Someday

I'll find it again in you

I just want you to know, that I'll love you too

Behind my work, my studies, my other friends, there's a heart

A beating heart

A heart with the sound of you

The warmth, the embrace

I know you're waiting for me. I'll wait for you too

It's that rainbow again

You're that rainbow

That stands out from the darkness in me

Sunshine, come and help me sing

My heart is frozen

My heart is darkened underneath

You'll be in my heart, always

And I'm not afraid to say it

You do mean alot to me, even now

2 years. I'll be strong

I'll be strong for us

Somehow I feel it's all part of His will for us

I'm willing to accept it

Hope your sore throat goes away. Your voice sounded good over the phone

The storm's fading

You're coming in with the light

We're crooked souls trying to stay up straight
Dry eyes in the pouring rain
The shadow proves the sunshine
The shadow proves the sunshine

Just want you to know

that I love you =)

2008-03-14T22:22:00.000-07:00

If the heart is always searching,
Can you ever find a home?
I've been looking for that someone,
I'll never make it on my own.
Dreams can't take the place of loving you,
There's gotta be a million reasons why it's true

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise
, When you look me in the eyes.

How long will I be waiting,
To be with you again
Gonna tell you that I love you,
In the best way that I can.
I can't take a day without you here,
You're the light that makes my darkness disappear.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

More and more, I start to realize,
I can reach my tomorrow, I can hold my head high,
And it's all because you're by my side.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When I hold you in my arms
I know that it's forever
I just gotta let you know
I never wanna let you go

When you look me in the eyes.
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

Yea, when you look me in the eyes...=)

2008-03-13T05:46:00.000-07:00

Gosh I'm kinda dull now.

Heh went to school in the morning for the Integration lessons..yeps went there first thing I saw was Halim and the rest of the youth...yeps saw Abigail. Haha and I saw Diane too..with her tennis bag haha. But I didn't see Justin, or Xavier or Damien. So yea, was wondering what camp it was...hehe. Yep, then slacked around in Cumaran's room, then went for lesson. Hehe was kinda ok? Yea kinad got the hang of it, but only integrating power rule. Haha I'm still lost at the rest, esp trigo O.O Haha.

Then met Barney, DJ, Darren and BK. Heh heard all their stories at Wayne's house the previous night. Haha sounds damn fun man...should have gone. Haha but I heard that his older brother was damnnn scary...Yea. But yea DJ and Barney didn't sleep at all. So you could imagnie how they were like..haha playing lan at 3 am, going swimming in an ice-frozen spine chilling skin cutting swimming pool at 5am. Gosh I should have been there too..haha. Oh and the J-walking part was damn funny. There were at bukit timah road at like 4 am? And yea they jay walked 3 times, and got caught by the police 3 times too! Haha but no fine or anything..Yea DJ was telling me "In the night, there are only 3 types of cars. Fast cars, Taxis, and police cars." Haha yea and Barney told me "DJ said when they were gonna jay walk the thrid time, and DJ said "If there's gonna be another police car horning at us, I'm gonna kill myself."" And guess what, it did. Haha. Gosh can't believe I missed the fun man...yep then we went to play lan at Parklane. Played CS, then later we met Jun Kai, and he joined us. Then we played dota, but Barney sat this one out, yeps. Darren and me vs DJ and BK. Yea we won, but it seemed quite alright. Like, dunnoe haven't played lan for so long. The feeling feels different. Haha. Oh and btw I was in my school uniform throughout. Haha oh well =p Yep, then BK and Darren left in a cab, and DJ left too.

So it was just Barney and me. Walked to PS to eat lunch...first we thought of Subway, but I wanted to eat rice, so we went to Kopitiam. But we couldn't find a seat, so we thought of going to Yoshinoya. But aong the way I also managed to grab salmon sushis. Yep, went down, and the queue was longer than Gavin's younger brother. So we decided LJS, which was next door. But it was crowded too, so we walked to the LJS outside. Yep, finally reached there, and I was so eager to get my hands on the grilled fish with rice, but guess what. They ran out of rice. Haha so yea, wasted trip...oh well. But yea, we sat and ate and talked. Haha was kinda cool to chill out. Yep, and it works even better when it rains outside non-stop. Oh I forgot to mention, I was asking Barney about this girl he talking to when I was at Cine with Kelly last time, and guess what, we coincidentally bumped into her at starbucks. Haha I'm so psychic =P Yep, then we went off (he didn't want to take bus cause he didn't want to fall asleep haha!), and I waited 30 mins for 518. Met Isaac Heng and friends, and Tim Koh and other people also while waiting. Yep.

And that was pretty much my day.

And I was kinda depressed this whole morning...cause I saw so many boys and girls holding hands, and it made me think alot. Alot about what, well I don't wanna say...heh.

Yea and I'm pretty much interested in learning Muay Thai! Haha yea watched some videos on it, hmm and Wayen recommended this place at Macpherson, so yea. Maybe I'll try it out after O's or sth, like during the free months..haha studies first man. =D

But yea. Thank God that she's happy today. Studying with her friends and all. And meeting up with her head prefect. Was praying that she'd not be stressed and be happy..guess my prayers are answered =D

But, there was something slightly different about her post today...hmm...

Anyways, yea I'm trying to cheer myself up now.

Oh and Nicholas (Noelle's younger bro) was so funny! I called Noelle's house, and he picked then I asked him where his sister went. And he was like "Oh my sister went to put this thing into her eyes that make her see better." Then I could hear Agens shouting "Contacts lenses lar!" Then Nic was like, "oh yea lenses...ahh forgot the word lar!" Haha so cute.

But something's bothering me now.

Yeps, looking forward to tomorrow. Haha meeting up with Brandon and all. Yea.

Oh and now my whole body's aching..worked out the whole day, and I finally finished my last packet of proteins...yay now I don't hafta worry about anything expiring anymore...heh...

And luckily the expired bread and peanut butter didn't get into me Yay! Haha...

But I'm guessing she doesn't like me anymore

2008-03-12T06:35:00.000-07:00

Today was kinda ok I guess?

Yea, screwed up my physics spa. But hey, everyone else did, so umm..well don't know whether that's supposed to be encouraging or not. Hmmm...

Yea, satyed in admin room. Slacked. Ate expired bread and peanut butter. That's how crazy I can get. Ooh and the peanut butter had some oil residue on top...hehe I'm so damn gross. Yea, then had quite a stomach ache after that. Went back home, bought Sotong from Old Chang Kee (yummy), then walked home. Hmm yea, then slacked around, played com. Received sms that I have tuition tomorrow.

Yea. Played DOW, talked to Noelle. Gosh I've broken the record. 4 hours! Haha sian my left ear hurts now. I can't even talk that long to Laura, so yea. Awww so sad...

And she can't talk that long either..

Mhm, so I kinda dazed now. Cause I used the com the whole day. Played some funny games from armorgames.com. Ohh and I found this pretty cool puzzle game thing..which is really gory, but screw it haha. Yea, played some other games, surfed the net, especially ____'s blog...couldn't keep my eyes off it...

I'm really scared now. Cause...I think it's my fault she's like that. And I can see something different in her...

I'll just have to wait till friday. But going to friday means I hafta get through thursday. Dammit...hmm oh well.

I really miss the talks we had.

And I still think it's my fault.

Can't get my head off it.

I should have done better..but I didn't...

I don't wanna be this shy anymore...

But still....

Your love's a gathered storm
I chased across the sky
A moment in your arms
became the reason why
And you're still the only light that fills the emptiness
The only one I need until my dying breath
And I would give you everything just to
Feel your open arms
And I'm not sure I believe anything I feel

And now, now that you're near
There's nothing more without you
Without you here

And I'm trying to believe
In things that I don't know
The turning of the world
The color of your soul
That love could kill the pain
Truth is never vain
It turns strangers into lovers
And enemies to brothers
Just say you understand
I never had this planned

And now, now that you're near
There's nothing more without you
Without you here
Without you here
There's nothing more without you
Without you here

My head lies to my heart
And my heart it still believes
It seems the ones who love us are the ones
That we deceive
But you're changing everything
You're changing everything in me

And now, now that you're near
There's nothing more without you
Without you here

Without You Here - Goo Goo dolls.

That's my song for you, babyy♥

2008-03-11T06:43:00.000-07:00

I promise, I'll be strong for you
And I'd stop crying too
In fact I'll try to make them tears of joy
I promise I'll be happy, just for you alright?
=)

2008-03-11T06:35:00.000-07:00

It feels weird.

Even though it's just two days, I...

I feel so empty without her.

Am I alright?

And I'm in the midst of preparing for Physics SPA. I am so dead =D

And kinda tired now...heh I don't want tomorrow to come! But I want friday to come..so yea it's weird I know.

She hasn't been replying my emails....and I can't get to her through the phone...It feels so...

..I can't get a word for it.

Hmm, not sure what else I'm supposed to do.

Hmm and I need to talk to Brandon again..yea. Haha too bad he's overseas now? Yea...oh well. And Noelle's watching L with her friends now. So there's no one to talk to on the phone, maybe except Laura and Candice on skype...but oh well...Nic's also probably busy with school work. Dunnoe lar.

Heh, I'm just deprived, depressed, delusioned...

I'm living for her, breathing for her, singing for
her fairytale...

Heh, I forgot what I was looking for...

2008-03-10T23:01:00.000-07:00

Haiz I shall decide to post.

Haha past two weeks were pretty hectic, tests and so on.

Founder's Day was a blast as usual, haha even teachers like Faizal commented on my mace throwing, so cool haha! Yep.

Hmm rawr I'm too lazy to post about everything happen. So I shall start with just this week. Haha I'm pretty happy that I finally pass an A Maths test! Not only that, I got a distinction for it =D Haha yay happy as a bird. Yep, then on thursday I went for the SAFTI learning journey with Brandon adn his calss. Haha quite interesting, learning about their rations and stuff. And Brandon kept making fun of Shane lor, so mean haha. Oh and going up the SAFTI tower was damn funny! Haha Marcus Ng and Dom Pek were damn funny, like, they were the only jokers like squatting down and not looking down. Haha then when they had to go into the lift they had to lean against the wall to go in...haha yea then after that we all jumped into the lift, then everybody was jumping around and screaming and Marcus Tong was making techno music, and we were all like freaking out...haha even the security guy was laughing when the lift doors opened..haha. Yea and Brandon kept telling me about him receiving awards during the POP there...and like how Laura would run up to him and hug him and say aww I'm so proud of you that kinda thing..haha so cute lar. Yea. And the rations are pretty tasty and feeling, esp the biscuits! Yep, other than that I can't really remember already.

Oh freak I almost forgot about the most important thing! REW! Haha it rocked man! Damien Tang was on E Guit, Kai Bin on acoustics, Jerome on bass, Slim on keyboard, Brandon, Elim and Mr Lai were singing, and me on the drums! Haha the first day was kinda bad, cause we screwed up Adonai pretty badly...but the one on friday went really really well. Haha I didn't make any mistakes at all! But we didn't get to play the bridge of Now that You're Near cause of time constrain...aww but Saviour King still went really well. Haha and the sermons were cool adn pretty comical. The testimonials were interesting...yep...you don't need to see to love..yea. Wonder how it's like being blind. Yeps anyways yea everything went well on the friday REW, so yea. Ooh and the rest of the day was pretty slack. Like, I got dismissed at 1 o clock cause my class had to go for the SAFTI thing, but since I already went on the day before, I didn't need to go =D Yippie haha. So yea, ended up meeting Kel at Orchard, and Clemence was there and I happened to be talking to Brandon over the phone at that time, so yea Brandon talked to Clemence over my phone..wonder what they were talking about...haha. Had to wait for them to take neoprints though. Haha and I also met Mimi there! Haha so coincidental...and she was trying to geuss Kel's name. She kept guessing Karen...dunnoe why haha. And ACS International's so cool! Like, you don't need to tie your hair, you can wear earrings and so on. Haha private schools these days...=p

Yep, then went on a long bus ride with Kel to Hebron. Kelly tried to make things up between me and Daniel, it worked for a while, but then yea things didn't really worked out afetr that. She tried smsing him with my phone...and he deleted my number too. Haha must really hate me man. Oh well, yep reached the church, Met Dan, Nat, Josh and Jasper. They were playing some board game...yea then Arthur came along too. Haha funny guy man..but woah he kinda scared me after he told me that you need to know calculus to do chem! Ahhh haha I better work on my A Maths man...Yea and he was talking about the teens these days..aiyo..haha! Yea, then Arthur, Dan and I went to get food and stuff. And Daniel was busy gyming all the way. Yea haha cool...yep. Then came back, and we sat and listened to this Canadian guy speak about Good Friday. Yep, pretty cool and all, then we had captain's ball! Haha super fun man, and I'm getting the hang of blocking already! Yea man I'm on for this year's CAC haha...yeps. Then we had KFC dinner, and Daniel and I sparred again. Haha pretty fun...oh well. Kinda bored of it though...

Saturday! Band..umm don't wanna talk about it. We had a small jamming session after that, then Brandon and I slept during the fall in of parade, cause we were damn tired...Brandon had a hangover from the party last night, haha yea. Too much Blue Label...stupid Raine, where did you get all those stuff? =p haha kidding lar Raine...Yeps. Then watched the company play Laser Tag. Then I joined Mr Lai, Tim, Damien and Matthew from sniping from the third story. Haha then went down, and like, Nicklaus, Choo, Bin Soon and me were sitting on the bleaches in one line, singing acapella stuff and so on. But we were interrupted by Daniel trying to beat Kentdrew up. Yep, oh well. Then I remember dismissal after that. Gosh haven't had a dismissal for so long, cause I usually leave parade early due to YI, but this year not on saturday anymore, yea. Yep. Then went to Caltex with Jun Kai and Brandon. Drank and talked, went with them to the bus stop, hey got on a taxi, then I went back to Caltex to meet the primers and so on. Haha funny man, I miss calling Matthew cow. Haha was wondering why Bin Soon and Nicklaus and Bryant were talking so much about the Moo Ice cream, then I remembered Matthew. Haha yea. Yea but Damien took even longer to get it..haha good old times mannn...really miss it. Yea, then Choo, Nicklaus and Bin Soon bought this jelly ice cream thing Haha pretty slimy and freaky..yea. Went back, and we started getting ready for Midnight Laser Tag. Yea.

I shall save on paragraph for it. It was damn fun! Haha. We split ourselves into two teams, the CT and Terrors =D (Not so original eh hehe) Yep, I was on the CTs, with Bryant, Uncle Chris, Xavier, Damien, Matthew, Gavin and Hari. Yea and we all spilt ourselves into partners, yea and I was with Xavier. Haha damn good man, good teamwork and so on. Kinda tired on posting every exact detail...but yea. I remember one funny part, like we were walking past the tennis courts and Xavier was in front of me. Went into the tennis courts, and I heard like some gun shooting, but I couldn't see anything (cause it was dark), so yea, ran out, went to look for Xavier, then we took out some people at the toilets, and after that Bryant, Hari, Xavier, Damien and I went to the bleaches to loko for that guy. Haha turned to be Nicklaus, and it was 5v1. So fun...but yea. Then got another time Xavier and I were crawling up the bleaches...I shot Tim twice, which made him run away. Then we proned at the two bleaches. But yea, Weyshi and the rest spotted me, they started shooting and I started running. Haha but they didn't see Xavier there...so yea I managed to survive but Weyshi didn't. Haha oh well...so cool. Nice teamwork. Oh then another one, damn funny. Bryant, Uncle Chris, Xavier and I were camping outside the DNT studio...then Mr Lai popped out, haha and we started chasing him..but we all ran right into a trap..haha so sad then yea we were taken out. And another time, Xav and I were outside the DNt studio, closer to the carpark. We were waiting there, then we decided to move out and take another position, but then the minute Xav went out a torchlight flashed. haha we immediately went back in, and yea, guess who passed by..haha Choo! Then yea were like shooting at melee range..but Xav and I were taken out cause we accidentally shot ourselves...(too close to each other haha!) Hmm and i remember another one where the map was the whole of the 3rd and 4th storey, from primary all the way to secondary. Yea, pretty fun and big. Haha Xav and I managed to survive that one cause we were scouting...yea but those who were camping at the toilet (Damn funny! They were standing on the tabs! haha) didn't survive...but yea we took them out I think? Yea. Oh and Bryant was damn scary in his full camo uniform. Haha I remember Xav and I were walking into the admin block, then Xav told me "Ok, Matthew and I are gonna take the stairs up, you stay here and protect Bryant" then I was like, huh where's Bryant? Then he pointed to the grass patch...haha and even with that it took me a moment to notice something was there! Damn cool lar haha..yeps the rest I'm too tired to talk about it already.

Rawr, yep then yesterday had Geog class. KKp and I went to school together, so yea. Rawrr kinda tired to blog about it..well nothing much happened anyway, except for the morning assembly outside the MRT station, and like KKp tried taking a video of NEK's lesson..haha cool.

Yep, and today...CHEM SPA! Haha Titration didn't come out! Haha but at least QA didn't too...yea the experiment turned out to be quite easy...but I'm pretty worried cause I think I missed out some points..so yea. Oh well, then we had Tang's lesson.

Yep. Rawrr...I think I'll continue posting tonight...

As for now...I'll just go slack off and drown in my dreams.

(Don't think think sick =p)

2008-03-07T08:17:00.000-08:00

I'm just so tired

2008-02-25T06:37:00.000-08:00

Today was kinda bad. Cause it was so tiring for me. And the maths test, gosh I screwed it up man, I couldn't even do one question.

Hmph, and was struggling to keep awake during the lessons. But physics and chemistry was really interesting. Heh and LCK can actually teach. Haha although his analogies are really weird and dodgy, but true haha. Yay then. Yep and for chem spa we did this displacement of water thing. Some metal reactivity test by recording the time taken for a certain metal to react with HCL and produce smoe fised volume of gas..heh but it was pretty screwed cause the first metal took like, forever to react. So yea, didn't do the rest of the metals, then Alex did a review after the spa, like, outside the science staffroom cause we had to get out of the lab. Haha quite cool leh, like everybody was looking at us when they passed by. Haha.

Yep, then Founder's Day rehearsal. Sian I'm kinda bored of throwing my mace already, no thrill already, guess I need to reach greater heights, haha geddit? =p Yep, we rehearsed and so on. Too tired to blog about it.

Yep.

I really don't know why he's so angry with, like deleting me off msn and stuff. I don't even know what I did wrong.

I've not let your secrets out, I've not gossiped about you, I've always been trying to put in good words for you, but suddenly you're angry with me. And that saturday was supposed to be happy....I mean could we just talk? Just tell me what I did wrong, and we can talk things out. I mean, I kinda hope that what Brandon says is true, that brotherhood can be restored...but hmm.

So freakin stressed. I don't really feel like doing anything.

Just lie and watch the world go by. Watch the stars change to suns, and back the vicious cycle again.

If only I could be a shadow, just watching lives from afar. Just relaxing by the beach, watching the sunset, watching a different one everyday. And just be someone's reflection.

I don't wanna be looked up to anymore.

I'm just too tired to scream or shout or cry.

I'm stuck in a hole I can never get out of. And I told Noelle not to be sad, but just look at me...

Come on, my star is fading
And I swerve out of control
If i, if I'd only waited
I'd not be stuck here in this hole
Come here my star is fading
And I swerve out of control
And I swear I waited and waited
I've got to get out of this hole

But time is on your side
Its on your side now
Not pushing you down and all around
It's no cause for concern

Come on, oh my star is fading
And I see no chance of release
And I know I'm dead on the surface
But I am screaming underneath

And time is on your side
Its on your side now
Not pushing you down
And all around, no
It;s no cause for concern

Stuck on the end of this ball and chain
And I'm on my way back down again
Stood on a bridge, tied to the noose
Sick to the stomach
You can say what you mean
But it won't change a thing
I'm sick of the secrets
Stood on the edge, tied to a noose

You came along and you cut me loose
You came along and you cut me loose
You came along and you cut me loose.

Amsterdam - Coldplay

And I just want to hold her hand so much again

2008-02-24T02:42:00.000-08:00

Gosh. Really tired now. Been having less than 7 hours of sleep for the past week.

But well I shall blog anyway.

Yep, yesterday was one of the longest days ever. Woke up at 5 am to polish up my uniform, then left for school. WEnt for this leadership course thing, where other schools were invited, yep. Haha it was kinda funny how we were deciding whether to go or not. Yep, so anyway, went there, had worship, then listened to Bishop Solomon talk about leadership. Yep, then afetr snuck out to the admin room and slacked around. Was really tired by then, tried sleeping in admin room but I couldn't, yea then got quite irritated, don't know why, maybe cause it's lack of sleep. Yep, then had lunch, then went for one of the workshops. Quite interesting. The pastor talked about the world around us, like you know, the influencing media. Learnt quite interesting stuff there. Yep, then when I went out, haha the rest of the guys, like Png and Barney, were like asking me where I went. Haha then they were damn jealous cause the workshop they went to had no girls, whereas the one I went to had alot =p haha. Yea, then slacked around more, then went for parade.

Hmm worship went well. Haha and Elim played well even though it's his first time playing for worship. Yep. Then Mr Kwan shared devotions. Yep, then I was supposed to go for first aid lesson, but when I went down to pack up, I felt disgusted by the dirt in the admin room, so I vacuumed the area instead. Hehe and Silas kept irritating me, but sian I heard he really pissed off Simon that day. Sian dunnoe lar, I'm gonna face alot of problems mann. Yep, then asked permission from Mr Lai to leave early for fusion. Permission granted, changed out, went off with Joel Khoo. Yea, oh and I practiced on my mace with Nicklaus for a while before that. Yep.

So I left, then Joel decided to wait for his friends at Balmorial, so I went to KAP myself. Hehe then I met Noelle at the bus stop. She was waiting with her friend, and she wanted to tell me that she saw Kelly and Daniel at kap. Haha. So yep, met them there, ate my double cheeseburger and drank milkshake, and we (Kelly, Daniel, Joel) waited for Brandon and Josh. Yea, so sat around, talked, then when Brandon came we left, and we met Josh at the bus stop. So yep, took at 74 there I think.

Yes and along the way she told me something, which got my hopes up real high. Haha I mean on the outside I wasn't showing much, but on the inside, I freakin wanted to run around the bus and scream at the top of my lungs =) but sian I was too tired I guess. But we pretty sure had a good talk.

Hmm then we reached there, walked to the auditorium, then we started looking for Dan's and Kel's friends, Charissa and Clara (if I'm not wrong) yep. Had worship first.

Hmm and during the sermon went out to talk. Yep. We talked about alot of stuff. Hmm and Png and Fried saw us. But I don't care. Yep, walked around the campus, and we talked quiet nonsense about how much we wanted each other. We talked about everything we ever thought of. Ok fine I'm exaggerating, but you get the idea. And she looked so innocent =)

Yep. Then byt the time we went back, sermon over. Sian can't believe I missed it out, well it's my fault anyway. Hehe, yea and the song The Saviour King really struck me. Hmm...

Yep, then Brandon had to go cause his mum went to pick him up. Quite sad luh. Yea, and he was freakin tearing on his way out, I think must have been some sms or something...shit.

Yep, then after the thing, we went back. I decided to take a bus from woodlands. Haha but the stupid bus took so long to come, in the end I reached home at about 12? Yea. Kinda sucks haha.

And so today came. Gosh I didn't even know I fell asleep, that's why I was quite shocked when I woke up. Haha yep, was still damn tired from the day before, and I sure was thinking alot too, and so I changed, unwillingly and wearily, then went for church. Yep, practiced for choir, then we went down to service. Haha the singing went quite well, even though it was kinda like my first time actually singing the whole song once through. Luckily there was Kevin there to guide me haha. And yes Noelle was spamming me with questions haha. Hmm was quite bored during sermon, so I decided to write and stuff. Yep. Then service ended, went down to eat. And Raine's was smsing me asking whether I could go out, but yea was busy, hmm sorry Raine! Yea, but I was also too tired to go out luh. So yep, went up, and talked to Noelle for quite a while, heh discussin some stuff, like, erm yea stuff. Secret lar ok. Yep, then we had choir practice again, oh and at the end we joined in with the adult choir cause they wanted to do some special thing for Easter. But oh well, Kevin and I probably won't be there cause we'll be in camp. Yep, then went to hawker centre for lunch. Saw the big bear there. Fine haha Lucas lar, saw him there, and his family. Yep, haha I think he's gonna kill me tomorrow for repeatedly shouting bear. Hehe. Oh and Benjamin did something stupid today.

Benjamin:'Is there a bed in the room?'
Gabriel:'No'
Benjamin:'Oh no then what are going to do?!'

Haha wah lau sick lar you! =p hehe. Yep, then went back home. Had tuition for a short while, then I had to settle some camp matters. Dammit I'm food ic for the coming camp. Ahhh I'm soo gonna screw up lor. And my email has been delayed leh. Dammit, I'm damn scared we can't get food for the camp.

Argh speaking of food, I'm quite hungry now.

And shit I just remembered that I have a comprehension to do. Argh I'm so tired leh, can't think.

Haha.

Die lar.

And I just wanna feel her touch, her warm embrace, ever pleasing and reaasuring, that there's a part of me that's real

2008-02-22T07:57:00.000-08:00

Hiya people.

Really tired. Broke my new year's resolution this week. I slept in class. :( ahh oh well.

Yep Founder's Day is coming up. I'm throwing my mace again..haha but now it seems less stressful. Cause maybe this time I'm only in front of school, wah lau last year freakin did my mace stuff in front of the 6 ACS schools, somemore first time doing. Haha luckily I didn't screw up last year, thankfully. :) Well, hope next thursday goes well. Yep, and I think my throwing's gotten better. Yay, but sian, full dress rehearsal next monday.

Oh yes, and tomorrow we hafta wear full uniform for the leadership course. Sian, hafta go polish later. I'm thinking I won't have any sleep tonight. Yep, then got parade somemore, playing guitar for worship, for songs I've not even practiced haha.

Anyways just now had rehearsal too. But half-u only, yep. Was kinda fun, actually. Haha I love swinging my mace :) Then had dinner with Brandon and Raine. Went to Sakae at Wheelock. Yep, was super tired, so I didn't really talk. Just heard them talk about money and money and more money. Haha I feel super ostracised! Lol kidding lar you two. Yep, then walked to Taka, then went home. Hmm and while I was waiting for the bus Brandon called me to tell me he got hit by a car. Haha damn I think his shoulder's hurting now. But he told me the bleeding's stopped. So yep, yay! Haha and dammit he doesn't want to bring his Gibson Les Paul tomorrow! I'm starting to doubt whether he has one :(

Oh yep. And yes, Fusion tomorrow! I remember last years one, went with Xavier, Damien and people. And I still remember we were all teasing Prash and Becky at that time. Haha...and I still remember the incidences with Tiff and some other girls. But tomorrow's gonna be different I guess. Cause Xavier's in Chiangmai, probably the rest of them are too.

But haha, I'm really looking forward to something tomorrow. It's not what's happening in Fusion, but what's gonna happen during Fusion. :) Yea, heh somebody wants to tell me something, and I can kinda guess what's going to happen, but I don't wanna get my hopes too high, or rather my dread to high. Whatever hehe.

Just wanna see her so much

Oh yes, I've not done Simon's corrections. Haha stupid Bin Soon go and remind me. Hehe my theory really sucks.

Yep. Oh yea, met Kirk and his dad while walking home. Haha they were resting from their excercise. Hehe kinda brought back memories of me and me dad. Remember how I would kick this ball aimlessly around the field, and my dad would kick it back.

Well, now I hardly even touch the field or the ball.

Hmm.

Troll bridge.

I really love Neil Gaiman's books.

Yep. Makes me think. About the past. About the future.

About the present.

If time was a tangible....I think that'd be cool.

Sian. i've got nothing much to post, or rather I'm just too tired. Argh.

I want to sleep :(

2008-02-17T06:32:00.000-08:00

Today was just another brilliant day.

Woke up feeling shitty, cause I had like, weird dreams of which I couldn't remember. And yea, I woke up a few times during my sleep cause it was too cold. Bleah, hehe.

Yep, then washed up, got ready, and I follow my parents to church cause our Chinese Oriental Beauty, ok ok fine fine I won't call you that anymore, Noelle wanted to give me my valentine's gift. So yep, luckily I met her downstairs already, heh and she gave me a card and nicely wrapped chocolates! Haha thanks! Yep, and the card you wrote was encouraging, thanks you very much =D Yep, so I went to CCK in high spirits. Haha.

Yep, took about 50 mins to get there by train, then took a 302 to Hebron. Whoo haha the first person I met the Kelly, while she was walking down the staircase. And she let her hair down, first time I saw her like that, hehe. Yep, then she brought me to the sec 4 classroom, yep and Aaron, Caleb, Joseph(the teacher) and Daniel were already inside. Haha then Joseph decided to cancel class cause most of the guys had to practice for some valentines thing. So yep, we talked cock for a while, ate some 'old school' bubblegum, then we all went down to the social hall area thing. Met Josh and Aleithia and some other people there. Heh they were blowing, or rather bursting, balloons that they were gonna sell to raise funds. Yep, then the youths split up into two groups and started practicing. Yep, I followed Daniel and Kelly's group. Haha and it was funny, as in the dance moves and everything. Yep, then I got kinda bored, so I walked around, started singing to myself, had withdrawal symptoms from music, thus I took out my drumsticks and started practicing on my leg/shoe. Yep, then after the service ended(which meant people would start coming down, duh), they got all ready to perform. Haha so cute lor, and yes Caleb was singing solo! Haha so cool, but I didn't get to hear him. Aww, yep so they sang and and sang, and Vivienne attempted to sell balloons to me three times, of which she failed miserably, three times. Hawhaw see i'm soo evil now. Yea, I was slacking in some classroom, then Viv started slacking too, then others soon joined in. Haha then Viv got bored, so she borrowed my arm. Yep, now it's red, and kinda itchy too. Haha gpsh then wehn Kelly saw she was like, wanna add green to that? Haha then I was like ok ok fine go ahead. Haha yep. They also kinda started to take a break in this really big room with glass walls and doors. Oh yea, I also met Ryan, James, Joel, Arthur, Nat, Limin, and ermm haha can't remember ahh. Oh and I saw Stella too, yea. Yep, oh and Aleithia was also going around sucking helium. Haha and gosh, Viv doesn't even need helium to hit a high pitch. She can do it naturally lor, haha that's how high her voice is. And Daniel was also going around throwing his best friend Stitch, with the mohawk hair. Yep, haha couldn't stop thinking of the songs This Is Your Life and Learning To Breathe. Yep, oh and Kelly and Vivienne vandalised my arm even more, actually just Viv haha, Kelly just left off with the xoxo :) in green, while Viv wrote Urii hearts Daniel (of which I rubbed off and became a smudge on my arm and hand) and Urii is gay :D, yea. Aye, 14 year old girls these days...aiyo...=p Yea, then at around 12 my parents called, so I had to go back to church for lunch with then Adult Fellowship.

It's pretty amazing, how old people, who've been through all the hate and sorrow and agony, can still sit in a chinese restaurant on a sunday afternoon and have the laughs of their lives. That kinda gives us a reason not to be sad eh.

Yep, and it's probably also because of the power of God living in them =D

Yep, then went back home, fooled around with the com, then left for my granduncle's house for dinner. Haha it was quite alright, but Karen and Anne didn't go, so I was quite bored. Well at least Ryan and Renette was there. Oh and they've got a parrot now. Haha all it can say is uh oh (though I think it's making an attempt to say hello), and of course it's other birdie sounds. Ok that doesn't sound right...anyways, yep food was good, then Ryan kept bugging me to ask my uncle to let us play his xbox, and so he did. Yep, played played and played, then had some phototaking, then we left. Took a train home, yep so now I'm back.

Really don't wanna go to school tomorrow.

And I so wanna see her again.

Yep, Kelly gave me my valentine's gift today. A heart shaped photoframe, and a nicely written letter. Yes, alot of things has happened since December, and thank God my friend's mum signed me up for Bible Trail, hehe. It's pretty amazing how you tell my 5 most important things without me telling you. Somemore in only a time of 3 months. Haha, and yea the drawings are pretty cute, and what's up with the future g.f./wife thing! Haha yep and sorry I keep forgetting to link Daniel and Wayne! Haha remind me someday, I'm too tired now...yep, so once again, thanks for all the stuff! Especially the letter and post-its =)

Oh erm, I'm not really sure how to use the photoframe, so yea...haha gosh I really do suck =p

Aww Viv of course you're a siao monkey! Haha well guess that doesn't make me much better haha.

And freak my parents just ruined my train of thoughts...Noelle now I really know why it's so irritating when people disturb you while you're blogging....

Still dreading school.

I want today to repeat itself again, forever.

Feel like I've left out on something today.

Or maybe I just forgot what I was looking for.

2008-02-16T06:37:00.000-08:00

Yay I'm pretty happy now.

Yep, yesterday, school, yep. Quite alright, like usual crazy studd happened and so on. Haha cool every friday I get to be in the same class as KKP for 2 hours, cause of Geog and clb class haha. Yep, and in clb we finally did our test that we were supposed to do 2 weeks ago before superteens haha! Oh yea, Tang didn't come to school, so we had like, a so called free double period? Yea, but we still had to read something about the Timor-Leste peacekeeping thing. Then during lifeskills Mak taught e maths for half an hour, then at the end of lesson he said, ok today you were all supposed to learn respect and honour, so yep, please go out as if you learnt it. Haha yeaa, then went concert hall for come cip briefing.

Oh and before that all that we had Total Defence celebration during assembly.

Yep, then after school Brandon and Jerome came to my house just to skype with Laura. Haha yea actually only Brandon wanted to come, then he dragged Jerome along haha. Yea, then we skyped with like, Laura, Candice and some other people. Yep, then we trash talked for a while, and they did stupid stuff that I shall not mention when I was taking my longg shower =D

Yep, then after that Brandon and I went to meet Raine at Orchard. Haha we were late, then Raine kinda died waiting for us. Yep, went to Crystal Jade Kitchen at Shaw House. Food there not bad luh, and also relatively cheap. Notice the relatively. Yep, then we had a good talk, yeaa, and kidna depressing to hear what Brandon and Raine's going through. Sian I wish I had the power to like take away problems and regrets. You could say that's why I had enough of LDRs...
Yep, we walked from Shaw House to Forum, then Brandon and Raine went off to do something, while I went to this Jackie Chan Cafe. Haha quite cool la, their drinks are quite good. And the place is like some Jackie Chan FC. Haha. Yep, then Brandon and I walked Raine home (see both of us so good right =p) then we walked back to Shaw House, or rather halfway Brandon took a cab, then I took the train home.

Haha today was really fun. Had band in the morning, yep. And I tell you, I can never be a teacher. I suck at teaching lar! Haha like, teaching Silas to do basic rudiments was really hard. Heh, and Silas, sigh no wonder Bin Soon and Kenneth pushed him to me...sian haha. Yep, then we had combine, to practice for Founder's Day. Yep, I'll be doing the mace again! Can't wait to throw and throw and throw =D Yep, then after band I changed out to school uniform, then went oldham hall jam for a while, then went to Novena to do my cip. Sian it wasn't that bad after all, even though I did it alone, but it was mentally tiring, I mean, like I noticed how singaporeans would do anything to get out of the way of a student holding a tin can. =( so sad right. I think doing Flag Day in New Zealand would be way better, the people there are so nice heh. Oh but anyway I came across something funny. Like, I asked this Caucasian guy whether he wanted to donate, then he stopped, took out two 50 cent coins, then he said "Hey guys, hurry come over here" Then I was like, expecting like tall causasian teen boys to come here, but then two young girls came instead. Then I like, quite shocked? Haha yea then they were so cute also, eurasian, and like when their dad passed them the coins, then they were like "Huh what's this for?" until they saw me holding the can, then they were like, "Oh hee ok" Haha. Yep, and I noticed that alot of people go to church in Novena on saturdays. So cool..haha. Yep, then I decided to go back at 4.30 instead of 5, cause I was quite tired. Haha then the people were so kind, say I could consider it as I came back at 5, so I got 30mins free cip. yep, then went back to school cause Damien wanted to go out for dinner after parade. Yep, went back, then Xavier told me he had worship practice, so I decided to go see them. Ooh and Justin Low sings well man. Haha and cool the drummer guy let me play one song, haha had lotsa fun singing and playing. Yep then after the practice Xavier, Bala and I kinda like did impromptu jamming. Like take out random scores and play. Hehe yay!

Oh and I can finally sing This Is Your Life by Switchfoot properly! Dunnoe leh, like the more hyper I am the higher my voice can go =D

Yep then went for dinner at Waffletown with Damien, Xavier, Weyshi, Othniel, Bin Soon, Nicklaus and Choo. Haha brings back memories of midnight practices before PND. Yep, haha yea and Bin Soon and Nicklaus were being retarded. They were playing Bluff with chilli packets =.=' Haha. Hawhaw and my cookies and cream milkshake came super late cause of the long queue...heh oh well. Yep, then Xavier, Damien and I walked to newton, and tehy were telling me tales of the floods to newton. Haha got currents somemore haha. And awww, must always bring extra socks on rainy days =D Yep, oh and Xavier was like "hmm yea something about the something and deterrence" then I was like "Diplomacy and Deterrence", then I asked him why why talk about it, then he went "Oh cause I'm not doing it anymore" Then I was like, arghhh haha. Sian O levels lar, haha. Yep, then Damien took the bus, Xavier went to woodlands, while I went back.

Oh and so sad, I couldn't use my mp3 cause it ran out of battery. I didn't know that I didn't switch it off during band. So it was playing for 3 hours non-stop...sian. Then I didn't charge the two previous days also. Sian haha.

Yep, so yea. Today was really fun. I miss playing at BRMC. Haha in fact I miss the drums already, even though I just saw her 4 hours ago haha.

And Laura's happy now. =)

Yay so Brandon don't worry!

Yep.

Still waiting on the world to change.

Though like, O's still coming.

Sian.

Rhythmic Photographs.

And I sooo wish that I could dream of her

2008-02-14T05:51:00.000-08:00

Alright. Still damn tired though.

So yep, one funny thing happened when I woke up this morning, I found that my shirt was inverted...wonder what I was dreaming...

Anyways, let's start from yesterday. Yep, woke up, went to school. WE had PE first, and this time we ran Asimont Lane instead. Yep, but Mr Lai gave us timings to achieve instead..sian first round was 5 mins for my group, and we got 5.02, then next round was 4.30, and we got from 4.10 to 4.35 (Lionel and I got 4.10, yay!), As for physics, we went through workbook again, then E Maths, the in chinese class I got scolded for doing maths work during Chang Zheng's lesson. Haha then he made me stay back during to pack his classroom, but it was for like only 10 mins? So yea, went down and Fan helped buy food, haha so kind, yay thanks Fan! Yep, then Chem, Glenn Wong talked to us about the penal code of the law, and like how if teachers get distressed, they can go make police report. Sian we're all gonna die HAHA fine fine...yep, then he taught us about organic chem. Yep. Then maths, then end of school. Went jamming! Sian, sorry Brandon for not seeing you cut your hair, so yep. And Jerome and Sean and the rest too. So yep, went there first, cause DJ, Fan and Barney went to pick up their darlings back at home. Yep, then we jammed I'm Not Okay, Slither, Face Down, and DJ and I jammed Can't stop, then Barney added fill ins at the back haha. Yep, was quite nice, except I really need to practice on my bass kicking. My right foot has spasms lar, but hey I got good excuse. I did physical conditioning that morning, so I had cramps in my legs! Haha. Yep, then went home after that.

Stone age.

Today. Yes, as I've said before, I woke up this morning with my shirt inverted. It's either I was dreaming the earlier night, or I was sleep walking. 0.o, sian dunnoe luh.Yep anyways, went to school, and we missed the first period due to the temperature taking. And alot of people didn't bring thermometers too, so yea we got scolded like hell. Yep, tehn physics class. Eric went through workbook again. And he found about the scheme my calss was doing to someone, so yep he talked to us about it when that person was not in class.

Someone's crying as I type this.

Anyways, yep and I found a reason why Eric Loh has to gym. Cause he teaches PHYSICS! Haha right too lame man. Yep, then we had english class. We did a compo, of which I had no idea about. Then amy said if we don't finish she'd send us for academic dc. But yea in the end she gave chance, so yea. Sian, till now I still have no idea. I need inspiration. Yep, then after that, we had our GEOG TEST! Haha went pretty alright, though I didn't really study for it and that I didn't have time to finish my level of response question..sian die luh haha.

Yep then recess. Queues were super short today cause most people were queuing up for free food from the parents =D I love those days haha.

And SS was surprisingly good. Cumy and I were damn scared cause we've not passed up our assignments though we finished it a long time ago. Yea, we wanted to pass up yesterday, but we couldn't find Tang, so yea. But then today he was like "Ok those who still owe assignments hurry pas it to Pereira now." Then I was like, huh, no scolding? No dc? Woah shiok lar! Haha yea. Cumy and I were like jumping inside haha. Yep, then chemistry. Glenn Wong wasn't there, so Alex took over. Went through a worksheet. Then last two periods were sec 3 amaths revision by Lynnette Loh. Yep, she was really tired though, yea then Shaun, Lucas and I were spamming lame jokes..yep. Sian haha. Then after school went to look for teachers and so on.

And we're too late to sign up for Band Age! Haha oh well, let's just do some free jamming then =D

Yep, then Jerome and I went to Swee Lee. Jerome was like "Eh all the couples coming liao."Haha, looked around. Pretty amazed at the cheap prices of the Squirres. Haha I soooo wanna get that hello kitty acoustic Squirre that cost like 300 only. Haha I'm retarded I know. Yea and I wanna get new sticks. Like 5AN Vic Firth sticks, yea babyy haha. Then Jerome got his cable, and we were stoning in there for like one hour, waiting for Brandon's call. Then we were all too tired, so we decided to go home. Yep.

So now I'm back, still webcamming with Laura. Hehe haven't seen her in specs for a long time man. Gosh and this is what Noelle said when I told her that Laura looked like her when she put her specs on, in terms of her eyes...

noelle/ ti amo, te quiero (: says (10:16 PM):
you trying to say the girls you've liked before all look alike?

Haha sian dunnoe luh. Yep then she told me about some girl in her class too....

noelle/ ti amo, te quiero (: says (10:26 PM):
then she was like "noelle! do this!" then she looked down.
noelle/ ti amo, te quiero (: says (10:26 PM):
so i was so guai,
noelle/ ti amo, te quiero (: says (10:27 PM):
i listened to her
noelle/ ti amo, te quiero (: says (10:27 PM):
and i looked down
noelle/ ti amo, te quiero (: says (10:27 PM):
as in i just moved my eyes only
noelle/ ti amo, te quiero (: says (10:27 PM):
not allowed to move my head
noelle/ ti amo, te quiero (: says (10:27 PM):
then she pointed to my friend "see, see!"
noelle/ ti amo, te quiero (: says (10:27 PM):
then she was like
noelle/ ti amo, te quiero (: says (10:28 PM):
"noelle, i think you're like some chinese oriental beauty." "i think you're pretty." "oh yes and i think you have a really nice nose".

Heh I'm just bored and since she posted up my conversations, might as well post hers up too =)

Yep, also just had a nice long chat with Kelly. Actually just 15 mins only, quite short compared to Brandon =P

But I really felt sad when she put down the phone.

Haha yep, so now I'm still skyping with Laura, talking to Noelle and Kevin on msn, and soon I'm gonna be off to finish off my compo. Sian luh.

I still have to compose 8 bars of a march score by this saturday. The other drummers have to do it too..haha sian must jiayou!

But yep, pretty happy now, and also now I have to make Laura happy also, or not Brandon will kill me. Then I'll be in the newspapers.

Okay random.

But lovely still.

And happy valentines everyone.

Suddenly today has so much meaning for me. I don't know what for, but yea.

Love. I think I'l put that in my compo.

2008-02-12T06:11:00.000-08:00

First thing, I wanna apologise to Kelly cause I promised her that I'll blog yesterday, but aye was really tired. In fact I'm still tired now, but I just need to pen my thoughts somewhere.

And yes Noelle I'm so gonna kill you for putting up the conversation =p

So yesterday, was dreading school. But it turned out alright. Yep, and spa was surprisingly relaxing, though I was supposed to take it seriously. Heh, oh well. Yep, then after school went out with Brandon. We took a walk down memory lane, down to the starbucks. Yep, sat and talked. Sweetalk, that is =p. Yep, then Raine came by, and we all had a good chat. I felt super left out though, cause they were like talking cash, like literally cash coming out of their mouths =p. Oh well, I love being poor anyways :)

Yep, then today wasn't that bad either. Chinese and Geog lessons were fun, with Kirk and Mitch. Haha yep like doing geog, this guy said Dev was going to be like gourmet beef after lesson (looking at the way Mitch and I kept slapping Dev), then Mitch was like 'But isn't gourmet beef the one where you have to rub and massage and so on?' then the other guy went 'Yea precisely!' Haha, and my physics test went pretty alright, though I got my cable tension question wrong hehe. Yep, other lessons weren't that bad too.

Yep, then this relief teacher guy released us early, so yea we got dismissed at 1.50. Haha cool right? Then Kirk and I quickly rushed down so that we could go home early, but in the end the 23 turned up like ages later, so we were like 'We could have taken our time to come here....' Haha oh well...yep then Kirk went off while I bought my Sweetalk cause his TV thing was on, yep. And the chocolate milkshake was surpringsly good today, like the ice was blended perfectly, and it was really sweet. Heh yay!

So I went home, played dow, then Brandon scolded me for playing, then I talked to Zach, Laura and Brandon on msn. After that, cycled of for a haircut. My hair looks funnily funky now, but other than that it still kinda sucks. Then after I cut my hair, went to Tampines Mall to buy BLUE pe shorts, cause my black ones aren't authorised anymore =(

Cost me a bomb. Well it was the only pair I could find...

Yep. Then came back, webcammed with Laura over skype hehe, so cool. Really miss her and Lynn. Hehe and Lynn is like camera shy, like..hmm what's webcam in Latin? Webcamaphobia...right that's not even a word.

But well, I'm feeling down now.

Cause Brandon and Laura are both sad. It's making me sad too.

It's making me think of her.

How much I need her.

How much I miss her even though she's on the same island with me.

And she looked sad in some of the pictures that I saw her with her family...

Sometimes I really wonder.

Don't feel like going to school tomorrow again.

Wish I could be a jumper. I could visit my bro in UK, I could visit my uncles and aunties and cousins in Sydney, I could visit the Ngs in Perth. But not all dreams can come true.

Can't wait for her to come on msn again...

But that's all we can do sometimes. Just wait. And hope. Hope that it comes your way.

Sunday's over, sunday's gone. Yesterday, dead and over.

Yesterdays.

If only tomorrows were yesterdays.

2008-02-10T04:56:00.000-08:00

And so it's finally the end of this beautiful week.

Alot has happened. Alot that I want to remember.

Laura and Lynn flew off this morning. It was sad, really. And Brandon's smes made me feel really bad. Couldn't concentrate during service, so instead I took a stroll around telok ayer street. Bought coffe from 7-11, then walked around. Was actually thinking about nothing. Just that the soong La La Lie by Jack's Mannquin kept playing in my head.

'I'm coming back to my girl'. I've never actually felt sad for myself this week. More like, I've been putting myself in other people's shoes. And it still hurts. I've been thinking about Kelly, Laura, Lynn, Brandon, Noelle, Ryan, Raine, Shaun. It still hurts ultimately, just from a different angle. Imagine what it's like to be really close to someone, then suddenly she goes off a thousand miles away from you. Would you want to get to where she is, would you even be able to lift your head in the first place. Hmm, gonna take 2 months to find out.

Anyways, yea back to church. Haha Seck Heong found my blog, cause he did his weekly search. Haha yea. Haha yep, then hung around social hall. Talk and stuff. Dawn told me that Tessa was going to cook dinner for their family tonight. Haha Gabriel get your charcoal pills ready =p haha kidding lar Tess =D I wanna try your food too =D. Yep then like 8 of us tried sqeeuzing itno Uncle Beng Hwee's car. Haha I was left out, couldn't sqeeuze. Aww so yep, took train with the others then. Was fooling around with the com when we reached Ben's house. POTC 3 was also showing on their dvd. Yep, then Kenneth said grace for lunch, and we ate! But I only remembered to eat afetr a while, cause I was engrossed on the computer =D Yep, ate, watched the movie, then Keneth started the CNY games! Haha. The first game was the girls had to peel oranges, and whoever peeled the fastest wins! Haha Hannah won, hehe then it was the sec 4 boys turn. We had to eat the oranges they peeled, HAHA! Yea but hey, we got lotsa team work man. It was supposed to be competitive, but all of us took out time, then we ate till our last piece. Then we all counted to 3, and finished it together. =D See, such good sportsmanship. So in the end there was no winner. Haha! Yea. Then for the other games I can't really remember. So yep, after that some played monopoly, others watched Star Wars 2, while Marck and I played Audi. hehe I had to help him lor, see I'm so kind. =) Yep, also taught Hannah how to play Thousand Miles cause she kept bugging me, heh. Then Geraldine and Hannah left, then Marck left too. Oh and I've learnt the first part of Tears in Heaven, yay! Haha. Then Noelle and Agnes (surprisingly) came. Haha thought they weren't gonna come. So yep, they were in the room the whole time cause they didn't want to go out, so yep, talked and stuff. Hehe and Noelle scolded me for that tag haha. Yep, and we were all laughing to the youtube we were watching, like, Mad tv and other stuff. Haha. Oh and Benedict loves Lynn now! Haha kidding luh. Yep, then everyone started leaving one by one, so we all decided to just leave together. And I don't believe the sisters don't have a sense of direction at all. Yep, so we all went home after that.

La la lie.

Went from Lakeside to Tampines. Well, still can't beat going from CCK to Tampines. Haha, yep, went home delighted though, cause I finally managed to get my fried sotong from Old Chang Kee. Yay! Haha.

Really tired now though. Can't do my physics, cause I don't understand it at all. Heh, yea and I'm too tired to think. Had a long chat with Brandon on the phone. Haha yep talked to Wayne on msn too.

It's been exactly 12 hours and 26 minutes since they left.

Anyway, thought I'd put up the lyrics to the song that kept playing through my head today.

La La Lie by Jack's Mannequin.

Guess what I'm done
Writing you songs
You'll give up your job at the bank
Proving money's not fun when you're gone
So this is the first verse
It's not very long
But I'm ready to move on

Guess what I'm done
Writing your book
The ending got twisted around
But for all the hell that it took
The electrical wires
They'll hum in the walls
In the room that I rent now without you

I've got friends who (La La Lie)
Will help me pull through (La La Lie La La La Lie)
The spaceman that can't get high
I'm coming back to my girl by July
Yeah yeah yeah

That's right

So guess what I'm done
Drawing your pictures
I'm dulling the day with a drink
In a parking garage by the theatre
We met for a movie
Every scene was a sign
We made out through their meaning

Well I've got friends who (La La Lie)
Will help me pull through (La La LieLa La La Lie)
The spaceman that can't get high
I'm coming back to my girl by July
Yeah yeah yeah yeah

Guess what I'm done
Writing you songs
I'm far too unstable to settle
I doubt that the doctors are wrong
So I'll wait by a palm tree, a palm tree, a palm tree

Well I've got friends (La La Lie)
To help me pull through (La La LieLa La La Lie)
The spaceman that can't get high
I'm coming back to my girl by July

Well I've got friends who (La La Lie)
Will help me pull through (La La Lie)
This song for a long goodbye
I'm coming back
I'm coming back to my girl
Back to my girl

This song for a long goodbye
I'm coming back to my girl by July

2008-02-09T05:50:00.000-08:00

If only my dreams could come true.

Gosh talking to someone makes me feel happy already. Haha yea.

Just felt like typing something. Wanna watch kung fu dunk again. And I wish I could like that. And P.S I Love You too, just makes me feel like living again. Like, stop living a dead life, and move on and do what you do best. And Kung Fu Dunk has made me realised that every small action in your life counts. Whether it'd be a shot, or a pass, or a dunk. Everything has it's consequences.

Yep, and I'm still looking at the prints.

If only I had the 'altering universe' skill.

Think life would be way cooler, but it would be unfair, wouldn't it?

Oh well.

Just one more plane ride and it's done.

2008-02-09T04:33:00.000-08:00

Hmph I wanted to go bathe first, but due to Brandon's pressing demands, I shall blog first =D

Today was fun too.

Woke up in the morning at around 9 plus, then played DOW, then Brandon called me to ask me to meet him earlier. Haha and he scolded me for playing DOW again. So yep, went down to Orchard at around 11.15. Yea then we bought starbucks at wheelock and walked around, waiting for the three sisters to come. Yep, so they came, met them at Shaw, then Raine left to look for SOMEBODY =D, while the rest of us went up to watch Kung Fu Dunk and P.S I Love You. Both movies were good. Haha and I sure had fun watching Kung Fu Dunk. The couple were doing funny stuff in the back row, while Lynn and I were staring at Jay Chou whoo HAHA! Yea, and the movie got cut off halfway due to technical difficulties haha. But they managed to get it on again, and not only that now I have a ticket to any free movie within this month! Haha so cool gosh I want my movies to cut off halfway more often =D Yea but that made us late for p.s. I love you, but both movies were good anyway. Gosh I really wished I could be some kung fu kid who plays basketball. Haha and Laura and Lynn couldn't stop , ahem, haha nevermind I shan't say.

Then we went off to Heeren to take prints again. Sian still prefer the previous ones, and you all should know why =D Yep, but hey, my decoration on it doesn't look that bad after all. Haha! Yea and Christine looked really pissed leh. Hehe she was angry about the fact that she walked everywhere just to look for us...hehe oh well. And now Lynn's jealous that Shaun and I have Transformers belts! (Mine's fake though =D), and now she wants me to get one for her..haha sian I'm gonna go broke!!!!

Yep, then after that we walked back to Shaw, then the girls left. Hmph so sad, won't be seeing them(Except Raine, cause she's staying) till' April. Hmph well it's only 2 months man, will see them soon haha.

Yep, then after that Brandon, Shaun and I were hanging around Far East Plaza, then my bus came, so I left, while the two of them had a good chat.

Sian, Laura and Lynn's still leaving tomorrow. I'm serious about the bombing thing man. Besides, Lynn was wearing a U.A.E coloured top today, suits the occasion =D

Yea, and come to think of it, the shirt I'm wearing brings back lotsa memories.

The 'Gifted' Shirt.

Yea, New Zealand Strawberries, Xavier's 'The Third Leg', my embarrassment in front of Choey, Alex's friend on being 'talented', Carnival ice cream, Bible Trail, Vivienne's corrupted thoughts, Laura's perfume, Lynn's tears, Brandon's not-gay-at-all hugs(Haha!), Orchard's smoke, and alot more other stuff that takes time to remember.

Gosh. Memories.

Good or bad, it's up to us to make it.

Still, I'm dancing inside.

Rambling thoughts.

And I really need a hug from them now.

Haha gonna miss this week as it's coming to an end.

Stress is coming back, like right now I'm already worrying on school work. Ahh die luh.

Hmm and Noelle's pretty angry at me for what I said on her taggie, hmph and she's not going to church tomorrow too. Yea, Brandon might be coming though.

Yep, oh well.

Really don't wanna face school again.

The anxiety's enough to kill me.

And not when I'm still thinking of her

2008-02-08T08:03:00.000-08:00

Scary movie 4 is funny.

Haha just watched it...yep.

Yesterday was pretty alright. Seemed kinda normal though, like, I've been through 15 years of CNY, gets kinda boring...

So yea, started of with church service. But I spent most of the time either jamming with myself in the choir room or library. Besides, the sermon was in hokkien which was translated into chinese -.- haha. So yea, pretty much couldn't understand anything during the service...then after that I went off to Uncle Joffrey's house (Not sure if his name's spelled like that, I mean, I've never actually seen their names on paper before..) in Jurong. Haha pretty cosy..sat around, watched Hi 5 cause Zachary (my nephew) was watching it...haha. Then the rest of my relatives came, pretty soon Matthew came too, so I played dynasty warriors on his psp. Whee haha and we were watching American Idol on tape at the same time. Anddd, Josiah's still soooo cute! Haha. After all that phototaking and tv watching, we left for Uncle Christopher's house. Yep, and Ryan's gained alot of weight...hmm is 35kg ok for an 11 year old kid? Haha and yay Anne came too..yep good that she's decided on a course, yay =). Yea and Karen's guitar's abit broken..haha but well at least still playable hehe. Yea and Renette's not that shy anymore, and yes she's on our (Karen, Anne and me) side on whacking Ryan hawhaw. And Josiah find Ryan funny haha like everytime he kicks me Josy would laugh...aww watching his uncle get bullied by a p5 kid. HAHA yea. And yea Josy gets fascinated by guitars and pianos and trains and stars too. Yay and he can talk abit too whoohoo haha. Then after that went off to cemetery to visit grandparents....hmm not a very nice thing to say issit...but we'll be there someday too...it's supposedly the 'better' place to rest in such a crazy world. And the song Concrete Girl by Switchfoot kept ringing in my head as I walked around. Funny eh...well then set off to granduncle's place in Jurong again. nothing much has changed hehe. Cept now they have a dog! Haha and he doesn't bark at all. Anyways we had steamboat, and there was no fish =( Haha. But the claypot rice was good...yep. Then stoned around with the dog, with Ryan going crazy, being fascinated by thoughts of people jumping off buildings..yea wonder what he's been doing haha. And Renette was so bad to me, like when Karen held her hand then she would be brave enough to pat the dog, but when I held her hand she purposely didn't want to pat the dog haha so young learn how to bully older people liao...or wait, issit just me :'( haha. NEVERMIND =)

Yep, today woke up at 1.30 pm. Whoo longest sleep this year. Played DOW again, and I actually decided to play dota too, with ais luh haha and man I suck, still won though hehe. Sian pretty bored now, with no more visitings haha. And surpringly I wasn't excited over the hong baos at all. Haha was just looking forward to this long break from school. Haha yea, no homework, no stress. Feels so good not to worry again. Wonder how long it'd last though.

Yep.

Still thinking of her.

Hmm and just to think of it, isn't it convenient to have two of your closest buddies to date each other. Like, you can hang out with both of them at the same time more easily haha. Right, 'B' and Rawrr? =D

And yes, Laura's going off this sunday! Noooo dammit I'm gonna bomb the airport then she won't have to leave anymore. Yay Brandon you should help me too =D

And I still so wanna take neoprints(whatever they're called) again with the four of us =D

Yes and I'm not gonna lose anything in that bet, Brandon =p

Haha and NO Vivienne, I'm not married so I'm not gonna treat you or give you hong baos, but YOU on the other hand, should be giving me hong baos (cause of Daniel) =pppp Haha JOKESS =D

Sian Scary movie's still so funny haha.

Oh well.

Gonna miss alot of things...

Especially wednesday...

I want to fall in love with you =)

2008-02-06T07:15:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was good.

Got scolded by amy in the morning though, cause I didn't bring my vocab book for the second time..haha but the rest of the day was good.

Concert sucked, however. And the CO, I was kinda disappointed..things really do seem different without the 07 batch...hmm oh well.

Well, went home after school to find out that my tuition was canceled..haha so I played DOW for the rest of the day...

Today was a day that I shall never forget. =D

But I woke up late, haha...so yea, rushed to school to help my bro take some photos and stuff, then met Brandon and Kelly. Haha Brandon was talking on the phone, Kel was changing in the toilet and I was rushing around school taking photos. Then we went off to Far East to meet Joshua, walked around looking for a store that was closed in the end, hehe. Then after that Brandon went off to meet Laura and Raine, while Josh, Kel and I had lunch at KFC. =D Heh Kenny was there too. Oh and I saw lotsa Barker people in Orchard too, like Shafiq, Shennon, Wong Jieh and so on..haha. Yep, after lunch, went off to Borders to meet up with the couple and the sister, while Josh left off to Kinokuniya(Oh btw Happy CNY too! Haha). Heh Kel kept saying that Laura and Raine were so prettyy haha. Yep, met them at starbucks, then we went off to Cineleisure, at the same time Raine went off to look for her friend. Haha guess what, we met Barney, Zach, KKP, Mitch, Fan, Wayne, Robert, Darren, Nico, and some other people too..haha and Wayne could recognise Kel haha. Yep, bought the tickets, walked around Cine for a while, Kel also bought new slippers, then the four of us, Brandon, Laura, Kel and I decided to go to Heeren to *ahem* sadly, take neoprints(whatever they're called). Haha but eh quite fun decorating leh =D Yep, then went back to meet the rest, then went to watch The House. The starting was kinda weird, cause like I didn't get the scares and I thought it was quite immature and so on, but the rest of the shwo was kinda good. Like there was actually a storyline to it. Haha and I find that some of the scares were quite original, like the girl was screaming then covered her face, but then realised that there were four hands on her face =D haha that one was good. Lefty early though, cause Kel needed to go back by 4. Yep, took a bus, talked and so on...yea discussed about stuff and so on...yep then took a train back to Orchard, but Brandon told me to go home, cause Laura had to go already. Yep, so I embarked an the longest train journey ever. Haha, oh and I met Aunty Brenda at city hall also. Haha she went shopping, and gosh Lenin's gonna cook! Haha so fortunate to have your son as a good chef =D. Yep, oh I was super sad when I got off. Cause I was so anticipating my Fried Sotong from Old chang kee, but both outlets at tampines mall and century square were closed! :'( So sad...so I went home on an empty stomach =( haha.

Well, then went back home, bathed, went out for reunion dinner at outram park. =D Yummy, and I've got Kelly's drinking syndrome also..haha I drank 5 cups of tea, 1/4 cup of wine, 2 cups of coke, and 1 cup of coffee and I still was thirsty. Must have been the starch from my 3 bowls of shark's fin soup =P Haha

And erm..

(IT HAS BEEN MOVED VIA STH ELSE =D)

2008-02-04T05:36:00.000-08:00

Now the wait is over. As I've promised, I'm gonna post up the pics on friday. Enjoy, and uhh viewer discretion advised =D

Daniel and Ryan =D
Josh, me, Aaron and Jasper taking cover from uhh...=D

Josh! Haha

Aleithia talking to her imaginary friend (As said by Viv =D)

Viv said I was acting cute =.=

Viv and me. Bleah haha

That is not my arm =p haha fine Daniel forced me to do it =pp

Awww they look so cute together =p bleh kidding haha ahhh don't kill me you twoooo

That is not me and that sweater does not say mgs =D

Your proud ac girl =D and Kel hehe

Your proud mg boy and ac girl (Quoted from Viv heh =D)

With all this talk about MG and AC, SJI kinda felt left out...soo....

Oh well. Didn't want to psot all the pictures cause I felt embarrassed enough. Haha but oh well, they're all on Vivienne's blog, so yea...ahh haha.

Oh well. =D

And our Geog project went well! Yay haha

About today anyway, had lotsa fun. Went out with Brandon, Laura, Lynn and Raine. hehe really feels good to just chill out at starbucks and not worry at all =D And I have good photo-taking skills =D Ahem yes Brandon you said something? =p

Oh well. Fun time. Haha and her convincing smses kinda cheered me up =D

Yeah

2008-02-03T06:58:00.000-08:00

"All this time, I've been catching people after they did something horrible. For once, I wanna catch someone before they do something horrible!"

Just went out shopping. Bought a new shirt and jeans.

Also watched this movie. The quote above's taken from it.

Makes me think alot.

Sometimes we might think going back to the past could change someone to live again.

It might not.

It could just change the way he dies.

Not sure whether that would happen with me. I thought going back to the past and changing things would make it better. But hey, you're messing around with God's plans. It'll end up with the same consequences, just from a different route.

But still...I've always wanted to go back to the past, to change things, to change my regrets.

Maybe I should have studied harder for my mid years.

Maybe I could have practiced harder in my dizi.

Maybe I shouldn't have talked back to him.

Maybe I could have struggled with two ccas.

Maybe I could have stood up for teachers who were ridiculed.

Maybe I shouldn't have met her.

Maybe I should have prayed harder.

Maybe I shouldn't have told her on that friday night.

Maybe I could have held her hand when she was sitting right next to me.

Maybes.

We're just full of maybes.

If only, we shouldn't had done this, shouldn't have done that...

What else could we possibly wish for...

If only love could find us all
If only hearts didn't have to fall
We can mislead to make things right
But instead we'll sleep alone tonight

And if somehow fate were in my hands
Would it be enough to understand
Why we feel lost in a world so small
If only love could find us all

Please tell me that everything's gonna be okay, alright?

2008-02-03T02:08:00.000-08:00

Hello people.

Past few days had abit of ups and downs.

Friday. Decided to not fall sick and go for superteens. And so I did. Not that bad I should say, as compared to the first day. Heh. Learnt some stuff actually..but yea. At around 4.30 I left with Daniel to go to his church. And I saw alot of people. Haha. It was enjoyable. Quite heartening to see that I'm not the only crazy teen out there =p haha. Met Kelly, Josh, Vivienne, Aleithia, Caleb, Joel, Ryan and other people. They were shocked to see me..haha I love the element of surprise =D. We had some pizza snacks, then games (SHARADES), then discussion, and it ended off with worship. Josh said I sang loud..hmm dunnoe whether that's good or bad. Hehe, then after that we walked around, then went to limbang. Whoo cosy market haha. Went to Macs, sat around, talked. Haha and Viv convinced me to camwhore with her. Like, gosh ok I won't say what we did. Haha I'll let the pictures (that I would post up soon) do the talking. =D

Then went back to superteens again. Got scolded by parents really bad. Heh guess I screwed up again.

Next day, band practice. Quite ok lar, just that I couldn't get classrooms cause the teachers were all busy. Heh oh well. And now all the drummers have to compose an 8 bar 4/4 score. Die larrrr my theory sucks! Oh well. Haha, then after that parade, did drill for a while, then I left early for worship practice. Quite dumb lar, cause Brand and Laura were supposed to be there too. Sian then in the end only Kel turned up. I think they ditched us lor..hehe well they're sorry anyway, so yep. So well, met at the mrt, then walked to church, showed her around. Then slacked at 3rd floor, talked about stuff and so on. Was spamming the guitar, and she was showing me the songs that she was gonna sing for her church's valentine's thing. Haha seems cool. Haha and we talked for abit more, till' Tessa and Dawn came. Haha Kel thought that Tessa was Noelle. Oh well...haha. Then we went up, practiced, Marck came abit later, had fun practicing, haha and Kel was singing along too! Haha and I must say, she has a really good voice just that she doesn't use her stomach muscles..hehe yep. Haha Kel also had to teach me some of the songs cause I didn't know how some of them went. Yep, after practice was over, Marck, Kel and I walked to the mrt, then went out own ways. Nothing much happened at home after that.

Sunday. Church. Umm, well I was abit too hyper in the morning, due to an email I read the day before. Haha never felt quite happy for quite a long while =D. Worship went well too, just that I was playing too soft for the guitar..haha should get new cablessss heh. And the sermon was good too.

"It's not just any fashion accessory"

The topic was "When God makes a case..." Reminded me of alot of stuff. About not being a weekend christian but instead live for God everydayyy. Like everydayyy. And also about the meaning of the cross. Yep, alot of stuff lar..or maybe it's just my thoughts hmm..hehe. Oh, and I only found out recebtly that Ben got hospitalised for Pneumothorax. But he's discharged from hospital already, and still as gay as ever -p. Heh kidding. Should read Gab's blog about it..haha.

Had precepts lesson also. Quite ok lar, except for the labelling part, which I find pretty useless. Yea, hehe and I'm not that close to either Wen Yi or Wen Shuang, so I find discussions pretty difficult...yep. Oh well. Bet Gabriel's damn happy with his grouping =p. After that, worship debrief, then choir practice. Hmm, how do you say 'girl' in latin? Cause I need a fear to describe Justin. =D. Dunnoe what went into him man..he's like...allergic to Denise, Noelle and Esta. Oh and he's the first alto I know! Gosh so cool haha. Then lunch after that...also talked to Kevin and Noelle...hawhaw secretssssss =D

Oh well. Back at home now. Gonna go new year shopping with my mum later. And I'm still on my geog project now. Sian. Gonna finish it soon. Yippie

2008-01-31T06:09:00.000-08:00

They said go there with an open attitude, and now I come back sick.

Haha, went for the Superteens thing yesterday, I really cannot endure ther 12 hours. Yea, fell sick today. Oh well.

Haha Brandon can't stop smsing Laura for goodness sake. Bet they're getting it on mann =p haha

Sian, our admin room door handle broke. Oh, and I soo wanna kill Brandonnnn!!!! Haha

"Eh where's the admin room key?"

*Search for 10 mins*

"Eh you sure not in any of your pockets ah?"

(Brandon)"Eh I think I accidentally threw it away into the dustbin!"

*Another 10 mins of searching, in the dustbin*

"Err guys, erm nevermind. It's in my pocket."

HAHA sian, but anyways he was the only one that was digging so yea..haha. Nothing much to post about, since nothing much happened.

Hmm well let's talk about my thoughts then. Haha, been feeling up and happy. But I feel that I get more irritated easily now. Sian, must be the flu. Oh well. Actually also got nothing much to talk about lar...eh world-out-there can you do sth more exciting so that I have more to talk about.

Oh well. Haha.

I think I like strawberries too =D

2008-01-29T04:48:00.000-08:00

Hiya people. Been pestered to blog. Didn't know I was so popular!

(The way that was not egoistic =p)

Past few days were pretty exciting.

Brandnobs came to my church on sunday. Haha meeting new people...hmm and he had a few shocks there..haha first he saw Seck Heong, then he found out that Noelle knows Sharon, then he found out Barnabas comes to the same church too. Haha, coincidences that I forgot to remind him of :D. So yea, he even joined us for choir practice. HAHA, and he actually sang along! But he only sang the soprano part(in boy's pitch lar duh) hehe. Yea, then hung around downstairs, then he went off, to his own church..haha. Then had lunch, then went home, 3 hours of a maths tuition, then slack. Haha.

Monday. Nothing much really..just school and stuff. Oh and my A Maths retake...whoo I think I can pass this time..haha yay! Then went out with Laura, Raine and Brandnobs..hehe shopping is really tiring, but I still don't know why I 'practice' it. Haha. especially with Hotties :D Then went home, slacked somemore, which was bad haha.

Tuesday. Nothing much too. But history lessons are really really interesting. Haha Darren Chiam's funny lar hehe. Hmm yea day wasn't that bad. Then went out with Josh, Caleb, Joel and Kel. Yea haha Josh is funny man..haha rubic cubicles! Along with the fear of books and squares...haha oh no cannot go popular anymore haha. Gosh..I think libraries are quite retarded nowadays. And Kel feels guilty if she doesn't study...gosh the 'guainess' has really gotten into her...hawhaw. Yea hmm..yea then took bus back home..gosh I think the smrt buses are quite shitty nowadays...can't sleep properly hehe.

So now I'm back home.

Yesterday's chapel really struck me.

When was the last time you talked with the Lord, and told Him your heart's hidden secrets

when was the last time you woke with the dawn, and felt the day's worth living

It's been too long. But hey, things are looking up now.

Never felt sad since friday. And I know just why =D

Haha, and Laura go to woodlands luh =p

And I hope this joy's gonna last.

Cause I'm waiting on the world to change

And I'm waiting for her too =D

2008-01-26T05:20:00.000-08:00

Gosh.

Past few days were pretty funny. Haha. Like during the results release, everybody was cheering when the overall result statistics were being shown, cause we improved like siao, like getting almost 50% distinction rates for every subject....till chinese. 5%. The crowd cheered louder. Haha! Yea...

LS on friday was really funny too.....haha LAWRENCEMAK=108! =p Sian..haha Maker! Whoo...yep. After that, stayed back with Brandon, Jerome and Mak to do abit of maths...then someone smsed me :D. And so I went off to Bishan, to meet two people =D...which made me really happy on that day haha. Whee..talked and studied, ate and laughed. Whoo haha...yea..cleared up quite a number of stuff too. Then went to waffletown to meet Xav, Damien and Becky...played cards..then went for cell..but I left before it started cause I realised I've not solved band admin matters yet. So yea.

Today, I woke up feeling shitty. Was damn bloody tired, but I still went for Alex's remedial, then band practice. Tried playing a grade one score..an Alex Duthart Fanfare...haha damn hard! Yea. But hmm...it kinda sucked after that. Some sec 1 commotion at waffletown, left Silas crying..Branddy and I were damn scared he'd run away lor...then after that Kelly was telling me what happened to her, which made me feel worse, then after that worship practice was kinda screwed. Then fall in took quite long...worship was screwed up, our guitars went out of tune halfway, so we sang acapella throughout (but it was encouraging to hear the voices sing up =D)...then found out Daniel was suspended from duty, with Kel still telling me about some stuff that happened. Sat around in admin room, had a chat with Weyshi and Josh...then went for tuition with Tessa feeling drained and tired. Was really depressed and stuff. But yea, did work with Tessa.

Everything was kinda shitty till I walked to the street.

I saw somebody across the street.

And that person saw me too.

I wanted to scream my lungs out.

It was better than anything.

Couldn't stop smiling on my way back home.

Even now I feel like I just fell off a bridge.

Like I'm flying without wings.

Haha gosh, well so now I'm pretty happy. Day(or rather evening) feeling all sunny and bright. Whee..hehe well except for the fact that I still have ALOT OF HOMEWORK TO DO!!! Haha sian, oh and I dont think Daniel would wanna come anymore...but Tonmmy Roydrix still coming tomorrow :D

Haha.

And Dawn of War is still awesome! (Uh oh isn't it O level year? =p)

Well, that person told me something that was supposed to shock me.

But I don't care.

My answer to her is still yes :D

2008-01-24T06:29:00.000-08:00

Today is a day never to be forgotten.

Haha, classes were alright.

But what was better was the release of the O level results was ever better.

Remember I talked about bringing tissue for the tears?

Yep, tears of joy. Haha Barker did quite well this year, as compared to last year. Yea, and congrats to Bin Soon, Amos, Luke, Prash, Damien, Xavier, Bryant, Bryan, both Matts, actually you know what, everybody yea? Haha...but hmm, there were some who were, well, disppointed. Hehe. Well, feeling tired now, so I don't wanna post much.

And Amos is freakin smart! I don't know what the hell he's doing in NA man...he should be in like RI or sth...haha..and I still don't know why Bin Soon still looks sad with his 7 distinctions...sian.

Haha, this has inspired, oh wait more like scared me into studying for my O's man...haha.

Oh yea, Mr Ng came back to see the results too. Haha, he kept calling Mr Tang about it...haha...oh yea, saw Royston Low and JiaLing in school too..hehe.

Sian, psot some other time lar, feeling real tired now.

Goodbye

2008-01-23T04:59:00.000-08:00

Today was really happening.

Heh, didn't see the two eyecandies this morning though =p

And also got scolded by Mr Lai for wearing black shorts for PE again...haha damn sian lar..dunnoe why they suddenly abolish wearing black shorts. Haha, and PE was really fun. my Barker Run timing improved! From 11.17 (last week) to 10.34! Haha damn happy..we also did physical conditioning. About 350m sprints (distance according to Pereira), crunches and push ups. Gosh, and stretching was damn shiok! Haha as usual. Hmm other periods were quite alright too. Except chem, cause I finally got back my test paper, which I already knew that I did badly, cause I kept thinking the hydrogen oxidises instead of reduces...sian. Haha lost about 7 marks cause of that, so in the end I got 13/20 lor...sian lar. Haha and Mak's period was damn funny. He was saying like "Tomorrow the O level results are coming out. Please go see your seniors with tissue paper and be preapared to get ready for the emotional outbreak. Oh, and since tissue boxes come in sets of 5, tomorrow you can give them one, then the other 4 you can save for yourself. Like for example, one for your Mid years, another for your Prelims, another because you cannot go JC, and another for your O level results." Haha, freakin retarded man.

Yea, after school, walked around school/caltex with Brandon, Barnabas, Jerome, Ashley and Sean. Haha we were all discussing where we can go to study, then everybody had different opinions, like some wanna go Toa Payoh, others Novena. Haha, then we all took a bus to Newton(cept Ashley), then we took a train northbound. I decided to follow Brandon to Novena. Hehe, ended up meeting Marcus Ng and other people. Had lunch at Pizza hut. Then Brandon and I went to starbucks to study, and Laura and Lynn joined us. Haha freakin retarded, and oh Laura's so good in math!!! =p Haha and uhh Brandon's such a brilliant story teller! =p haha aiyo must not tell, must keep secret...hehe. But yea. Super retarded. Oh and I didn't get to see Jamie, Ronnie, Joey, Kelly (NOT KELLY ONG, ANOTHER KELLY :D), and some other guy's name I can't spell. Haha. Cause we were supposed to go jamming, but then got smoe commotion going on, plus Jamie and Ronnie uhh having lotsa fun together =p. Oh and Jamie, if you're reading this, I DIDN'T FREAKIN SAY THAT BRANDON WAS NOOB MAN! I'M WORSE LOR! BRANDON'S DAMN PROOOO, AND I'M NOOBBBBB!

Haha.

After the LNs left, Brandon and I walked around for a while. Talked about alotta stuff. Well, hope things are getting better..sian lar. Everybody's becoming saddd and things are getting pointless. Hehe. Tension still growing in BB..sian luh, hope this matter can get resolved soon...

Well. Sian luh, hehe.

Mixed feelings.

Don't whether to laugh or cry.

Whoo.

And she's starting to ignore me too man.

Not long before I turn up like Heath Ledger.

Cheers

2008-01-22T03:28:00.000-08:00

Heya all of you.

School was alright today. History by Darren Chiam was really interesting. Hehe he owns lor. Haha and Gary was damn funny during his lesson...liek, we were copying notes on certain countries, then he was looking back at his notes, then he was like damn proud of his tidiness. Well, that is until I told him that he didn't leave space for Japan. Then he was like, oh yah shit! Haha, but then, Darren Chiam said we don't need to copy down notes for Japan yet..hehe then Gary was like, phew! Haha. Yea, and I always get sleepy during Mak's lesson. Chemistry was also damn funny...haha. Glenn Wong was like, telling us about this woman who got banged down by a car somewhere around Serene, haha then when he said "There was this causasian woman, who got banged by a car", then Colin laughed. Then we all looking at him, then we all started laughing. Haha! Then Glenn Wong was like, "Eh, next time when you get banged by a car, I'll stand next to you and laugh at you!" Haha, freakin funny. Well, the other periods were pretty awesome too. But hmph, I think I'm gonna be vegetarian now, after watching the video during Geography lesson. Sian, didn't know that cows had to be slaughtered in such a revolting way..heh I actually lost my appetite while watching the blood and intestines spill out of the cow. Pretty gory...hmm guess I shouldn't really support fast foods anymore...

Oh. And something damn dumb happened after school. Haha, I left my bag in the admin room, and went off to look For Mr Lai to sign the band orders. Then when I came back, I saw Png walking around looking for his bag. Haha, went missing out of nowhere. And so we looked..from canteen to tennis court to SAC to outside science staff room..hehe..then we thought it might be in the general office, but we dismissed that thought. Until Png decided to return the wallet he found, hoping to get luck out of that good deed and that his bag would pop out of nowhere. Guess what.

It did!

Haha, we went to general office, then Png saw a familiar bag behind the counter..then he was like "Erm, I'm here to return this lost wallet, and I uhh, also lost my bag...and I think that's my bag." Haha freakin funny mannnn, then he was finding out what happened to his bag...haha Choy or Jun Kai probably pranked him or something...hehe.

Hmm.

You know, I'm pretty confused nowadays. I'm not sure what's going on with Barney anymore, how come he's suddenly so cold to me...hmph. Hmm, and tension's growing between Brandon and Png...just over some stupid admin rule thing...hmm oh well. And I still can't accept the fact of what R___ did to N_____.

As for her...I'm really at a standstill. I don't even think it's possible for us to be together...maybe I should just move on, pretend nothing's happening..but it's hard. Really don't know what to do, or what I feel...maybe moving on is the only option now...

But I can't stop thinking of her

2008-01-21T02:57:00.000-08:00

HIYA!

Haha. Finally got contact with Vivienne's boyfriend, name starts with A, ends with leithia! (AHH DON'T KILL MEE!)

Yea. And school wasn't that bad. Was pretty fast, cause almost everything was double period. Haha, and two SPAs in a row isn't that bad either. Chapel was kinda fun. Haha Jon au, Chee and me sure had a fun time singing loud and out of tune! ( Well, actually Chee was the only one singing out of tune =p) Haha, and Keith Ho's shredding is damn COOLLL!!!!!! I WANNA SHRED TOOOOOOO! But it didn't really fit the song leh...hehe but still, it was AWESOME! But the singing was abit funny. Haha.

And lessons weren't bad, escept maybe the fact that I was falling alseep during Mak's lesson. Hehe.

And Samuel Chew thinks I'm emo.

Like, I don't really like that word. Cause it's like, a waste of slang, like, emu.

K lame.

And Joel Chee, stop mentioning about it lar!

And Kelly, I know that wasn't you. Probably one fo my friends.

And Kirk Ping, IVANOVIC!

Hehe. Jamming in two days with a world class guitarist( Or so I think) and Tonmmy Roydrix also! Can't wait! Haha.

But there's still Tuesday. Sian.

2008-01-20T05:51:00.000-08:00

Yay!

Haha today wasn't that bad. Woke up at 5.30 to bike with Xavier. Haha he woke up late! Cause he forgot then we were suppsosed to go cycle..he was like, hear alarm ringing, turn it off, then go back to sleep. Haha till I called him. So yep, we biked to east coast, and we saw the sunrise! Gosh and it's lovely cycling on sunday mornings. Breezy and cool. :D But we took the super long way back home, cause Xav wanted to show me this damn nice slope...haha and yea, it was nice alright! Haha, yep.

But I went to church late :p

Yea, went there, immediately service, then installation (wondered if it had anything to do with our ICONSECRATION CAMP), then break and so on. Yea, oh and Hebe is damn chio! Haha jokess :D and we sang Teenagers over and over again. Fun.

Oh and I fell alseep in precepts again. Lovely.

Then short youth choir practice. Haha the girls were overpowered by the boys, so I suggested that Benjamin should join them :D Yay, but of course, I got whacked..hehe. Oh yes, Benedict and his diarrhoea. Gross.

Right. Haha, still really excited for this week. Jamming, more jamming, worship practice, BB parade, jamming, seeing NEW people in church (I wonder who :p). Yea haha. Well, school'd back.

Gotta get serious.

2008-01-19T05:46:00.000-08:00

OMG.

Stupid sinus. Haha. Sneezing my lungs out. Owww...haha today was pretty good.

Started off with band. Haha got scolded by Simon for not getting classrooms...haha oh well. And we practiced drags throughout the whole practice, till' combine. Yay and we played interlude corp well again. Whee haha. (AHH NOELLE JUST REMINDED ABOUT CHURCH HOMEWORK!) K ignore that, yea haha. Yep, after that, rushed to Waffletown, queued up for a 2389472943784 years before I could order, then went back. Practiced for worship, or rather actually justs et up, didn't really play much. Haha, then fall in, then worship. Whoo, worship was surprisingly good! Haha, really fun playingggg whooo! Yea, waiting for next week! And Brandon, doesn't it bring back memories to let (THE PRIMER) play? Hehe well it does for me, so it's cool. Yep, after that, stayed back for a while longer for first aid lesson, then i had to go. :D

Yea.

Haha stupd intenet keeps disconnecting. And I'm talking to Viv about salmon as I type this...sian haha.

And I think I should change my songs on the imeem. Heh.

Whoo can't wait for tomorrow's cycling trip with Xavier to see the sunrise. Haha! Yea, long time since I've cycled with him. Whoopie! Hehe.

And I wanna go BRMC soon. Probably with Ryan :D

Yea.

And maybe errr...Daniel's church too :p with Ben and Kev :D

HAHA Nah think that'll be impossible.

OH AND DEFINITELY BRANDON/JAMIE'S CHURCH! I FREAKIN WANNA SEE THEM PLAY :D

Haha yea jamming on wednesday with them. Whoo finally get to see that stupid Tonmmy Roydix play. Haha oh and Joey too! The freakin world calss guitarist dunnoe what pro thing luh. Haha and Jamie and the rest too :D Whee haha

And I love the song Last Summer. By Lostprophets, that is.

Haha.

Oh well, going to sleep to prepare for tomorrow's thinggy. Cya people!

(Oh and Joel Chee, stop spamming please)

2008-01-18T07:50:00.000-08:00

"Hmm Let's say in 20 years time, yes 20 years time, no wait I think that's too long, well let's cut it to 15 years time, years 15 years, no wait it's still abit too long I think, how bout 10 years, yea 10 years time, in 10 years time, those, wait no let's say 12 years time then, those two people standing up there would you and her!"

I don't think that that can come true anymore.

But oh well.

School today wasn't that bad...gosh total of 5 periods or Mak's lesson! Haha was dead by the end..yea worship prac was alright, and Png's new bass sounds funny! Haha! Oh and our new timetable sucks. I would probably only need to refer to Monday's schedule, cause I don't think I'd live till' Tuesday. Imagine two SPAS straight. O.O Haha yea, but everything is pretty much unchanged...

Yea cell was great too! Learnt more deeper facts about Holy Communion, which was pretty interesting. Haha yea, and the jokes never go away...and so sadd I'm the only O Level student there...hawhaw gosh should have made fun of them last year! =p But I'd probably get whacked...I mean...10 to 1...wow. Haiz, nevertheless, I shall press on to uhh...right...err...yea studies! Right I knew that =p

Oh well.

Still waiting patiently. And Brandon only reads my blog to find out how emo I am. So I purposely made this post as joyful and enlightening as possible :D

Waiting, waiting. waiting...

2008-01-17T06:04:00.000-08:00

Hmm.

Listening to Disenchanted as I type this.

I really wasted my chances. Shouldn't have told her at the BBQ. Shouldn't even have brought her in the first place.

And it's so freakin obvious that she doesn't trust me anymore.

I liked the beginning. But I hate the ending.

And if somehow fate were in my hands
Would it be enough to understand
Why we feel lost in a world so small
If only love could find us all

Really can't tell what I'm feeling anymore. Really wish that we all could go back in time..and start all over from the beginning...regrets, regrets, regrets...

Time to move on I guess...

Some things change...

Some don't.

2008-01-17T04:38:00.000-08:00

Hiya people.

Ok first thing's first, I hafta cancel away thet dreadful 'dear' cause someone's not happy about it...and haha yea I'll try fixing my skin soon.

Yes and Lynette Loh rocks! She can teach damn well...haha. Enjoyed her 'remedial' today..haha

Yes. And still thinking about Slither.

Drummerboy.

Whoo haha nothing much to talk about also lar...oh and I improved in my 2.4! 11.17...whooo haha yea...aiming for 9 and a half....yep.

And yay, it's gonna be Friday, tehn i'm gonna go Brandon's house jam or something...yea then worship practice, then cell again! Whoopie. Haha learnt alot of tings in cell last week, so I'll definitely need to go for this one...wonder what's in store...=p

Slither.

And I'm still wondering about certain things. Yea and I had a shock of my life on friendster just now...haha too shocking that my chest actually hurt. Haha yea.

And someone please recommend me a nice skin! Please I beg you all! Something's that's black or dark please. :D

I feel like changing my songs too.

But oh well. Studies first.

Well, unless someone can help me with this stupid posts part...it's not supposed to hang out like that...sian...haha.

Oh well, going back to being bedshaped.

Goodnight.

2008-01-16T06:11:00.000-08:00

Gosh.

Stressed.

Haha stupid blogskin. Something's wrong with the code, but thanks to dear Noelle it's almost fixed..yay haha thanks! But hmph, the posts part is getting quite irritating....sian...I might hafta change the skin soon..and I also hafta relink some of you. Haha.

And CHEMISTRY TEST TOMORROW! I'M SO GONNA DIE CAUSE I DON'T UNDERTSNAD ELECTROLYSIS AT ALLLLLLLLLLLL! ALEX HELP ME!!!!

Haha.

Hmph went jamming just now, Barney, Timmy, Deejay, Jon Fan and me. Whoo I love playing Slither man....and we played pretty darn well for a first try! Whoo haha! Slitherrrrr babyyyy.

I still needa work on my bass kicking. Or whatever you call it.

Still reading chemistry as I type this.

You know, things don't seem to be going anywhere. Everybody seems to be falling apart. And I don't feel the same in school. Like, I'm left all alone. I don't feel alive anymore. Everybody that passes me just seems like any other stranger. I can't reach out anymore. Nothing I can look forward to.

And my internet connection's just really pissing me off.

I miss everything I ever had.

Or ever wanted to have.

Desire.

Despair.

Whatever you call it.

As for her...i'm still at a deadend.

2008-01-15T07:02:00.001-08:00

Why does everybody keep doubting the decisions I make? Why do they always think I'm so naive or gullible? I mean, all this time I've been trying to prove myself, but not even my friends are proud of it.

Why?

I really don't know what I did to deserve this...

I wanted to be someone whom people would look up to...

But guess what?

They look down on me instead.

The friends that I trust.

If only they knew what I've been through...

2008-01-15T00:05:00.000-08:00

Back from school...yea. Haha oh and Kirk, the milkshake from that store sucks. i'm going back to sweetalk. =D. Whoo managed to finish all my homework this morning before school...sian I need (fill in the blanks)elly's 'guai'-ness and start doing my homework on time =p

Yea...and things are stirring up between friends...

...Whilst others are breaking up...

Right.

Gotta do SS homework before Tang rapes me....and uhh chem e-learning...physics workbook....right yea gotta get started.

And BOTB! I'm so gonna die..haha but slither rocks! Wanna learn that song. Easy, too. :D Hope Barney can sing though...

Hmm at least things are better between 'Travis Barker' and me now..he really isn't angry anymore. Yay.

But last week's worship really felt different.

The memories

They were good ones

:)

Yea, this is how we overcome!

2008-01-14T03:56:00.000-08:00

HAHA I HAVE FANS ALREADY! WHOO THANKS KIRK! Haha.

Hmm, school today. Yea I didnt get screwed by my geog teacher, and also, our short performance wasn't that bad. Haha it was super last minute. (BTW SETH STOPPED PLAYING FOR A WHILE IF YOU NOTICED HAHA =P) Hmm, and I didn't get screwed by my chem teacher too. Haha so cool. Sian I better finish all my homework today...haha.

Well, after school, council meeting with teachers...hmm really learnt alot. And, yea I hope things are alright with Brandon and Xavier...hmph.

Yep, went home in the rain. And drank my favourite chocolate milkshake from sweetalk.

And right now I'm here.

You know...

...It's pretty obvious she likes someone else...

...But it's alright...

...I can wait...

...I guess

2008-01-13T03:28:00.001-08:00

OMG I'M BACK TO BLOGGING! Haha after inspired by a few people, especially kenchin's ever hilarious and corny posts. Haha. And besides, it's kind of a fun way to chill out and decompress your thoughts. Yep.

Haha my blog needs lotsa rebuilding. Might change the skin soon. Haha. But before that, I needa finish my geog, chem, english, ss and physics homework. I'm screwed tomorrow, I'll tell you.

Yea. Hmm and a few rumours are going around. It's making me uneasy. Like, really uneasy, like, hard, you know.

But things are starting to look up now...yea gosh I really needa revise chem! I'm forgetting most of my stuff already. Hmm, yea things are getting better EXCEPT bb stuff...sian dunnoe what's really going on anymore...

Alright I'll make this a short one.

Gotta continue writing about different food trends in DCs and LDCs. :)

2007-06-21T08:11:00.000-07:00

Haha! Finally, after so long, I'm finally back to blogging. (Well maybe because I don't feel like doing anything else).

Two months worth of stuff happening. Now that's alot.

But anyway, I don't feel like blogging about the months, just the days.

But FIY, I went to the UK to visit my brother(who currently seems to be doing fine), and I also went to Malaysia for my church retreat camp(which was surprisingly enjoyable) and also a band camp, which, thankfully, ran smoothly. Haha(YES!). The experiences were great. Got to learn more stuff to broaden my thinking about this world, more experiences, more memories. They were great, but even still, some parts of it were bad..yea...don't wanna talk about it.

Something I could reflect on.

Well, came back from band camp on Sunday. Slacked for the rest of that day.

Monday morning was spent sleeping. Afternoon was spent on computer. Evening was spent cycling and bballing. Well, Xavier wanted me to pass him the Admin Key, and so I did. But, I was too lazy to walk. So guess what? I cycled! (?) But yea, I cycled around, passed him the key, had a little chat. After that, decided that I needed to cycle more, and so I did. To the basketball court. Saw Johnny there, so I decided to bball with him. Yea. Was fun. Went back in the night. Washed up, and that was about it.

Tuesday. Computer, discussions, band matters. There we go...

Wednesday. Went out with Gabriel, Kevin and Josh Khoo. Xavier tagged along too. Well, it was a long story....thought he had POA lessons in the morning, went to school to find out there wasn't any, so yep...but yea her joined us. played lan. Then Kevin left, and Edmund joined. Oh, by the way, nice hair Edmund! (Oh wait what hair). Aiyah nevermind, you'll get to tease in three years time. So yea, after that, Gab went to Josh's house to stayover, Edmund took a train home, and Xavier and I left for band practice in school.

Band practice was brilliant. (That's why I'm leaving a paragraph for it :D). Practiced on our own for the first hour, then we had combined on chanter and pads for a while, then Ivan decided to just move straight to instruments. And practice was great. Had a few discussions, some 'catch up' conversations. And oh yea, our seconds is back from Canada! Haha...And yep, we've finally improved, but we're still not there yet. But still, it's been another great memory for me. The band, the company, the music. Just great.

Yep, PND's coming up soon. There's a reason why we practiced.

Oh, by the way, just heard news from Bin Soon that we're the only ones competing in the open category so far...hope others join in...

Anyway, after that, went to Josh's house. Luckily I had no trouble finding it. Played com, talked...nothing much. Besides, everybody was sleepy when I reached his house. So yea. After computer stuff, I ate my supper and went to sleep. And yea, the carrot cake was hot and cold at the same time...haha.

Today. Lazed around in Josh's house. Played com, walked around, listened to some music, went for abit of 'In the comfort of your own home' jamming...yea haha. By the way, it's just piano and guitar, so shhhhhh. Oh, Marck was there too, yea. Erm, had lunch(which was quite cool) in their house. Slacked around until it was 4, then Josh, Marck and Gab went down for a swim. And I stayed in Josh's room with a guitar and a computer with a Hillsong video and song chords in it. (You should be able to guess what I did). They came back shortly, lazed around longer, then Uncle Fun Ming came back. Got changed, prepared to go out for dinner. And so we did. But since my parents wanted me back before dinner, I went back.

Now I'm sitting here. Blanked out. Tired.

Just ran through a few problems.

Just thought about it, this year's been really tough on me. Not sure why. Lost almost all motivation to do anything. Sometimes I feel all excited and ready to do something, then suddenly something else interupts this excitement with fear and distress.

Sometimes it gets tiring to feel.

And well, I've gotten over some things that were bothering me.

But more have returned.

2007-04-05T07:52:00.000-07:00

Past week was great. Well, had its ups and downs....haha.

Friday, I was feeling all moody...cause I found out what I really felt inside about that somebody...yea...but then..well it's complicated. Had cell and all those stuff....felt kinda empty inside, like I was in my own world.

Saturday, band. There was all those pfm stuff, so very few people turned up. Then also got one room only, so pipers and drummers share one room. Yea, then after that, slacked around, went to waffletown by myself, then went back to school. Slacked with Raymond, Weyshi and O'niel. Haha, freaking crazy...oh well. Then left for church, only to find out I was playing, so I did. Then went back home. Went cycling, around street 23, 22, 21, then cycled back to my house, then bedok reservoir, then around that area, then went back. Then went out with movie with mum. Watched Bean's Holiday...will say it's kinda an okay movie...but some of the jokes really gave you training for your sit-ups...

Sunday, day started off horrible....well I don't wanna talk about it. Just went to church..didn't want to go for choir cause I was damn tired...and I also studied for my chem test...Then went for lunch, then captain's ball training. Whoo, was fun. Then went to school, only to find out that it was kinda deserted, so I went back home. Revised on chem..played com...

Monday. Was feeling super depressed. Kept thinking about my drums. My family. My home. My friends. My future....and her. Dunnoe lah, school's like pointless now...well I mean it's fun socialising..but I don't learn anything anymore. It's like Barker isn't Barker anymore...I remember last time in sec 1, I thought the school was full of hope and new beginnings, where everyone had an opportunity, where everyone was joyful, and everyone could learn. Where the teachers never stopped believing in you, and they kept encouraging you. They made you feel that you had a purpose. That you existed. Well...now that's all gone...gone off with the old teachers...now...Barker's just like any other school...they only look at your grades...and if they do look at character, they only look at the bad side of it...well. Well at least there still are teachers who still believe in you, who never hate but only encourage. But that's just a minority...Maybe that's just singapore afterall...oh well.

After that, went for bsf. Alot of people didn't come too. But it was interesting.

Tuesday was better. Classes were better, though I didn't learn much. Even though class was quiet during lessons, and I tried concentrating real hard, still couldn't understand a thing...After that, went back home. Then went cycling with Xavier. He came over to my house. Then we went to Pasir Ris park. And we cycled around there. Then we went back. And that was about the day's end.

Wednesday...nothing too. School...nothing much. The usual jokes and everything. Then went back home. Went out cycling by myself. To bedok reservoir, then back around the park a few times, then back home.

Thursday. Haha quite retarded today. Didn't have chem spa. Class waited outside the chem lab, and we were all playing frisbee,and there was once the frisbee went into the lab(all thanks to Daryl, haha)..and Lionel went to the rescue..haha. We waited for an hour only to find out both spa teachers weren't here. Then we went up for SSH, and Saras wasn't there too. Haha. But Royston Low took the second half of the period, and damn he's good. Haha! Yea then after that, school was usual. After school we had chapel practice. Well, it's gonna be usual. Nothing special....dunnoe leh it's like I have to release this 'bankai' thing in me for me to really play out..or not I'll just be a dumbass holding two sticks...oh well...After that, went back. Then KKP came to my house. Then yea, went to bike shops. Looked around. Then I cycled to East Coast, ate dinner, then went back home. Was thrilling. Haha. Now I'm back home talking to people on msn.

Still thinking about drums...

And her...

It's kinda retarded. Everytime I see her I fall for her like suicide from a bridge. Then when I go away, I climb back up like as if nothing happened. Gosh, Xavier please don't kill me, I just need to let this out.

EEEeeee...disgusting...

Still trying to find out what life is gonna be for me, which I can't....well actually right now, it's all about the rythm. :)

2007-03-30T01:51:00.000-07:00

REW WAS GREAT!

Whoo, super happy, got (so called) good feedback! Wheee....Gosh, really enjoyed playing man. Whee, but I don't wanna play for upper sec....scared. Lower sec's better. Mwhahaha. Now I wanna learn how to play blues, jazz...all those off-beat kinda style. Whee, guess I'll hafta take lessons...hmm maybe I'll have lessons when Damien has his sax lessons...hmmm oh well...

Classes after that were, usual. But yea, I went back to class only to find out then Alex Lee scolded our class, and we had to stay back for recess -.-. Whoo but Alex Lee was missing, so some of us left for recess...oh well...then yea, he scolded us again. Whoo haha. After that, usual.

After school, stayed back for no reason, waited for Matt's dad to come, but he was coming late, so Xavier and I left after a while.

Today was kinda usual. Just that we had phototaking..haha Andrew was super retarded. "Alright, now, the Lawrence Mak pose! Alright, now Christopher Low!" Haha. Then yay, after we took the photo thing then left for recess. Then Samuel Eio told us to go library after recess, then LHF got angry, cause we were all missing...but yea, only some of us needed to go. That included me. Hoho. Slacked outside the library till we missed AM and half of PD...got health check up. They checked my back. Then we waited at the library because Mr Ng said we must 'move around as a class, not in drips and draps'. Haha.

Then, immediately after school, waited at Admin room, then went out with Barney, Chia, KKP, Zach, DJ and Mitch to US to have lunch. Well, ate lunch at Swensens. Now I'm broke. -.-". Waaaa, broke. Haha, but KKP was retarded (as usual). Dunnoe lah, everything he says has a sick meaning behind it. Oh well. Then went back home with Zach and Chia. Damn stupid man, should have played truth or dare. The first one will sure kena the most...mwahahaha....nevermind. And what a coincidence man. The person Chia was looking at alighted as the same stop as him....hehehe...oh and and was super cool. I met Heng Hao at the mrt station! Haha. Well, he seems fine too. He's in poly now..whoo..doing Banking and Finance...haha. And yea, he told me that this year's china trip's gonna be the last one. Cause Siow lao shi gonna retire liao...oh well...Heng Hao says he should be going for it. Well, I'll try to go too, provided...argh nevermind. I'll just try to go. :).

Haha was great meeting him.

Now I'm back, gonna leave soon for cell.

And can't wait to jam once more.

2007-03-28T06:58:00.000-07:00

Past few days rocked man.

Played for Lower Sec REW! Whoo! Wouldn't say spectacular, but it was alright. Though we made some mistakes, mostly miscommunication(that can be corrrected easily)...so oh well. Was fun. And thank God for pulling us through.

Well still got another one coming up tomorrow.

Let's roll.

Anyway, this is what Gabriel and I've been talking about, and it started because of my msn's nickname.

Flower Boy is Gabriel, the other one's me.

Flower Boy. says:
roses are red
Flower Boy. says:
violets are blue
Flower Boy. says:
you stink and i rule
Flower Boy. says:
and did i mention, you reek of poo
Flower Boy. says:
LOL
Flower Boy. says:
just dont sit on your stool
Flower Boy. says:
cause you may sit on a bunch of wool
Flower Boy. says:
then you will have to bring it back to the zoo
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
instead of having to woo
Flower Boy. says:
where the animals will say " BOO!!"
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
on all the girls you drool
Flower Boy. says:
but the cows will say 'Moo!!'
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
and play with some goo
Flower Boy. says:
says who?
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
well neither me nor you
Flower Boy. says:
...
Flower Boy. says:
dosent rhythm lah..
Flower Boy. says:
who and you..
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
errr...
Flower Boy. says:
rhyme.
Flower Boy. says:
doesnt rhyme
Flower Boy. says:
goo and who rhymes
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
errrr...
Flower Boy. says:
...
Flower Boy. says:
...
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
....
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
i beat you
Flower Boy. says:
?
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
..................................................................................................................................................................
...................................................................................................................................

Flower Boy. says:
lame lah
Flower Boy. says:
some sort of stupid poets we are
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
lah and are rhymes
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
mwahahahaha
Flower Boy. says:
...
Flower Boy. says:
lame
Flower Boy. says:
ok
Flower Boy. says:
lets start doing poems from lame
Flower Boy. says:
i'll start
Flower Boy. says:
you are so lame
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
that when in a game
Flower Boy. says:
even your dog is more tame
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
and so he came
Flower Boy. says:
and got you maimed
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
By the aim
Flower Boy. says:
sure, you've got some fame
Flower Boy. says:
?
Flower Boy. says:
hello??
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
and maybe some pain
Flower Boy. says:
but you have to take the full blame
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
of this guy called wayne
Flower Boy. says:
and his favourtie game, max payne
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
oh well, what a shame
Flower Boy. says:
that he was in flames
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
suffering again
Flower Boy. says:
and agin
Flower Boy. says:
oops.
Flower Boy. says:
nd again
Flower Boy. says:
and again
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
from a bain
Flower Boy. says:
that was caused by too many bargains
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
that though he might gain
Flower Boy. says:
but thats really the same
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
that through every king's reign
Flower Boy. says:
it will rain
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
with sound of thunder from his cane
Flower Boy. says:
rested beside the bed where he lain
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
where the lion's mane
Flower Boy. says:
from which he became so vain
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
that the blood in his vein
Flower Boy. says:
had become too plain
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
with bread and margarine
Flower Boy. says:
making you a little quaint
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
and from this you will faint
Flower Boy. says:
which is why you became insane
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
from this little lane
Flower Boy. says:
you got yourself a girlfriend called 'Jane'
Flower Boy. says:
lol
Flower Boy. says:
lets stop
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
but she just ain't
Flower Boy. says:
i gtg sleep.
Flower Boy. says:
tired
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
why this is getting fun
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
haha
Flower Boy. says:
lol..
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
haha
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
ok fine
Flower Boy. says:
save this convo
Roses are red, Violets are blue, Poems Rhyme, This Doesn't says:
yea i'll post it up even

2007-03-26T07:22:00.000-07:00

Whoo, the band during the parade..That's Nicklaus with the mace..seems like he's gonna annoint somebody with it, like you know, raised arms, closed eyes...k nevermind.

Sexy marching, eh?

Wah lau, stupid Kai Kein, laugh somemore?! Haha.

Posing.

Another striking pose.

Well, and finally...

The 12th Barker BB Marching Contingent of Founder's Day 2007.

Whoo, got alot more pics.

Too many.

Yet too lazy.

Bad combination.

Oh well.

Haha.

2007-03-26T06:34:00.000-07:00

Past few days were great.

But tiring.

And except saturday morning, everything else was fine.

Well, friday was alright. Spent a few moments cleaning up the admin cause Seth and I messed it up...but oh well I rule supreme cause no ants have come so far. Mwahahaha, ok fine I'm kidding. And alot of people didn't go for cell. So Prash, Xavier, Damien, D.ang, Brandon and I decided to go watch the debates thing. And whoo Barker beat err, what's that school again? K nvm...anyway, when we went back, we foudn out the cell discussion leader(Ben Tan) couldn't make it, so we joined in with the other cell. And yea, it was great. Pride. Just remember, it was pride that brought the fall of Lucifer and the rise of Satan. Better watch out..... After that, Pin Feng fetched Xavier, Damien and I back. Whoo, so kind.

Saturday. Enrolment Parade. Totally sucked man..........don't know, it wasn't even planned properly...gosh and the band...argh. As in, nothing special lah. Just he usual stuff. After the service and the lunch, left with Xavier to his worship practice. Haha Ben was super funny...and Joel owns at bass man, the master bassist...oh whoops did I just say that. Anyway, yay he taught me some stuff about bass. So fun! And yea, practiced more on the drums. And John Wong kept looking out for my foot, making sure it kicks the bass hard. Haha, he kept giving me that stare everytime I didn't. Haha. Whoo!

After that, went home with Xavier.

Sunday was fun. Sang in the choir. Whoo, then choir practice. Then slacked at the social hall with Gabriel, Josh Khoo, Dawn, Tim Chan. All of us were like playing with each other's phone. Haha. Then went to the hawker centre for lunch. After that, I went to meet Xavier and Prash at Cathay to study/watch movie. Yea we watched TMNT. Was great. Brought back memories of how when I was young, I used to be talking about them, and playing their games on my brother's gameboy colour, then I would be imitating them. Haha.

Soemtimes I wished I could become a young kid again. Innocent, playful, work-free. Just playing his own games, doing his own thing. And he won't have a single thought of evil in him. Just wandering free. He can be away from the stress of keeping up with a crazy world. He could just run around, with thoughts of, like, "Ooo, what does this button do?" and everything would seem new to him, seem to be like a great discovery to him. Like he can always look forward to something the next day.

But...

Oh well.

Anyway, after that, went back to school with Prash and Xavier for games. And guess who went too....mwahahahaha. But...oh well..don't know why he keeps ruining his chances. Well, next sunday =p. But playing captain's ball was fun. And quite funny too. Haha.

Well, school today was alright too. But I'm gonna get raped by Samuel Eio, cause I think I lost my MWC...ahhhh. Had REW worship practice after school today. It's kinda like a warning to me that I'm gonna screw up big time. Ahhh, stupid foot, can't kick the bass hard enough. Anyway, Eldad is damn pro! PRO! UNDERSTAND?! PRO! Haha, seriously, he is. But I got a glimpse of tomorrow's worship during REW. Gonna be great.

Well. Finally got the guts to tell somebody some deep dark secret....gosh, took a whole load off my head..but then..now it's coming back...and I'm starting to think of stuff again...argh..sometimes when I look at those two together...it makes me feel happy for them..but then...I feel like making a scene out of it..but then I remember that he's my best friend...and then...I'm in a daze..wondering what to do..then I do stuff that I don't even think off...and then I go away, thinking everything's alright, then it repeats.

Ahhh...

My legs are itching. Stupid ants.

"Lost for words with all to say"

Gonna post some founder's day photos of the band.

Watch out.

2007-03-22T07:27:00.001-07:00

Yay! Josiah's at my house now. So cutee!!!!

Haha!

2007-03-22T07:07:00.000-07:00

Past two days were great.

Still could not get the drums and the 'Lifesong' out of my mind.

School was alright. Classes were amazingly interesting. Guess, things are starting to look up. But, oh well, sure those bad times will come again. But till' then, enjoy as much as I can :))). Haha.

Anyway, Royston Low's using this Rasputin song to teach history! Lucky thing Joween sent the song to me last year. Haha, thx Jo! And yea, Barney and Zach kept talking about it. So I sent it to them. And yea, it went around the circle of friends. Haha. And guess what, I've rewrote the lyrics of the chorus so that it'll fit KKP. Here it goes.

"KOH, KOH, Koh Kirk Ping
One of the most sickest thing
He always has it hard and stiff
KOH, KOH, Koh Kirk Ping
Singapore's best sex machine
And then it goes right between his teeth."

...K that was lame...

Sorry KKP!! Haha.

Anyway, listened to that song for 2 hours straight. Zach beat me. He had it on from 5 yesterday to about afternoon today.

Totally sick of it liao. Yay.

Anyway. Supposed to have band practice yesterday. But too little peopl turned up, so just practiced for a while then left. Went back with Xavier. Gosh there was this funny guy in the bus 12 we took. I'm never taking that bus ever again. Haha. Xavier will give you details..haha...

Anyway today was also alright. Gosh, testing for cations during practical was fun. The white ppts looked so cute!

Omg, Zachary's still listening to Rasputin even as I type this post. Rock on dude....

Anyway, actually did my homework after school today! Amazing! Haha, and Raymond came for some officers meeting. Haha, Nicklaus and I were bugging him for CS. Haha. Anyway, he showed me some cool stuff about astronomy and so on. He showed me this programme too. So cool! Haha. But it's cheem.

Went back home with Nicklaus, Xavier, Matt Lin. My uncle(Matt's dad) fetched us home. Haha, then Xavier and I took a train from Kembangan. And we were hoping not to see that old man again. Haha.

Got quite a number of things to look forward to tomorrow. Gonna cheer the C Div polo team during their finals tomorrow. Gonna practice with Xav on the PND. Gonna have cell tomorrow.

And also got the photos of Founder's Day and TA Camp from Bin soon. Yay. Haha. I might post them when I have time. Whee.

Here I go.

Again.

2007-03-19T08:03:00.000-07:00

Man, today was great.

Kinda slack for a term 2 school day. Expected lots of work and so on, but it was okay. Haha.

Day started off quite alright too. There was a heavy rain in the morning, which made the air smell like a summer day's air in New Zealand. Brought back memories of my overseas trips to Australia and NZ, which was pleasant. And it was quite retarded when I stepped into class. Haha, I missed sleeping with my head on the table. Haha, Pereira was taking attendance, then he called out my name, then Zhan Tian looked behind then started laughing. "Haha, sleeping as always". Hahahahahaha, sleepyhead....then the day passed quite fast. And I have chem remedial this saturday, which clashes with band. Aiyo...

After school went out with Xavier, Prash, Desmond, Irvin(or issit Ervin?), and some other guy. Think his name's Luke or something, to KAP. Met Euresh there too. And Aaron. And some some BRMC people, like Bryan Ang and Claire. Oo met Heng Bin too. Haha, haven't seen him for a really long time. He seems like he's doing well in ACJC...haha.and yea, actually managed to do my A Maths homework. Whheee, and there was Desmond there to help me too. Haha.

And after that I went straight for bsf. Was cool, learnt quite alot of new stuff that I've not thought about.

And I couldn't stop thinking about music camp and the time yesterday when and where I played for the worship service. Gosh. Kept thinking about drums the whole day lor...my logarithms in A Maths became longer rythms......aiyo....hhaha

Oh well, the next I probably am able to play for service will...well not sure if I can go back in the first place..but it was awesome I tell you....and erm. Can't wait to get back on the drums. Most probably this thursday. Whoo!

And I can't wait to play for REW! Whoo wheee...

Well, gotta finish up a maths now.

Here I go

2007-03-18T05:04:00.000-07:00

The past few days were great man.

Cell was alright. Usual discussion about faith and so on. Adn the jokes were usual too. Haha.

After cell, found out there was actually worship camp at BRMC! So yea, I wanted to sign up.

And yep, I did.

Well had some stuff to do before I could go though..

The next morning, band practice. I woke up late...sianzz..reached school at about 9.45, which is really late, so yea. After that, sectional practice. Then combine practice. Haha, we're like playing interlude corp all over again...haha...

Well, went for the music camp after that. Matthew was there. Xavier had to go for some PFM thing, so yea, he missed out like 3 hours of the programme. Well, it was really great. That day was awesome. Haha learnt alot in 'band dynamics', about 'cutting' and so on. Also alot of variations of the hymn 'What A Friend We Have In Jesus'. Haha, heard it in normal tune, reggae(Is that how it's spelt it?), country, rock, and they tried doing blues, but it didn't work out. Haha. Was great man. Then after that, jamming, or in other words, practice. Yea, learnt how to do a proper rim shot. Haha. And the people there are awesome. Very kind and helpful, like Ben who helped me with the rim shot and Morris who helped me with the tuning and MarkBala who helped me with the dynamics. Was awesome. And the theme talk was really good too. All about the heart of worship. Anyway, after jamming, we had to move the equipment over to the drama centre. Then we had dinner, well I actually stayed at the drama centre to continue jamming. Then yea, I went to have dinner. Gosh, dinner wasn't really good, part of the food was raw...revolting. After dinner there was practice for the next day's worship session. Led by Daryl. Haha it was awesome man. Morris was suppose to play the drums, but he had to go home, so Mark took over. And yea, he let me played some of the songs. Gosh, was awesome man. I love playing in a open area. You can just smash your heart out and nobody would complain. Had a few tips from Joel, Dean, Bala, Daryl. Yea. It was really awesome, just spamming everything yet playing music. The song that I played by the way, was Lifesong, by Casting Crowns. It is a really good song. All about your lifesong, which is your worship to God. Listening to it right now. Haha. Anyway, yea, I really enjoyed playing. And I also wanted to play for the worship the next day. Good thing there were two slots. And yay, I got the one of the slots. Was really happy. And I thank Daryl and Bala for letting me play....whee..

After that, nothing much really happened, except that we went for midnight lan. And Xavier and I went back to the lan centre to search for something 'that was already found'. Haha. And on the way back, we saw people getting arrested too. Qutie retarded. The officer slapped that guy on the back. Haha.

Ok, day 2, which was today. Had Mcdonalds for breakfast. Then packed up. Haha. And then it was the worship. Was really really nervous, never played in a crowd this big before. Yea, but it went alright, I guess. Personally I didn't think it was as good as the night before, but still. And wah lau, William was watching me play. Made me freak out man...but he said I improved! But he also said he could own me. Haha. Well, according to Wei En and Abraham he said that. Well, anyway, went on to Sunday School Class feeling depressed cause I didn't play as well as I tried too. But then again, got comments from other people that it was okay, just that it needed to be louder, cause it's a big stage. So yep, will try harder next time. And thanks for all the encouragement and support, everyone!

Well, that's about it for music ministry camp, though I wished it would be even longer. (I missed the first day btw). Gosh. Was a great experoence.....I can't stop saying that, can I?

After sunday school, slacked at the canteen. And Xavier got the shock of his life! Haha. But then towards the end of the day things didn't turn out as it was expected for him...well cheer up dude there's always next week and the week after the next. Anyway, slacked, slept, did my bsf in the admin room. Also played dota, which was getting really boring...yep, then went for games. Played soccer. Was fun.

After that, packed up admin room with Xavier. And he was telling me how he regretted..nevermind. Yea, was suppose to go home by myself, but then there was space on his mum's car. So yay. Had 'pre-dinner' and a few good conversations. Then his mum fetched me home. And something happened in the car that was really demoralising for Xavier. An sms, to be specific. Oh well...

Reached home. And now I'm blogging.

Still got A Maths to do.

Oh well.

"It's doesnt matter if you're a drummer or guitarist or bassist or soundman or pianist or vocalist, it's all for God"

2007-03-15T22:51:00.000-07:00

EEEEEEEE.

Reading the last post gives me goosebumps....

Sick.

Revolting.

Gross.

Well, nothing much today...yet. Had tuition this morning, that's all. And now I'm playing com...sianzz..gonna have cell later though. It should be the highlight of today...

And...there's nothing much to read on blogs these days....it's like every guy friend I know is hardly blogging and every girl friend I know is blogging about hanakimi and wuzun....

Don't know lah.

2007-03-15T08:39:00.000-07:00

Today was great.

GREAT.

You understand.

As in seriously lah, not the sarcastic one.

Whoo.

Morning. Suppose to go and meet Barney to get back my stuff, but then suddenly I remembered I had tuition when my tutor came at 10 this morning. Haha. Well, after that, immediately rushed off. Yep, played abit of lan..yes I know I'm a noob liver I mean leaver....haha cooling I mean culling blade..HAHA! Just found out Chia's weakness. K, nevermind. Anyway, after that, most of us(Zach, KKP, Chia and Barney) walked to Marina Square. Bowling. Whee. Was fun. And, yea super retarded too, as usual. (Especially with Barney there). Throwing bowling balls everywhere..and I saved $1.50 by escaping the "socks counter". Haha, played without socks. After that, I had to go for my doctor's appointment to remove my cast, while the rest continued bowling. Or should I call it throwing balls with full force. Haha. Yea, went over, met my mum, got it checked, was good, cast removed, went back out. Yay. Haha. Went to Chia's house. Well had to wait outside, cause they were at Simei waiting for Chia to be done with his dental check up. Haha. So yea, waited for an hour. Then they came over. And we had lotsa fun. Haha. Did super retarded stuff. Hafta keep it confidential for your metal health. :)

So yea, shared cab with KKP back home. And now he owes me 2.50. Haha.

Well, finally checked up my moodle. Got lotsa A Maths powerpoint slides. Haha.

And oh well...

Nic Lai's been feeling stressed...part of growing up I guess?

Wished life was like a fantasy...where everyone could have a happy ending...

And more of those feelings coming back....

Jealousy....anger...don't know...

Just don't feel like doing anything...

Just feel like watching the world go by....

Happy endings....sad endings....

Just stay watching...

Well. Not sure what to do.

Shit.

Tomrrow's f..f..ffriday.

W-which means t-that...THERE'S ONLY 3 DAYS TILL' SCHOOL STARTS!

Die liao.

Goobye world.

What he did was unforgivable...
Fate is unforgiving...
But, because of this...
Unforgiving fate...
I have the joy of reminiscing
Of the fate that brought you to me

2007-03-14T02:08:00.000-07:00

Yay. Changed my blog skin.

Happy now, Traci?

Haha.

I tried looking for a skin that suited this song "Gifts and Curses" by Yellowcard, and this was the closest that I could get to. So yea, though the song refers more to Spiderman rather that FF7, it's still kinda similar. After that I decided to chip in two other songs for fun. And thanks Choo! For the music.

And don't bother about the words on the left, it's in the skin itself, so I can't really do anything about it.

So yep. That's all for the skin.

Now for today. Woke up in the morning, panicking, cause I woke up late for my cycling trip. But then I called Barney and he said it was canceled, so yea. He's gonna come later to pass my phone, wallet and keys back. Yay.

After that, played com, talked to people on msn. Then I didn't know what to do. Cause I was seriously bored. So I asked around, see who was free. Then I gave up asking, so I went cycling. by myself. Cycled to Matthew Lin's house. But nobody was home, so I was like exhausted, wondering what to do now. So I went back. Much easier route. Less paths under construction and so on...yea came back, found out my dad was at home, and so was my uncle. Haha my uncle says he's on the paper, talking about mrt and so on. Haha.

Dead tired now.

Gosh my stamina sucks.

Haha.

Doing my online chemistry quiz now.

Finally.

2007-03-13T06:46:00.000-07:00

(Greeting here)

All right, holidays have started. But it doesn't seem like holidays anymore leh...

As in all the work and stuff....or rather just the stress of knowing you have homework...

Haha....

Well, past two days were fine.

Spent the whole of yesterday slacking...didn't really do much. Well, woke up quite late anyway, too late to find out that Barney, Zach and a whole lot of other people were at KKP's house(which is like right next to mine).

Today was quite eventful. Woke up in the morning, played CS on Xbox. Then got a call from Barney, asking whether he could put their bags at my house(since Mitch, Nico, Jon Fan and Barney were cycling around the neighbourhood). So, yea, they came over, put bags at my house, then went off to cycle. Then continued playing com....After like an hour or so, they cam back. Then Barney showed me his chem project(haha retarded man). Then yea, all of them came over(Mitch and Nico, who were supposedly 'lost', came) Haha. Yea, then we decided to play basketball, but the problem was that we had no ball, so Barney decided to go to KKP's house to see whether he was there. So yea, went down, found out I was the only one without a bike, so went back up, brought my dad's old bike down, got it's wheels pumped, also got checked out by Nico and Barney. Yea, it's suspensions are screwed, so there was this funny feeling while I was cycling. Haha. Anyway, we cycled around, then we all decided to cylce to east coast, but Barney said my bike wouldn't make it, so Nico, Mitch and Fan cycled back to like dunnoe Bukit Timah or somewhere around there while Barney and I went to KKP's house. Had some fun trying to get the bikes up in one lift, then more fun trying to park them outside KKP's house in this small narrow corridor(commonly known as a staircase). Yep, went in, played mroe com. Haha CS and 2142. There's nothing much about 2142, just that the guns look cooler and there's this walker vehicle thing. Yea, and KKP has a punching bag in his room. Well, messed around with KKP's com, as in disturbing people like Zach on msn....haha...then we decided to go play BBall. We did manage to play for abit, but after a while it started raining..haha...well it's difficult shooting with a slab on your left arm. Missed all my 3-pointers...either too much str or too little...haha...Yep, then they came over to my house. Played Xbox. Haha super retarded man. Played Forza Motorsport. Simulation racing. And as usual, Barney messed around again..haha like crush gears instead of racing. Well, after about an hour, they had to go back. Barney cycled all the way back to Toa Payoh...sianzz..Anyway, KKP came back soon after, asking whether he left his house keys here. Then I was like 'oh shit' it's with Barney. My phone and wallet was in Barney's bag too. Then we were like panicking, like oh shit Barney's probably like somewhere in the middle of Singapore now. But anyway, got his number from Zach(yay) and then called him. Well it isn't easy calling somebody who not only put his handphone in his bag but is also dashing through the streets of Singapore on a bike. So yea, managed to get through. Only 15 mins had passed since he left, but he was like at Kallang already -.-. So yea, decided to go cycling again tomorrow, so he'll bring back the keys, phone and wallet.

So yep, gonna cycle to Paya Lebar tomorrow to meet him, then we're gonna cycle over to my house tomorrow.

As for now, gotta do my chemistry online quiz. And also hunt for photos of band camp. :)

2007-03-11T06:02:00.000-07:00

Dammit.

Was feeling great, or maybe just trying to relax, from the fact that I still have to where this cast even though I feel alright. Well, yea it was great, until she came in...

Anyway, school on friday was fine. Did my napfa 5 stations. Didn't manage to get what I was aiming for...but well it's still a gold at least..so yea, happy about that.

After that, had band camp. Yay. Started off with soccer. And guess what? I tripped and fell -.-. Put some ice on it. Was better. But it kept getting worse. Anyway, had band practice. But I hardly contributed anything cause of my wrist...and yea anyway I kept getting suan-ed...sianzz...ran into a few problems...

Day 2. Went to ACS(I) in the morning for enrolment parade rehearsal. Man it sucked. Tried playing, and guess what, it got worse...sianzz...and the drum maj...argh nevermind. After that, went back, ate lunch, then went to hospital to get my arm checked. It was seriously crazy being with John Wu at KK....haha. Anyway, turned out that it wasn't a fracture. Just a muscle contusion. But the doctor still put a cast on me. Not the full one though, just a slab. Anyway, went back feeling all depressed, cause that meant that I couldn't play for the performance(which I had been anticipating with lotsa excitement) the next day. So yea, went back, feeling depressed, watched them played soccer. Oh yah. Haha soccer was really really funny. Haha one of the scenes..Darren was like fooling around lah, as in making alot of mistakes..yea and one of his mistakes. Haha he was trying to stop the ball in mid-air, so he lifted up his leg, and...wham...ok nevermind. Yea, we laughed alot after that, then Damien said "Eh, it's no more fight fire with fire, it's fight balls with balls." What the hell lah. Had a good abs training session, it was all laughing.....yep...but anyway, later I was damn happy. Cause I found out that I was able to play! Yay...after that, dinner, practice, then movie marathon. Haha only had time to watch one movie...haha.

This morning, woke up, feeling all excited about the performance. Yea. Was great. Everything went smoothly. But we were tired after that lah, as in all the bunk cleaning, debrief(haha), and yea other stuff. Also went for the church service. Man had a great time eating lunch together after that. Had quite a laugh too. And yea, watching movies in the admin room. Quite relaxing.
Yea everybody left one by one, then it wa just me and Xavier. Watched Shanghai Noon. Well, halfway only, but still, it was damn funny. And yea wanted to join in for games after that, but they were worried about my arm, so yea didn't play in the end.

Went back. Yea and now I'm back.

Was feeling excited. About, you know, having a good dinner and being able to relax. Well, got pissed off while I was bathing cause it was like my arm was alright already but I still had to put on that cast. Had alot of problems bathing. What was made worse was that..ahh..heck about it lah...

Now I don't know to do. Actually, I don't even feel like doing anything. Did what I wanted to do, Experienced what I wanted to experience. Well, dunnoe lah.

All I can feel now is anger.

Though it's suppose to be a joyous moment...

2007-03-07T05:10:00.000-08:00

Wow. Amazing. Posting twice on the same day.

Haha.

Just watch a few good shows...quite cool. Never watched such good TV for quite a long time. Kinda brings me back.

Yea had a chat with a few people just now.

Haha. I'm trying, repeat trying, to do my homework...yea, reminds me of last year. Everytime I would study in the rom where I'm in now during my exam period. And yea, everytime I felt I couldn't take in anymore, I would retire to my good ol' pair of KP3 sticks and start trying out new rudiments on my drumpad. I'd just start playing anything that would come to my head, and, you know, start the flow, get things going. Well, it starts things up in my brain. Then yea, I would go back to my textbook, start reading again.

Why I'm posting this? Well, I'm not too sure either. Maybe that's why they call it a blog.

Anyway, kinda woken up by the movie I just watched. I can bet ya it was by Pixar. Their movies are always great, though random at times. Yea.

Gotta buy new sticks soon btw....anybody would like to donate to the Uriah-needs-a-future-before-Simon-starts-scolding-him fund?

Oh yea, having worship practice for tomorrow. For band camp. Haha. Dunnoe what to do. I'm gonna play guitar. Ahhh, first time playing it leh...ahhh....die..haha. Oo and Kai Bin changed his strings. He says it's like smooth and rust-less now. Like whoo, a caress-able guitar? That sounds cool...oh wait...no it doesn't...

Yep, that's about all I've got in my mind.

2007-03-07T01:41:00.000-08:00

Ooo damn happy today.

School was alright. Well, last three periods was all Saras. At first I thought it'll be damn sian lah, but it turned out alright. In fact acutally like one of the best periods of the day. Haha, though I failed my ss test by one mark...ahhh...

And Matthew dislocated his knee. He lost his knee, oh no we have to look for it! Haha he's alright though. He seemed as if nothing happened. So oh well.

And after school. Bowling! With Barney, Zachary, Darren, KKP and DJ. Gosh damn happy now! I best like the best I ever played! All my scores were above 120..and my highest was 161! So happy! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:P

Yay.

Well, later I'm having tuition...sianzz....and erm, school tomorrow. Haha. Gotta do my homework. Ahhh!!!

2007-03-06T05:34:00.000-08:00

The Last Song

This may be the last thing that I write for long
Can you hear me smiling when I sing this song
For you and only for you

As I leave will you be someone to say goodbye
As I leave will you be someone to wipe your eye
My foot is out the door, and you can't stop me now

You wanted the best, it wasn't me, will you give it back
Now i'll take the lead, when there's no more room to make it grow
I'll see you again, you'll pretend you're naive, is this what you want
Is this what you need, how you end up let me know

As I go, remember all the simple things you know
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope
That you will miss me when I'm gone
This is the last song

The hearts start breaking as the year is gone
The dream's beginning and the time rolls on
It seems so surreal, now I sing it.

Somehow I knew that it would be this way
Somehow I knew that it would slowly fade
Now I'm gone, just try and stop me now.

You wanted the best, it wasn't me, will you give it back
Now i'll take the lead, when there's no more room to make it grow
I'll see you again, you'll pretend you're naive, is this what you want
Is this what you need, how you end up let me know

As I go, remember all the simple things you know
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope
That you will miss me when I'm gone
This is the last song

And will you need me now, you'll find a way somehow
You want it too, I want it too

As I go, remember all the simple things you know
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope
That you will miss me when I'm gone
This is the last song

2007-03-06T04:30:00.000-08:00

Wah lau. Some funny thing happened and my whole post was erased. Anyway, here I go again.

Damn tired now.

Just ran for my 2.4 napfa test.

Ran like there was no tomorrow.

Well, yea, I don't know my timing. Teacher's didn't mention, but it was recorded in this computer. Yea they used a machine to keep track of our timing. Dammit lah, I'm sick of technology. Why keep using machines?

Why I'm so fussy over this matter? Erm the height and weight machine screwed up my height and weight. So yea.

Anyway, school was alright. And I think my 2.4's alright too. I didn't walk even for abit, and Gerald said I ran quite fast, and Gerald's standard is quite high(well that's what I think). Yea, last time I actually ran instead of walk I got a 11.38. Whoohoo.

Anyway, some people didn't perform at their best....expected Kheng to get like 7-8 minutes...he got 9.45. And I expected Xavier to get 10 minutes...he got 11.38...well, he says it's the heat. I guess so too.

Anyway, I'm gonna try erm posting up this pic. I'm trying to a avatar pic for my class's forum. Or rather Ex-class's forum. Btw, this is a screenshot from Dawn Of War. Or rather half a screenshot. Trying to minimise it as far as I can. Yep. Here it goes.

Ok fine so it can't work. Something's wrong with my internet. Dang.

2007-03-05T05:57:00.000-08:00

Hey. Back. I guess I'm only free enough on Mondays and Sundays to post.

And guess what. I lost my timetable. I had to guess what lessons we were having today..and gosh I was correct! Haha so cool...

Anyway, day didn't start off well....personal reasons...but chapel turned the whole thing over. In other words, chapel was GREAT! Mr Lai led well(no offense, but he needs to work on his singing..) still, it was great. The drummer was stunning. Totally inspired. Song choice, Sermon, everything.

The sermon was about consistency. Taken from the book of Titus. Short book. Think I wanna read it myself to understand it more, though the speaker has like said everything already...haha...

Well, lessons were ok...until emath came...sianzz...

Well, after recess, lessons were getting better. Alex Lee's damn good lah...we did a online test. Haha, and I got 14/20...ee not what I expected, but's ok lah. It's still an A. Then physics test after that...sianz...was mentally preapred to fail...and I'm guessing I will. And a great way to end off the day. Chinese. Haha I love CLB. And there was a new teacher. So it was like two teachers in the class. And I was surprised lah. I thought he came from China, so he'd totally be like chinese speaking...haha but he's singaporean and his english is probably better than like whole class combined. Haha. We also did a test. Simple one. Think I'll pass this one.

After that, went our to Far East with Xavier and Brandon. Eat lunch at subway. Great man. But expensive. And OMG Brandon's my new best friend. You know why? HE'S GETTING TWO MASTER PEARLS!!!!!! Gosh, jamming center liao. So cool man. His house is gonna be my second home. Haha. He also getting guitars and stuff....After that we went to BB hq. Sign some stuff. For soem reason I feel bad...nevermind.

After that, went shopping at Great World City, then back to school. Xavier was quite pissed, cause he went back only to find out that admin room's closed. And he left his hw and stuff inside. So yea....anyway, went back home together.

Tuition. Maths.

Then BSF. Learnt about justification.

Made me think alot. Expecially since what I've been through for the past few days. It's a question that has been asked in cell group twice. Contemplated alot on it just now. Why is it a sin to commit suicide? Well...I've thought alot...and this is what I believe. I believe why we should not commit suicide because it defeats the whole purpose of God even creating us in the first place. He has planned everything out, and I bet He put sin inside the story, so that we would be able to learn. Learn from our mistakes. I think He wants life to be a learning process after we believe in Him, so that we would be deemed fit for Heaven. So that we would have that shield of faith. So that we would be able to know what we should do whenever stuff don't go right. Or when the things of evil oppose us. So that we would have that strong faith and desire and belief. So that we could be made perfect through His grace. We can't take any shortcut to perfection. We hafta learn. And that's why we shouldn't end our own lives. We need to learn, learn to pull through, learn to respect, be selfless, be kind, and so on. I believe by commiting suicide, it just proves you're a weakling. A wimp. A coward, who doesn't dare face life because all he wants is a shortcut to everything.

Well, it's kinda weird for me to post this..and I might be wrong...but well. I've been thinking alot lately. "Let us now silently contemplate"....haha sounds familiar? Nah, I don't like that show. Anyway. Yep. Thinking alot. Past events. Future events. Present events. Don't know. I should just move along. It's gotta be the right thing to do. Not all the world is bad...I've hardly seen anything yet anyway.

Got 2.4 tomorrow. Not prepared. I'm confident that I'll past. But well...don't know how well...aiming for a ten by the way...last year I got 11. Oh yah, a way to motivate myself. The score between Gomez and me is like 2-2. In terms of arm wrestling, napfa...all those physical stuff lah. Haha thoughts of beating him could be inspiration.

And btw, Nic Lai, I'm fine now. Thanks for your concern. :)

2007-03-04T06:42:00.000-08:00

...Suddenly it's all so peaceful now...

2007-03-04T06:41:00.000-08:00

It's funny, but everytime I think of the stuff that happened last year.....clarity joins in....

2007-03-04T06:37:00.000-08:00

Damn it lah...now I can't concentrate on my chemistry...

2007-03-04T06:28:00.000-08:00

Damn pissed now....seriously...I can't take it anymore...I just wanna runaway...please....just take me away...don't think I can face this anymore

2007-03-03T23:36:00.000-08:00

Back. After five days. Posting. Blog.

Founder's Day was great. Marching was great. Alot of people liked Interlude Corp. Haha guess what? It's only the first 3 lines, wait till' we show you more....hehehe....anyway, after that, slacked around until school ended. Afetr school...slacked. changed out, then went to paradiz. Played lan. Yea, haha I'm losing my skills...haha what skills...ok nevermind. Yea, went with Jerome, Andrew, Brandon, Barnabas, Sean, Ben Choy. Met Xavier there. Yea Andrew, Ben, Jerome and I continued to play dota while Xavier and the rest went to play pool. Yep, we went to meet them after that. And yea, that's about it.

Oh yah, Barney(ong) came to my house after that. Cause he had church, as it was near my house...so yea...haha he went to make fun of a certain somebody...quite retarded...

Thursday was quite eventful. Went out with Barney, Zach, KKP to NSRCC. But before that, they all came to my house...haha...played Halo, Fifa...funny stuff lah. Yea we went bowling, pool...gosh..burnt holes in our pockets...haha the bowling cost like 40+ bucks lah...anyway, after that we went back to Tampines. Bought bubble tea! Haha. Lucky thing there was no pearl fight...hehe...oh yah, Chia and Mitch were suppose to come..but yea, Mitch had tuition and Chia was grounded...sad..just imagine if both of them were around...haha cool...oh yah. The first time I enjoyed pearls. It was like so good lor. Soft and squishy..not hard and stiff...easier to chew...eh Kirk, don't think sick...

Friday kinda sucked....bad stuff happened...shit on my bag...toilet bowl water on my shoes...gosh...dunnoe what's his problem...anyway, went for cell...Xavier and Brandon..making fun of me...even Prash(kinda like a paradox eh?)haha don't kill me Prash, I didn't mean anything on that...stupid bag...I mean the shit on my bag...yea...and erm...I kept making fun of Xavier too...haha sorry...I'll try my best to stop..though you can wack me if I start again.

Dunnoe lah. Friday was like all about anger. Anger. Anger. And Anger. And there was that certain somebody...dunnoe what's her problem too...gets angry at everybody else except the person who really did it...aiyah...

Saturday. Didn't go for band. Had worship stuff to settle. And yea, worship sucked. Seriously. Dunnoe lah...I'm too dull, ain't I? And yea, next time I lead, I'll choose more familiar songs...must listen to ex-csm...haha. Anyway, after that, left for YI. Played for Gabriel's worship session. Quite cool. Something to brighten up my day. And yea, had Bible study. On the book of 1 Timothy. Learnt alot about pride and false teaching.

And yep. Sunday. Sang in choir. Quite cool. And then breakfast. At first I thought I was suppose to go home and study..but then I realised my mum was going for second service, so I went for choir practice...yep...and...

All those feelings. About....they're coming back...everytime I think or see...it's been like so long....don't know...can't keep it in. I wanna shout it out, but then I'll feel afraid to face the world again...All I want...don't know leh..should be concentrating on my studies...which I don't really give a damn about cause everything seems so meaningless...

Just read a story. The same story which I have read three times so far, And I really love it, though it's fiction. Bascially about a murder. Of an angel. By an angel. Quite interesting. It's a short story...

"He glanced around uncomfortably. "It's a feeling of deep affection and attraction for another being, often combined with passion or desire - a need to be with another." He spoke dryly, didactically, as if he were reciting a mathematical formula. "The feeling that we have for the Name, for our Creator - that is Love...amongst other things. Love will be an impulse that will inspire and ruin in equal measure. We are..." He paused, then began once more. "We are very proud of it.""

Don't know why I'm so interested in it though...

Bet my bro will scold me for this post.

Dunnoe lah.

Just wanna scream my lungs out.

....Still waiting for...

2007-02-27T06:24:00.000-08:00

Alright. I'm back. And still running.

School was great man. Though Lawrence Mak pmsed again, but then again, I finally learnt something from him! Not only him, I think Saras's class was also better. Haha, learnt the comparison thingy again. Like whoo. Hyped up. And the other classes were great too. My test went well. Haha and geog teacher postponed our test, cause he released the previous class late. Haha. And I think my history test went well. But no SEQ, not challenging one...Haha btw I went to school late. Lucky my mum 'came to the rescue'. And also good thing that LSL was on duty. So gullible....but anyway it was true lah, my dad did fall sick. So yea, nobody to fetch me to school.

Anyway, after school, I had Founder's Day rehearsal. Dunnoe, why, but my stamina went down. I actually felt tired though it wasn't that hot and I was only in school uniform...ahhh...didn't play well also...argh and the real thing's tomorrow!

Well. I got to polish up too...my boots suck lor. No shine at all. Really gotta polish. Dunnoe what to do after school tomorrow too..

Well. Break coming up. So cool. Finally, rest. ( I think I've been slacking too much though).

Gotta move along.

2007-02-26T07:12:00.000-08:00

School's starting to ruin everything. Don't know why.

Anyway, past few days were quite interesting.

Saturday was like "Stress day" cause alot of stuff happened. Yea had band, and I was BSM in duty, first time doing it, so yea. Had to go count attendance..then I also kept forgetting to count myself..haha stupid me...and Joshua Ang taught me how to properly report to an officer during Fall In. Learnt quite alot of stuff, like how to say Band in Malay...haha..

After that, had a quick lunch. Basically instant noodles. Rocks man. Cheap but nice food(though unhealthy), and Bin Soon started sharing lame jokes again...here's one. Q:What are sea monster's most favourite food? A:Potato Ships...haha...anyway, had to quickly rush off for worship practice. I was the worship leader. I actually planned for both Kai Bin and Bryan to play guitar, but Xavier asked Bryan to play the piano, and yea it sounded better. Prac went fast, the slides were done fast, projector was settled quickly, amps were well and so on. After that, had fall in, then worship. To me, I think worship was ok..but they say my guitarist didn't play well...dunnoe lah...but yea a majority of the people were singing, that was good...Thank God for bringing me through that worship session man...

Anyway, after that, listened to Mr Chew's devotion. Learnt quite a number of points there. About punishment and redemption.

Had to quickly rush off to YI after that. Gosh even after waiting for the bus for an hour it still didn't come. Met Daryl, Vighnesh and Song Heng while I was waiting too. They had some match briefing...so yea...I decided to take cab to church. Went there, we combined with Uncle Gavin's cell group. Yea did some sharing with each other and then had dinner. Played lots of table tennis. And Hahaha was ultra bored...haha I think we were bullying her by making her wait...anyway after that, went back home.

On Sunday I went to Matthew Lin's church. Haha finally met Cara and Vera in person....service started at 11. Had Worship. Coincidentally Vera was leading and Cara was back up. Haha. After that listened to a message. A few stories about Jesus. Relating to what God means to you. Anyway, after that, Roy's bday bash. Haha alot of sick stuff happened. And we(me, Derek, Roy, Bryant) kept making fun of Matt and Cara. Hehehe....And Matt tried to put me and Sam together, but he failed, as usual..haha. I wanna go Matt's church again. Good thing their service is after our service haha. Yay. Anyway, after that Matt, Derek, and I went to Tiong Bahru for lunch. Had a good LJS meal..and wah lau Derek spilled his drink all over my chair lor... anyway after that, went back home, did homework, then went to Matt's house to stay over.

School was alright I guess, though Samuel Eio was quite stressed, saw Alex Lee pmsing other classes, yea...I actually learnt something from Saras, finally. And yea, after school, there was suppose to be Founder'sa Day rehearsal, but it was raining heavily, so the teachers decided to cancel the rehearsal so that we could go home to study. Anyway, went back, immediately bathed and rushed off for BSf. Was interesting. Learnt quite a number of stuff, basically about God's mercy. Anyway, after that, crapped around, then went back home. Just did my A Maths quiz online. Guess what. I was prepared for the time limit, so I kinda panicked and just guessed everything randomly. And got a 6/10. Haha, this is just luck man, gotta remember about my calculator next time...

Got two tests tomorrow. Geog and History. Gotta get prepared.

And Nick Lai's having his exams now. Didn't know until now. Wishing him good luck man :)

Gosh, Founder's Day parade this Wednesday. Gotta get mentally prepared.

Hope tomorrow will turn out well...as in class don't cock up anything, or any last minute stuff happen....

Oh well...here it goes

2007-02-23T08:18:00.000-08:00

OMG haven't posted for the past week....oh well, I was staying at my cousin's house anyway. Parents went overseas for a mission trip. So yea, stayed at my cousin's house so that he could send me to school(it's the waking up problem...).

Anyway, past week was fine. CNY was great. Went to vist relatives, get ang baos :) and so on...usual CNY stuff...School before that was fine, usual retardedness...

Tuesday was great. Went out with Brandon, Xavier, Png and Matt Ong to watch a movie. Wah lau, kinda wasted 9 bucks. We went to watch Epic Movie. Sianz, the jokes were quite retarded, though we use some of them in our everyday language now...haha...."Weii, I need to go play sudoku"....HAHA omg. Anyway, after that, we met some champion who only showed up AFTER the movie....WeiWen...haha. We ended up walking around, looking at stuff. Yea, after that went back home. My parents expected me to be back early, so yea.

School was fine..though seriously, I wish the school would get back all the really good teachers and just throw away the new ones....haven't been learning anything much lah...tried self-studying, but I don't get the texbook either. Gosh, I think What the CO boys said about was right. IT'S RETRIBUTION!! Gosh, my physics..ahh I'm gonna fail....and history, social studies...geog...and my e maths.....ahh...dunnoe what to do liao...tell you arh, If Mr Alan Lim and Alex Lee leave the school, I'm gonna transfer to ACS International man, just like what Douglas did...dunnoe what to do liao...seems like school is like meaningless now lor, might as well stay at home and have Wikipedia lessons. Gosh, I miss all the old teachers man; it's like Barker isn't Barker anymore.

And my class..I just don't know what to say...I want my old class back!!!!! Shing and gang, Barney, Sathish, even people like Joshua Chen...gosh I really miss all of them man...it's really funny, but I learn better with those guys. As in I can keep awake. Haha. Guess you should know why...

Man, hope we can get like two chalets this year. Party all night, watch retarded movies, have 200 dollar dinners(HAHA)....maybe during the March holiday...

Anyway, for the past two days, I had Founder's Day rehearsal. Wait, rehearsalS I mean...yea it was tiring man, totally exhausted...carrying my drum for like 3 hours...with a few breaks in between...but still...gosh my back ached today. Couldn't stand up properly...or even sit down proeperly. And erm, classes were quite slack, except maybe a few. Was able to learn some stuff lah, which was quite ok. Oh and Samuel Eio left early also, so we didn't have physics class. And erm in A Maths we did a quiz, which I was totally unprepared for.

After that, went out with Brandon, Xavier and Sean to Cineleisure...wanted to play pool, but it was like full...haha..so we ended up just eating in Subway, and walking around. Saw some cool and cheap Nike basketball shoes.

After that, we had cell. We did the prayer thing, as we usually do for every month(I think)..not only did we do prayer, but also lots of 'bee' throwing....haha...super retarded I tell ya.

After that, usual Caltex Mayhem. Haha, sat down, had coversations and so on. And yea, Xavier and I had a lift back home, or rather to my cousin(Matt)'s house to collect my stuff and to bring them back home. Yea, Xav and I took a cab back from Matt's place. Had a really interesting conversation I must say...hmm...oh well...more like we're changing rather than the world changing....oh well, hope things go out right :).

Sorry my post is kinda unorganised, really tired now..it's like 1 am....

Gtg sleep now. Tomorrow' I'm BSM in charge and Worship Leader..gosh I feel the stress coming in....ahhhh.....

2007-02-14T06:17:00.000-08:00

Last two days were quite meaningless...

Felt really depressed on tuesday. For some odd reason, the good ol' memories of my class last year just kept flashing through my mind. The teachers, the lessons, and moreover, the company. Last year's class was not the only thing on my mind. I also just kept thinking about other stuff. Things that were happening outside. To other people. Things that had happened before and how I wish I could change them...it's really weird...all those stuff just kept repeating through my mind...tried to think of something else, tried to focus on lesson, but it didn't work...really felt like going back in time, experience those times again...also didn't feel like moving on...everything seemed meaningless to me then, exams, studies, all of them seemed meaningless, I just thought we're gonna die anyway....I just wanna go back. Feels like wearing long pants is a burden. Felt like everything was over, got nothing to do, nothing to lose....

Today I felt better, just that I was really sleepy. Slept through the classes that I thought since the teacher can't teach, might as well make that lesson purposeful and sleep instead. What was worse was that I had a really bad runny nose(oh no must catch it back!)...aiyo, someone must be gossiping about me, since it's valentine's day...haha what the hell.....anyway yea couldn't do my physics spa properly. I think Eric Loh failed me.....good I thing I felt more alive after OralComm..and yea I could concentrate better on the last two lessons. Didn't do so well for my history test, think I got a 10 or 11 out of 18...that's sucks man....oh and I finally understood one of LHF's lessons without me having to stay back to ask her again....yay....Anyway, after school I had band practice. Quite cool, the drummers are finally playing Interlude Corp, but the thing is that we dunnoe where to put it in. But I couldn't really practice, cause I had to do my written speech to pass to to Mr Alan Lim(which was due about 2 hours ago at that time), and also to look for Ms Adeline Tan to get back Xavier's Founder's Man form...wah lau had to keep running around the building....and yea, Xav and I tried to remake the version of 'I Believe I Can Fly' from drumline. Damn funny...just a bagpipe and a snare...haha....after that, went to US with Brandon and Xavier. Met Samuel Chew there too. Dunnoe what he was doing there, just wandering about alone....Well had half my dinner at pizza hut. Gosh it was damn irritating. Xav and Brandon were at it again. The me and faith thing. They kept making up songs...and Brandon was the worst one I tell you....not only did he make fun of me, he couldn't sing. So it's a two in one combo. Haha....sorry Brandon...anyway after that, we went back, well Xav and I. We were talking about the pipe and drum version thing again, and erm me and faith(-.-), and yea other stuff. And I was doing my written speech in the train. Haha we also wanted to do something really stupid and retarded, but yea, we didn't do it in the end.

Anyway, I forgot to tell you all something. Listened to a really good speaker last friday. He's really good. His words have made an impact on me, like another Winston Churchill, though not as articulated....The topic was basically about leadership and influence...and yea the speaker did a good job, just that some people couldn't appreciate it...

Gosh, alot of problems are going around in my school now...smoking, gangsterism, attitude problems....guess it's my batch that's causing all the trouble, and since I'm part of that batch, it's my fault too...

Oh well. Tomorrow there's founder's day rehearsal. Can't wait to sort out the interlude corp thing.

2007-02-11T04:49:00.000-08:00

Sorry for not posting, was quite busy last week.

School was fine. Usual nonsense and retardness, and yea had a few tests and stuff. Yay, I got 8/10 for my SS test...happy...and chinese classes are really retarded with Jeremy and Zach around...can't remember what really happened though...well...

Just came back from camp. Started on friday evening. And before that, we really slacked real hard. For me, I just stayed in admin room, for Xavier and gang, they went for lan...yea and then camp started. Worship team(which includes me) had to go practice, cause we didn't really do anything on thursday. After fall in, we had to quickly rush to the chapel to practice. And yea it turned up well. But I did screw up a few times....:'(...After that, lectures on total defence...in other words badge work lah...yea, doing my total defence gold...gotta do some funny group work project....after that, supper, then slept. The next day, woke up, had master parade, then first aid lessons. Doing stage 3. First part was done by Mr Shawn Tham. Learnt about fractures and so on. After that, break, lunch, then more first aid lessons. Mr James Qua(issit spelt this way?) did the second part. I find it quite inconsistent, as in the two lessons don't link. One taught something different from the other. Anyway, yea listened and that was about it. We had another break. Haha, it was damn retarded. Naveen got raped...his pants was torn up by Jun Kai(I think)..haha..and Naveen was running around with just his underwear and shirt...after that, we did the first aid theory test. Was quite hard. Alot harder from the rest. After that, a long break. Some played soccer. Others(like Andrew) went around with this stick and tennis ball, whacking it around. As for me, I went 'jamming' with Josh Png. As in pipes and drums. Haha. On the fifth floor where everybody could hear it. Yea ran around like some dog too, chasing tennis balls and so on. After that, retreat, then dinner. Was fun. Had buffet dinner. Also had a movie. DRUMLINE ROCKS! Haha, watched it a few times before that already, but I kinda forgot the storyline. Well, my memory got refreshed. So cool...got inspired again to practice...after that, we had an interesting supper. The groups had to auction for their food. Every group was given 2000 bucks. Haha my group got scammed. We paid 400 bucks fro this mystery item, and guess what, it was a bunch of apples...haha....Brandon's fault!!!! And he came back with the 'An apple a day keeps the doctor away' bullshit...actually not reallt bulshit lah, it's quite true....anyway after that, had night games at sportshall. Played one of the best matches ever. REally had a workout. Played basketball with the officers. Boys against officers, that is. And guess what, we won 15-14. REally tough match, was totally worn out after the match. Contirbuted 3 points, one basket and one free throw. Think Darren scored the most, I remember he scored one three-pointer. Haha I couldn't do three pointers cause the officers were like damn tall, that's why Xavier and I had a disadvantage, my three pointer's always got blocked....hmm and Xavier and the other Darren played well too. It's amazing what comics can do....haha right Xav? One of the best matches I've ever played....enjoyed it alot, though I didn't really get the satisfaction of winning cause I thought I didn't play my best...gotta work on my shooting...maybe I'll go out with Shing one of these days...go do lotsa shooting and dribbling...and my back ached for the rest of that night...The next day, woke up, master parade, breakfast, debrief(haha hurry take it off!), church, area cleaning, then dismissal. Nothing much really happened....didn't really enjoy the church service though...dunnoe maybe I was tired or something...

So yea, after camp, slacked in admin room, and Ian Hwee scolded some of us for not going home...Some brmc people were there, like James and Yi Xian, didn't really get what Yi Xian was doing, like dunnoe playing funny music on some laptop...yea then went back with my dad. Fetched Bryant back too. And yea, played some dawn of war.

Gosh, dunnoe what all my friends are doing, everybody's like setting me up with somebody. Like Kevin's setting me up with Noelle, Xavier and Brandon's setting me up with Faith and Laura, Matthew's setting me up with Samantha.....gosh...now I should just hide from the world and be an emo kid...haha no way man jk....well dunnoe what's happening....

Haha, wanted to post this up a few weeks ago, but I kept forgetting. It feels so good to wear long pants to school man. The sec ones like give you respect because of your long pants, and they'll like keep making way for you to pass through at the corridors....but after a while, they'll find out that you're just a piece of shit like everyone else, and they'll stop...haha seems so funny.

Well, now I have that weird funny feeling that I always have after a good camp...maybe it's tiredness or something....well, wanna rest. Dunnoe what homework I have also...haha....gonna die tomorrow, damn tired now. Totally worn out from that basketballl match last night...

Alot of rubbish has been happening lately...mixed feelings and so on....seem to be losing friends, and not making any.....

Talking with Shing on msn now, and gosh he still not changed yet(in terms of spelling :P)....

Well....dunnoe what to do(or say) now....just continue listening to Jars of Clay...

2007-01-28T04:51:00.000-08:00

"Cause if I lose now.....

....I'd just be a freakin' joke"

SLAM DUNK COMICS ROCKS!

Even got emo volumes also...and all the action and stuff, just way too cool....gosh I'm gonna get the last set of volumes from Damien, the rest until 31, I hafta go get myself...

Past few days were alright. Nothing much to describe, actually it's more of I'm lazy to describe. School was ok. Met my evil cousin(cause he's my bro's evil son) in Barker. He seems to be doing ok in SJI....SEL lesson was fun. Gonna get the Helogen T-Shirt. 25 bucks, quite expensive, but oh well...

Got a lot of tests coming up. Gotta get prepared.

Cell on friday was fun. Usual lame jokes and so on. And discussions are getting quite complicated now...gosh Edmund chose such a hard book...well I think my bro read through that one before, maybe can ask him what he thinks...After that, Caltex Mayhem, then got a ride back home.

Saturday was quite screwed up, except for band. I finally woke up on time. But still 10 mins late, cause of the bus's funny schedule. Anyway, got there, practiced. No conbine because most of the pipers didn't come. Or rather, most of the pipers went for AQ training. Sian. So yea, the drummers are finally learning interlude corp. So cool...the backstick and everything. Feel that Sec 2s are learning fast too. But anyway, Ivan was thinking of not competing in PND this year, cause a lot of seniors are taking Os, hafta study and so on...but if we do, then we''ll hafta rely on Junior Power...

After that, parade. Worship screwed up like shit. The drums had no hi-hat, ride cymbal, floor tom, no proper crash....Guitarists were unsure, Xavier suddenly went outta tune cause phlemg(how do you spell it?) suddenly creeped in....Brandon Tan was nervous(Mr Khoo, WHERE ARE YOU???)...oh well, next week Jon Choy's leading, without Xav, Wei Wen and Brandon, dunnoe how it's gonna work out...Anyway, after worship I had to leave for YI. Haha, by the time I went there I was late, so I couldn't join them for kayaking...well at least I went to jog around Bedok Resevoir...actually not around lah, just 3/5 of it, I suppose. After that, went back to church, had dinner at Han's. Haha first time I tired Tobasco. It rocks man. But I tell, I almost puked...too much....I added too much to my plate of fried rice...haha...stupid me. After that, went back.

Was kinda pissed when I went back. My earphones for my walkman couldn't work properly. The left side was like spoilt. Only when I reached home then it started working...-.-..and also, I LOST ONE OF MY BADGES! FAVOURITE ONE SOMEMORE...the "Have A Day" one....oh well, if I'm lucky I'll find it in some train....

Today was better than yesterday(duh). Today will also be known as Green Day from now on. YI planned to wear green so yea we wore green. A coincidence then the choir wore the green sash and the Joyful Voices(their uniforms, or rather shirts, are green) performed. Haha, ultimate greeen day. Cool, next time we do this it should be pink! Anyway, after service, hanged around at the YI corner, then went for choir fellowship. Cool house man...yea, lunch was quite toruring for me cause I can't really handle chilli...

After that, went home, with some choir members, like Noelle...yea...

Didn't get to go to BRMC, so yea went home to do hw.

But I dunnoe how to bloody do A Maths.

And I'm not in the mood to do BSF....

Talked to people on MSN.

Now I'm still here, wondering what I should do. Not in the mood to do anything, but then again I want to achieve something today...can't go to sleep without achieving even a slight thing, like having a good conversation with somebody...

Still dunnoe how to bloody do A Maths.

Feeling tired, homesick, don't feel like going to school tomorrow.

Matt Lin says I hafta do parade commanding tomorrow. Issit the 30th Jan tomorrow? I've lost track of time...

Listening to Japanese songs...

Feel like reading the same volume of slam dunk again...

Sometimes I wish I could be a character from some manga...

Feel like I'm missing out on something...

And this was Rambling 101

2007-01-24T06:07:00.000-08:00

It's just like that. One incident and they're gone. Can't really understand what's happening between Chia and Barney.....they've been friends for so long....just one incident and poof, there goes their friendship. Well, hope things get sorted out, but it seems like nobody's making an effort to do so...

Well think we've lost a chalet buddy.

Anyway, today was quite alright. Less work. Could at least concentrate. But I almost fell alseep in Alex Lee's class, and I almost got caught too, but yea...dunnoe what he would do if I were caught sleeping in his class...oh well. Got quite a number of tests tomorrow. A Maths and History(I think). Argh, for A Maths I have to study the alpha beta formulae thinggy. Ahhhh, and for history, I think I'm gonna fail. Haven't done SBQs and SEQs for a long time...argh gotta revise lotsa stuff. Noo...

After school, went to do some walking. Wait let me rephrase, a lot of walking. Yea went to look for some checkpoints and stuff, for AQ, forgot what that process was called...anyway yea, we walked to Chancery Lane, Novena, Novena Park, Chancery Lane, and then yea, for me, it was back to school. Cause I had to go home for tuition. The rest had to go and look for more checkpoints. Oh shit, wait good thing AQ members don't read my blog...anyway, the checkpoints aren't finalised yet, so these might not be the checkpoints. I was just following them around.

So came back, tuition, then tuition again. Met KKP at blk 159. Haha he's my neighbour! Yay, we can have party liao, with Zach and people. Yea chatted with him for a while, then went for chinese tuition.

So, I'm back now. Don't understand the formulaes and stuff.

Just found out I'm addicted to something else. SLAM DUNK COMICS! Omg, it's damn cool. The storyline, the drama, the jokes, the games...aiya everything lah. Damien's gonna lend me the next two volunmes tomorrow...ahh can't wait...but proceedting to tomorrow also means proceeding to the tests...nooo.....

Oh well, at least the shadow proves the sunshine.

2007-01-23T04:53:00.000-08:00

Alright. I've finally got over my Mocha addiction, but shit, now I'm addicted to green tea. Well, it's better than coffee :)

Anyway, school was kinda alright today. Could at least concentrate abit, though I was very sleepy...and I think Mak(E Maths teacher) is starting to get better. Chem prac was also quite fun, though scary. That thing cost like 50 bucks, and it's super fragile somemore...scary...after school, went to LHF's classroom to try to finish my hw that I was suppose to pass up, but I couldn't concentrate, this time because I had too much energy -.-. Wanted to go home and do it during tuition, but then Terence couldn't make it, so in the end went Admin room. Guess what? I actually was able to do it, but not finished, cause got some problems. Haha today, I finally lost to Xavier in chinese chess...haha and Nicklaus is damn pro also lor...and Matthew was behaving like an idiot(wait, isn't he already one? =p)...yea, and Nicklaus was trying to do this 7 mark A Maths question for me. Haha he spent like one hour trying to solve it....and during that period you would hear him scolding the question, the paper, the school which set the question, thrashing the pillows at the paper...and oh yah, the school had his name in it too, CHIJ St Nicholas...haha. Well atfer that, went home with Xavier. Gosh, must really thank his mum for fetching, cause if I had taken bus I would be caught in somewhat in between rain and drizzle. And yea, just ate dinner, now I'm posting.

Yay. Nick has sorted out his PND tunes for his team, and so has Ivan! Guess what? I'm in Ivan's team and the tunes are gonna be fudging hard! Yay! We're all gonna die! Those who wanna live, you can join Nicklaus, those who feel this world is coming to an end, come with me :). Ok enough with that. But really, only heard that the tunes were hard. As in the pipe tunes, dunnoe about how the drum score's gonna be like. Hope Simon can help me compose before he leaves for his overseas thing...ahhh well haven't heard the tunes yet, but it's a good thing that I know some of the tunes, like Rocking the Baby, Epic, Aspen Bank(yah like you'll know what they are). Well, Nicklaus can't play some of the tunes that Ivan chose, and if Nicklaus can't play them, it means the tunes must be really hard. So, oh well gotta start practicing early.

For some reason, I don't feel like going to school, maybe because most of my teachers are getting weirder. Gosh for some other weird reason, I miss my Sec 2 teachers. Wanna be taught by them again. Still miss my sec 2 class too, wish I could repeat last year with the same classmates...

HAHA WHAT THE HELL NICKLAUS JUST TOLD ME THAT HE HAS SOLVED THE QUESTION CORRECTLY!

Sorry for that random note, just found it very Nicklaus-ish. Haha now he wants me to go to school earlier tomorrow cause he wants to solve it properly(he doesn't have the question paper...), and now he's telling he has to remain mad if he wants to do A Maths. See, A maths teachers! See this? People are going mad cause of A Maths! Haha ok nvm...

Anyway now, gonna slack. Thx to Damien for lending me his Slam Dunk comics btw, keeps me occupied. Wait, I still got like 2-3 more questions for that A Maths worksheet. So yea, off I go...again...sian..wish night could last forever...

2007-01-22T06:36:00.000-08:00

Past two days were quite crappy...

Sunday morning. Was late for church. Didn't sing in the choir. Waited in choir room instead. Edmund was 'doing his rounds', as in he was going around to every secondary class that there's kayaking, but yea he went to early, none of the classes started...haha...Anyway, in sunday school, we split up into groups and did this news report on the part about Moses and the Israelites. Yea, as usual, Ben's one was the whackiest. Haha. Dunnoe how he does it. After that, hanged around in the usual corner of YI. Talked lots of stuff. Guess what, I was actually allowed to go to BRMC. So yea after that, I went there. Studied, played chinese chess with Xavier(haha), talked cock with people there. Yea, after that, Yixian, Xav, Prash, Ben and I went to cafe. Met Kenneth, Eunice and some other person there, so we ended up chatting too. Actually just them. I was basically enjoying ice-cream :). After that, we went to Orchard to look for Prash's bag. As in shop for it. Yea went to Heeren's and Cineleisure. Prash eventually got a bag, and so we went back for games. Played soccer. Gosh I gotta brush up on my goalkeeping skills. Wait what skills haha...wait I'm suaning myself. Yea, left way early cause I had to go back home early to do stuff and so on. Yea and that's about it for Sunday.

Today. Was not that bad also lah..except classes were quite boring. Also felt sleepy throughout the lessons. Couldn't concentrate at all. Felt like I didn't learn anything today. Oh well...Anyway after school, slacked in Admin room, watched Matthew Ong lose to Xavier in chinese chess twice, listened to music, listened to Nicklaus call everyone assholes cause nobody wanted to play chinese chess with him(haha he's too damn pro lor), yea we had a bag search to end of the school day. Haha Xavier started playing on his guitar and started to sing songs about how Bryant sucks and so on, so Bryant took Xavier's bag and put it somewhere outside. But, he forgot his bag was in Admin room, so Xavier took his bag and hid it too. Haha, quite stupid eh? Anyway, yea, the bags were found, and then Matt Lin, Xav and I went back home, oh yea with Dennis Loy.

After came home, did some com stuff, tried to figure out what hw I have(ahh still can't remember, and I dunnoe how to do A Maths). About 30 mins later, I had to go for BSF. And so I did. Yea. Got a new class this year. Senior class. Quite boring leh, all the people quite anti-social...and the only person I knew there wasn't there, and all my other friend's also other classes. Haha. So oh well, first lesson only. Kinda what I expected. Hope next week will be better. Well, I said hope, didn't I?

Oh cool. I just realised my Switchfoot song is working. That person put back the link. Yay! So yea, hope you all enjoy. Noticed I said hope again...

Now, I gotta do work, but the thing is that I dunnoe how to do. Especially A Maths. Gotta ask my tutor, or if possible school friends. Think church friends(like Edmund and Tessa) can help too. They're damn smart too lor.

Anyway, yea shouldn't even be blogging. Off I go.

2007-01-20T07:13:00.000-08:00

Didn't feel like blogging for the past few days.

Well, guess who's back.

Well me duh.

School's been alright. Had fun and stuff, especially Friday, during SEL period. Was damn crazy. And funny. Haha 'respect'. Whatever...After school on friday, quickly rushed back home, with Matt, KKP and JD(gays). Went to bathe, sort out worship stuff, then went back to school. Wait, before that I went to join cell people for dinner at Newton. Talked crazy stuff. Oo and Becky and Choey knows Cara Chiang. Haha, bet my cousin's gonna ask me to be his informer =p. Anyway, cell was fun and crazy as usual, and I learnt quite abit of new and interesting stuff regarding science and christianity...hmm well no one knows for sure unless they have experienced it. Just some random thought. After that, went Caltex for supper. Xavier had to go off before me cause he realised his mum wasn't fetching him. Yea so I went back with Damien and...wait haha I forgot the name. Yah and someone else lah. Drove me home, even though they stayed at Upper Thomson road. So kind. :)

I didn't go for band and parade today, cause I had to sort out YI worship stuff(yea I was leading). Some last minute stuff cropped up. Eugene(my worship mentor) couldn't make it(but in the end he could). So had to call someone else to bring laptop and play guitar. Called up Winston. And yea he said he could. Had to do PPT slides also. Haha didn't know how to use, just put some funny slide designs and yea...well, as I said, in the end Eugene could make it, so Winston didn't need to play(now I feel paiseh for making him carry his guitar). But then again, Eugene's guitar couldn't work with the amp, so yea we used Winston guitar. So yea, thanks Winton!(Don't think he even reads blogs) Worship for YI went well. Though I feel bad cause I didn't apply what Mr Lawrence Khoo taught me...(my hobbies badge has gone to waste). After that, we had this programme called 'In Retrospect', where everyone had a piece of paper pasted on their back, and everyone had to go around writing the strengths and weaknesses of the person on thier back. After that whole thing was done, we broke up into random groups for discussion. Yea we ended off with prayer, then went to hawker centre for dinner. Went straight home after that.

Btw, YI would be going kayaking next week. Those who wanna go, see Edmund or Kenneth. :)

Was playing Eudemons Online just now. Suppose to do A Maths now, but I can't bloody concentrate. I wanna go to BRMC tomorrow, but mum doesn't allow me...oh well. Since I didn't want to play Eudemon, and I can't concentrate on my hw, I resorted to blogging. So yea. That was 10 mins ago. I always take so long post. I think my typing's too slow. Or issit that I just have too much stuff to talk about. Dunnoe.

Well gotta sleep now.

ZzZzzzzZzzz

2007-01-15T05:44:00.000-08:00

Today was another usual day, gay around with Shing as usual, talk cock with old friends from 2b2...haha...felt sleepy throughout the day, cause I didn't get enough sleep the day before. Yea slept in geog class, and got scolded haha....tried not to sleep in Samuel Eio's class cause I know I'll be like sent for DC or something...I think after geog lesson I felt abit more awake.

Gosh I think this year's teacher's are quite lousy...only got some good teachers. The rest are all like dunnoe what lor...I need my bro to help me ahh...haha I have a good reason for doing e-learning...

Anyway, after school, slacked in admin room. Watched Tokyo Drift. Quite a nice movie. The drifts are damn sexy lah...but I think the storyline was a bit ununderstandable(hey HEY new word!). Maybe because I only watched from the middle onwards...haha...anyway after that, played chinese chess, or rather watched people play chinese chess. After that, went back with Xavier and Matt Lin.

Went home, went to bathe, then immediately tuition. Haha DJ was telling me about how queer and sucky tuition was, like 'some atmosphere of a freak show'. Haha...oh no I'm saying too many hahas now...ahh I don't wanna cultivate a habit of this.....haha this reminds me. Bacteria:The only culture most people have. That quote's from a badge that I have. Kevin calls it a scientist joke. Oh whoops sorry about the randomness.

Chia's been angry lately. Somebody let out his secret...and sent it to like almost everyone...gosh he's damn angry at that person now, and also the whole group of people...man, things are screwing up between my friends now...don't really know what happening...well at least Shing and Jonnie are clear of this mess. And Jonnie's hair is still damn long lor...like what the fudge long lah...and what's worse is that nobody has caught him! Amazing ain't it! It's like so bloody obvious but nobody has noticed. Haha.

Oh yah I feel damn bad, cause I didn't follow Nico to Serene Center, he had nobody to study with. So paiseh now. Anyway, I hafta remind myself, gotta return the NUS book to Marlin on wednesday, k wednesday...must remember.

Well, so far, certain relationships have been strained, while others have been forged. Dunnoe what comes my way tomorrow.

2007-01-14T06:54:00.000-08:00

Last few days were ok I guess, except today, cause I screwed up almost everything I did today...

Fusion on friday was great! Didn't know there was a band called Youth Alive. Gosh I really their drummer, damn cool man, he and his gut-busting drumming...but then I've haven't heard any song that was orginally composed by them...hmm but still it was great.

Saturday. Morning, band. Was late by like i think 10 mins...but anyway Nicklaus couldn't make it, he put Damien in charge, and I already told his that I'll be late a day before. Haha, I don't need any psychic, I can predict my own future! Mwahaha...(errr ok sorry for that). After band, quickly rushed to WaffleTown to eat again, then quickly went back for worship practice. I think Xavier's the best worship leader we have.....though we can't keep relying on him...Worship went well, Mr Chew thought it was one of the bext worships so far, though we didn't plan for it be(harhar). After that, we played double wacko! So cool. Was funny man..everybody was switching names about..."Hi. I am Superman." What the falalala.... haha. Well after that I had to leave for YI. Talked to Mr Lai and Mr Chew about this issue of me having church on Saturdays. But well, they I can brush up on my badgework during camps and stuff. And also this gives me a chance of some leadership, cause I'll have to mentor a drummer for worship and so on(well dunnoe how I'm suppose to do it). Anyway, went fro YI. Felt Winston's workshop was good. Woke up my idea about studying. Why study? Well because we're made in the image of God. And also lots more reasons...after that, went for Fusion again. Youth Alive played better this time. Eugene and Kenneth went too, but they only went for a while..because of sunday school..oh well.

Today was a sucky day man. My whole morning was screwed up...thought we were already out of choir or something like that. Wah lau was damn pissed lor. Made plans to go see YJ off, then go to brmc for study(haha what study) and games, but then suddenly we were asked to go for choir..wah lau, we were told the week before that we were out of choir, then suddenly we're back in it....all my plans for this morning ruined lor, then somemore say we were 'escaping' from choir...well Josh and I did go for choir anyway, then in the end couldn't join Edmund and gang to send YJ off, and also couldn't join them for. Well, in the end, joined Kev and family, Noelle and Agnes at Bukit Timah Plaza for lunch and some shopping...yea went around looking for Noelle's CD, some food and yea that's about it. Kevin was up to his hideous behaviour whenever I was anywhere close to Noelle, dunnoe what's his problem...anyway yea, after that joined Noelle and Agnes to look for their younger brother's medicine..but couldn't find, then went off to our various bus stops(huh that sounds weird). I managed to go to school. Well Xavier and people went to play pool somewhere, so I slept in school. Yea then played some soccer, on wet grounds, with bird shit and stuff, and then I had to play barefooted cause I didn't wanna spoil my shoes...haha..and Xavier went off without me, guess there was no space in the car. Took bus in the end, and guess what, I woke up in some parking lot in the terminal...-.-". well went home, got scolded cause I reached home late...and alot of other stuff happened.

Anyway, now slacking, still can't sleep, and I keep forgeting my clock's 10 mins slower....

Gosh, alot of people have been sad lately..Joween's quite mad that she can't go for Drama or whatsoever, Prash is quite stressed up, Chia's furious then one of his closest friends spreaded his secret, Jess is sad that some unforeseen matters occured, Nicklaus is unhappy cause of the rain, which is giving him this flu, I'm quite sad that now I hafta skipped half my parade to go for YI, Xavier has been quite sian for the past few days(don't know why), Traci's quite unhappy about certain people in her school...oh well. I kinda agree with Trace, the world's coming to an end...ahh...as in seriously...

For some reason I'm quite an optimistic person, even when I'm pushed with all the funny sai kang and work, but then I start to feel emotions stirring whenever I hear that someone else is having a serious problem...it's like I don't care for myself but for others, but then again I find that I'm quite selfish. I'm a stingy person, I admit that. I'm self-centered.

Read my bro's blog about the boxes thinggy. Haha, reminded me about my young days, sitting in those boxes, imagining a world of my own.

Well, now I always wish that I was in someone else's world...starting to think that Nick Lai's blog title is starting to make sense, "Welcome to this deranged world. Enjoy your stay." Yea seems this world is starting to screw up...even me.

Well I won't blog about this cause I suck at blogging about sad and emotional stuff(haha I actually realised. Amazing!). Well gotta stick to being joyful. School's starting again tomorrow. God knows what's gonna happen.

2007-01-11T05:21:00.000-08:00

"If I could find you now..."

School today was quite alright. Had fun, slacked for the first half of the day, except for PE. PE rocked man, man I miss Faizal's lessons, actually not really lesson, it was PT. For the upcoming napfa. (Haha luckily still not doing pull-ups this year). Did a total of 100 push ups and 100 crunches, and guess what, Faizal made it look like it was 20. Though you could feel the strains in your arms and abs, it was quite pleasant to get back into that momentum. Haven't any PT for a really long time now...after PE I was quite tired. Couldn't really concentrate doing class, until recess time. Was revitalised with good food and drink. After that lessons were quite better. I enjoyed OralComm, well I always enjoy oralcomm.

"Things would get better..."

After school had worship practice. Well it only start at lik 4, cause Xavier had to go for some remedial, and more importantly, Wei Wen had to go buy his guitar strings..haha (he took damn long leh). And what's worsem no wesley hall, so I kinda like beatboxed the rythm(what the fudge!). But other than that, also sang, got to know the songs better, played guitar. Have a feeling that worship's gonna be great this saturday.

"We could leave this town..."

Looking forward to some great stuff tomorrow. There's Fusion tomorrow, and also *drum rool* BB Day! But what the heck, I hafta wear full u throughout the whole day of school(I'm gonna look damn weird!) Hmm anyway the band isn't playing. Kinda weird.

"And run forever..."

Right now I gotta try to let go of some addictions. Don't know why, but I'm suddenly addicted to coffee. Keep drinking it every recess. Other than that, I gotta polish my full u later, gotta finish up some a maths homework...yea...and oh no, I only have about one hour left to polish!

"Let your waves crash down..."

Feeling all emo again, someone I know just had a sudden breakup...and guess now I understand how my brother feels like with a room mate who had a recent breakup...gosh I find it quite hard to understand these things. I always try to encourage people, but always fail. Sometimes even making them feel worse, and I'll feel all paiseh and stuff, and then feel like killing myself for saying the wrong shit....don't know, all kinda of emotions coming to me now, spinning in my head, don't even feel like polishing my full u, don't even feel like going to school tomorrow. Just wanna get scolded. Feel my old self coming in...it feels like shit...but then again, guess what pains there for...well,

"and take me away"

..gotta proceed with life.

2007-01-10T04:41:00.000-08:00

OH NO THE FIRST DAY OF THE END OF THE WORLD. MY SWITCHFOOT SONG DOESN'T WORK. Die...err ok...yea Choo can't fix the problem...nooo. Anyway, came home quite late today...And yea I think that's all, oh wait yea did some worship practice with Xavier, I think the songs are quite well chosen...so cool..haha and guess where the songs came from...haha kidding lah. Gotta do A Maths homework now...just realised I have 3 worsheets to complete, actually 2 and a half..wait count that as 2..oh ok whatever. Good thing I did my introduction to a compo hw just now.

Yay, I think I concentrate better at KAP or Serene Center. I can't concentrate at home lor, all the distractions are right in front of me. What's even better is that if I have any problems I can like ask my friends or something(since now my bro is gone, to UK that is, not anywhere else...).

I have to look forward tomorrow. PE lesson. Wonder what Mr Faizal's gonna do. Haha what the hell, he calls me the leg breaker lor, haha.....another thing to look forward to is worship practice! But then, wesley hall wasn't booked, so no drums, ha I still can sing and play guitar! Yay...anyway ever since Mr Lawrence Khoo was gone, it's been hard to book the wesley hall, dunnoe what Mr Kwan is doing, either he doesn't care or it just can't be booked.

Friday. Fusion! Another good thing to look forward to! My first time going to Fusion, haha...oh and FOP this August...ahh so long I can't wait...

And now the rambling starts.

I really love walking down Dunearn road at night, with no lights, just me and myself, and the cars passing by, my earphones on, playing emo songs, like Snow Patrol, The Calling, Goo Goo Dolls, Switchfoot, well there's alot to say. But I still can't explain this feeling, this peace, if that's what it is. It's like walking down aimlessly, wandering, down the streets, with nothing to do, nothing to lose, nothing to worry about. I really enjoy it. But still, I prefer cooler countries, like NZ or something. Enjoyable weather.

Oh yea talking about NZ, I found the pics, gonna try posting them. Maybe just some.
Haha this is us. And Aunty Ni and Johnson(on the left). My dad was the one taking the photo. Haha.
Some funny random pic. I think this guy was some mayor of Auckland.
Haha, I got stuck in the boot! Err no! Haha another random pic.
Hey cool I have a twin! (Huh)
Well just eating our prawns as fresh as possible...
Went to vist the Auckland Museum. These were the people from the Maori Showcase thing.
Johnson and I in those cool hats....err yea haha I look damn funny..

My bro needs cash....

Anyway, these are only some of the pics, can't post all because, well duh...

Almost finished with my A maths. Just a few more to go. Chiong arh!

2007-01-09T06:38:00.000-08:00

Yay, new skin. I wanted to use another skin though, but it didn't work. Well this one is the closest I can get. I still prefer the other one though, it's alot better. Anyway, credits to Choo again for the music. Thx! Still, continue to give feedback on the new skin...yea I know it's kinda plain...

Past few days of school were quite ok. Lessons have started. Well only a beginning of Sec 3...don't know what's gonna come up next...

My bro just left fo UK again. Didn't go see him off though, cuase of my A Maths, E maths and English homework. Sad...well my parents are probably on their way back now from the airport...and also a reminder to myself, I hafta give stuff to his students...oh well.

Gonna be a short post for this one.

Will work on my blog once I have the time.

2007-01-07T06:24:00.000-08:00

This blog might be going under construction soon. Planning to change skin and music player. Gotta ask B.Choo for help, hehe.

"Some people are just born great. Others have greatness thrust upon them..." A matter of how you use it and how you respond to it, as my bro says...Watched a movie today. Very good movie, haven't seen any like for quite a while now...Night At The Museum...haha really liked the ending...so cool, imagine you like 'own' a museum which is like some club, and it's not clubbing with punks or posers, it's clubbing with historic people lor, of all sizes some more. And a Rex that behaves like a dog, so cool....haha and the roman empire slowly changing to some wild west district, so cool....wish I could be like him....oh well, I suppose this is when the sandman steps in...haha...And also, bought a new graphic novel, nothing new to me...Halo. Gonna find out soon whether it was worth that price.

The weekend has been great. Friday's cell was super fun, but the lesson was quite short. Oh well, short and sweet :). And Prash got really jacked man....hmmm fishy stuff going on, well guess it's part of growing up...:p And we've also finished the book about "The Life You Always Wanted". A good book. Useful points and lessons.

Yea, and before that we had the CCA open house. We(BB) did quite ok, as in I felt the showcase was good, and the band, hmm ok too. Still, not many signed up(compared to last year). Oh well, it's only on paper, must always leave room for inaccuracy...haha guess what co got like 60 people...oh well, still, only on paper....And yea, suppose to meet Nic Lai for a movie, but both of us weren't free, you know why? Because we both had open house...haha...

Saturday, which was yesterday, was quite a fun day...first thing, band in the morning. Simon didn't come, had to attend to other stuff. Luckily Raymond came, so yea, Choo, him and I were like leading and stuff. And Darren kept bugging me to teach this score...haha....super funny...After band, Matt and I quickly rushed to waffletown to have a quick lunch, and yea almost everyone joined us...reason why lunch had to be quick?(Wait that sounds weird) Cause of worship, wait lemme rephrase, LAST MINUTE worship practice. Guess what? Xavier was sick! So yay, we screwed up badly for the second song, but the others were so so lah....and I just realised how good Matt is at bass...cool....Anyway, left early from BB cause had to go to YI! Played for worship with my bro and YiJie! So cool. Haha, Tim's favourite hits...lol...after that, amazing race! Wait, MINI amazing race haha. Was fun, and Hannah's language is so hideous....after that, helped in the bulletin stuff, then dinner at Han's! Was fun. Hannah admitted she had sons! Crazy..haha...

Today, church was kinda ok, the last time we(sec 3s) are singing in choir....cause of sunday school, as I have said before. Oh well...so after service immediately left with the yi people to watch the movie, and I also got that book along the way at Kinokuniya.

Just had dinner with my whole family. Josiah has grown alot man...and guess what, the epic of Josiah meets Josiah! Haha, we met another Josiah at TM, another baby, haha...

Feeling quite emo now, since school's starting again tomorrow...I think I've found the reason why I've been feeling all lonely and stuff. I've realised I've been just putting up an act. I'm not behaving like my true self, just living a lie. It's not like how I behave with 2b2 classmates or church or BB friends....guess it's the shy thing that's why...well guess we gonna open up, show our true selves? Hmm...sounds funny haha...

My bro's gonna leave soon, so sad....and I feel bad about somethings I did today....well, I shouldn't be feeling all sad and emo...should always be positive :). Well, like how I do with Shing and people...(and Jonnie finally cut his hair) or with church friends. Stay happy and so on...and I still can't believe I'm sec 3 now...gonna start behaving like one...

This post was kinda like rambling of some sort.....

"Some people are born great. Others have greatness thrust upon them."

2007-01-04T05:02:00.000-08:00

Today rocked. Was enjoyable. Not say the class...but yea I think now everybody being less anti-social. And there was one damn funny scene. This teacher who was suppose to like guide us in 'business' in a carnival, like in a game or food stall or whatever, ended his briefing with 'Alright if y'all have no questions to ask me, then go ahead and make some noise!" And the whole class stayed silent for 4 seconds. Then everybody started laughing. Haha, quite reminded me of last year's class....yea 2b2 had its usual reunion during recess. And Nico still pushes me all over. Haha. Still remember he got sent for 2 days DC cause he pulled me off a table. Haha. Still he hasn't learnt his lesson. He pulled my leg and I fell down. Still funny as usual! Haha....And still remember the 'catchpharase'....Michael's Gay! And I'm full of shit! Haha Jeremy created it.....he would tell me, you're full of shit, then I'll reply with, Michael's Gay! Haha...and Gomez...still as crazy as usual...I seriously miss 2B2, well...guess we hafta move on....and now Chia has joined Shing in calling me an eternal gay...well I can understand Chia, it's ok, it's only another special person(oh no now I'm screwed haha).....

Samuel Eio's my form teacher. 100% confirm he's gonna bug me to play for CO again....gosh three CCas want me leh.....gotta play for BB, then Military Band wants me for my drum(luckily Lynnette Loh's not my A Math teacher haha...) and CO wants me for my dizi...they just need the numbers....oh well...oh yea, and they all clash...as in timing...hafta play for BB cause it's my first CCA(wait it IS my CCA)...dunnoe leh....

Hmm after school had band practice for tomorrow's Recruitment performance. Yay everything has been settled, hope nothing goes wrong tomorrow. After that had worship practice. Haha Jon Choy didn't book any place so there were no drums or sound system(except our Admin room's one, which really sucks). Well, played abit of guitar. And gosh KaiBin really has to sort out the stuff....and Theophilus is damn pro at guitar!!!!! Gosh, he should be our worship guitar 'insructor' haha..oh well, he's in NP liao....well I suppose he can maybe come over once in a while to like help us or something.

Well, tomorrow, CCA recruitment and cell, and maybe tennis(yay). Hope everything goes well...

4 down, 361 more to go.

2007-01-03T02:51:00.000-08:00

Haven't posted for a really realy long time. Internet wasn't working. Stupid seismic activity in Taiwan R.O.C. Ahh couldn't do much without internet, except maybe play Halo 2 or HEROES 5! A very, very, and I emphasise the very, good game. Oh no seems like I'm addicted! Ahh....

Anyway, didn't go to Chia's house in the end, with Shing, cause I have a really strong feeling that Chia is spending lots of time with a SPECIAL SOMEONE...haha bought for those two badges from NZ too...quite funny...

The band had it's retreat on Friday. So cool man. Had abit of practice first, then had some briefing about next year, then soccer. Didn't really go play much though, didn't feel like perspiring...anyway after that, BBQ! Yay! Haha, Darren was nuts lah, coated the sausages with so much margarine, crazy lor...but it tasted real good anyway!(ahh sinful!). Anyway, at the same time, the BRMC had their Afterglow.....Ben Tay and Joshua can running down, asking us for sausages...haha....anyway after BBQ, *drum roll* sai kang! I had to wash and rinse and clean the grills and skewers...haha just a little taste of genuine sai kang....haha...after that, clean up, prepared for the performance the next day...

Gosh, the performance was kinda sucky, and kinda funny too, like what Mr Josh Ang said, "Woa quite stupid leh, we go and play for like a few minutes, then after that sit down and watch this ship for an hour coming in into the harbour". Yea I wouldn't say we screwed up the performance, but I wouldn't say we did our best either, as in, personally for me...after that, went to JonK's house for dinner. Had a buffet! Haha, and Hannah has a toilet fetish....gross, wrong toilet somemore....aiyo Hannah, but anyway, about her, she's quite pissed that Straits Times ut words into her mouth....put tings she didn't say...gosh what a mess man, and I also dunnoe what I can do to help....anyway, got a chance to explore JonK's and Josh's room, gosh another rich family...haha whoops....

Sunday. Church. Guess what? We're out of the choir. The Sec 2s. You know why? Cause of sunday school. Oh well, anyway on days we don't have sunday school we can go sing! Hurray...After that, followed Ed and Gab to Carrefour at Suntec. Bought groceries for the Youth Task Force Retreat. After that we all met up, then went to the chalet! Woa quite an expensive chalet...anyway, we played the LOTR board game. Kinda fun, interesting, but complicated. Haha we all died in the end, on the same scenario, same turn. Haha..after that, I went home, had dinner and that's it.

Monday. Bro's BDay! Haha. We had dinner at Downtown East, in some thai restaurant. Good food. Had dinner with my two bros and mum. Dad was quite sick during that time. Anyway, after that, went to visit the chalet again. Haha they finished the BBQ before we arrived...oh well. YJ was there anyway yay haha...

The next day. Played com in the morning. Heroes 5(as usual) and EudemonOnline. Nice game, cousin introduced me to it. Anyway, after that, went to visit dog farm with my older bro! With his friend. And I got to see my bro's husky! So cute, but my bro says it was a dying dog, got some lung infection or something, so therefore it's growth was stunted, but now it's healthy. Still a pup, at 5 months. Red fur with blue eyes. Gosh handsome sia...haha...oh yah and the mini jack russell, one super hyper dog man, kept licking me all over when it first saw me. And it was sticking to me all the time lor...when sleeping the car it would on my lap, while the husky(dunnoe how to spell his name) took the other side. Haha, so cute...oh well...gonna learn how to take care of dogs with my bro first, then can keep my own. Maybe I'll get a husky too, maybe when my bro's one breeds, then I'll cope one f them...haha....

Well, today, first day of school....my class...well I dunnoe what's gonna happen...all the funny people...nobody I truly know is in my class...gosh why did I do so well last year, wasn't even planning to do well....I wanna go 3B1....oh well, gonna find a place to fit in. Oh and another thing...long pants...I feel really funny in long pants....I mean...they're long...I miss shorts...And Becky whines....haha....man, Prash must have really suffered when we weren't there(at serene centre)...anyway had band practice before that...for this friday's cca recruitment...and it's kinda screwed up...oh well...and still....Sec 3, whatever childish behaviour, gotta leave it behind with the shorts...

And so it has started......(for the 15th time)

2006-12-23T07:01:00.000-08:00

YAY. GUESS WHAT? I'M BACK! From NZ of course.

Was really good man. Met great people like, Aunty Ni, Aunty Devina and (haha) Johnson. Haha"But kids don't get white hair, thought only old people do...wait, what if he's not a kid?!" Just happened that Aunty Ni is my aunt's(who lives in Sydney) good friend, so yea stayed in her house for the vacation. Just went around travelling, to places like Hamilton, Rotorua and Taupo. Saw some really cool caves, Wai-O-Tapu(meaning 'Sacred Waters'), PRAWN FISHING, and yea some other stuff. Also wanted to ride the Luge, but oh well they closed before we could reach there. Also did lotsa shopping there. Bought some funny shirts...haha some of them quite crude also...uh oh. Haha, and Johnson, really funny guy. He's one year younger than me, and he already has more ideas on how to change the world into some really crazy dreamland. Haha. He's kinda random too, thinks too much...oh well, hope I get to meet him again.

Oh btw, something funny happened. My dad drove our hired hatchback car to a beach and guess what? We got stucked in the sand, haha...cause we misunderstood "FOUR WHEEL DRVIE". Oh well, luckily there were people to help us there. Gosh New Zealanders are really nice people, wish we Singaporeans could be like them...being polite and thoughtful and stuff, instead of being fussy and everything......It was also suppose to be summer in NZ, but the weather's quite freaky there, almost went below 10 degrees celsius...scary, but lovin it. I love cold weather :).

Well, now I'm back(man I always hafta say this) home and posting, unpacking, worrying about tomorrow cause I didnt practice for choir(yay..) and now my bro's out partying at his friend's house...dad's asking me to bthe right now. Guess I should. Alot of stuff happened at NZ, just too tired to post about it....oh yah...SGB....opppsss...and yea, Bin Soon called me while I was in NZ telling me about *drum roll* another big performance on 30th -.-. Oh well, it's gonna be big, playing for this Swedish Ship that's stopping by in Singapore. Kinda excited about it, just that I dunnoe what I'm gonna play, who's playing and what's the programme gonna be like....oh well.

Getting quite late now...

"Hey, c'mon, Christmas is about the spirit of giving, ain't it?"

2006-12-13T09:35:00.000-08:00

Alrighty people. Posting again.

Hmm...Monday was spent playing Pirate Kings....lvled up 4 lvls haha....and yea, that's about all, just slacking at home.

Tuesday. LAST MINUTE PERFORMANCE. (Oh No, Mr.Ong don't kill me for saying this). Hmm yea it was last minute cause we were only informed on Saturday. So that means we didn't practice at all for the occasion. Bin Soon had a worse situation. Just when he arrived back in Singapore on Monday at 9, he went back home, sat on his sofa and went 'Ahh, finally can rest' and guess what? Phone call from Nick, 'TOMORROW GOT BAND PERFORMANCE. FULL UNIFORM.' Haha...Bin Soon was polishing until like 1 am....Well, the band had to go play at MOE for some SGB thing...Who went there? Erm, Mr.Ong, Ivan, Nicklaus, Bin Soon, Choo and Me. Yea, I went to school on tuesday at 10.50 to polish up and stuff...talked cock with the others...haha when we talk cock, we can really do it man....especially with Choo around....haha what girlfriend...anyway, performance went well. Not say spectacular, but well. And I really need to brush up on my flams, rolls, drags, ruffs, strokes...k nvm. Well, after performance, just slacked around in admin room...watched the performance(which was recorded on Bin Soon's camera) on the admin com, discussed what tunes to play for next years PND(Oo I'm starting to get excited over it), yea and that's about it. Mr.Ong and Ivan had to go for another performance after that, a Merlion Pipe Band performance at St.Andrews Cathedral, Nick and Choo went for barbeque, Bin Soon and I satyed to vacuum up admin room(haha clean 24/7)...yea that went to cold storage to buy drink and went...yes that's about it for tuesday.

Well, today, played com...aiyah...nothing special...that is, UNTIL MY BRO CAME BACK! Haha, he arrived today from London at 7.30(flight was delayed lor), yea and Nick Lai was there too. Well, after that had dinner at Crystal Jade. Haha Nick was really worried cause he had no money..but well my parents paid for him...and oh yah, he also passed me my christmas present. Haha thx Nick! Well now I'm back home, no actually I was back home a long time ago, just slacked at home(as I always do)...yea.

Tomorrow I'm gonna go New Zealand. Don't feel like going overseas leh...just wanna stay home and slack....oh well....hmm ever since I started playing the simulation racing game on Xbox, I've been thinking about cars....everytime a car passes by me, I must always scrutinize it....haha dunnoe why...but I think the Mitsubitshi Lancer EVO is damn cool....anyway yea...why am I saying so many yeas?

Planning to go to Chia's place again after christmas, with Shing this time. Currently looking for people to join us....

Also thinking of buying a iPod Nano....should I?

Anyway yea, I've got nothing much to say....

2006-12-10T06:03:00.000-08:00

Alright, now I'm feeling all hyped up, maybe because I'm listening to 'jumping songs' now. Gosh, so much energy...must have been the milo....anyway, This week was GREAT! Btw This is my third attempt typing a post, but the other two failed...maybe because I was trying to post pics...gosh lah what the fudge I think Blogger doesn't like my face... :'(..

Alright, my days after the camp were spent on the computer..playing Pirate King Online on PC and CS on Xbox...friday night, cell. Had cell party instead, to end of the wonderful year! Gosh, really funny....haha Damien asked the rest 'Has there not been one cell where we have not traded insults?!' and Daniel replied 'Yah, the ones that you didnt't come'. WHAT THE FUDGE MAN like omg can't stop laughing...anyway yea, played some games, reflected on this year's journey, and had hotdogs, yay! Oh yah the truth and dare was really funny...haha oh well whatever was done there must be kept there....sorry for not posting it harhar...........

Saturday. Band. Casual attire this time. And gosh, another last minute performance...wah lau...I'm the one who gets chosen first to perform lor...don't really feel like performing...sick of last minute performances....Well anyway after that had CAMP AFTERGLOW! YAY! Really hilarious I tell you...omg...'The Reunion and the Trial'...haha damn funny sia....well, since I'm too lazy, you'll have to come to me to find out what happened(I don't think you'll wanna know anyway). After that had pizza, provided by Kenneth(haha, pounded maize and baked beans...lol I'll never forget it)

Today was quite boring. Choir didn't need to sing, alot of people went overseas(like wtf matey). Gosh, sunday school was about the book of Job. Gosh was so bored I almost forgot that I had choir practice...until Gabriel reminded me haha...Well after that had lunch at the usual hawker, then went off roaming with Kevin and Gabriel..played lan...man there' s nothing much to play now..rather go to Chia's house...free somemore...

Anyway yea nowi'm back home(I mean where else could I be), sitting down, talking to Shing. Gosh, just a conversation with him brings back all the precious memories of 2b2. All the fun times, good times, sad times, wonderful times, not to mention the racist times..oh shit what did I just say...nvm you all didn't see anything...Gosh now I'm feeling all emo and stuff...the laughter..the times we had...haha has there been a time where none of us had traded insults...haha guess there was never...Really fun. Guess this was the best year ever, well I say that every year..maybe because we get new experiences every year..gosh..anyway...maybe I'll sign off now.

2006-12-08T00:42:00.000-08:00

Ready.......Get set............GO!

Just came back from church camp two days ago. Started on Sunday, right after church. Gosh, it was really really fun! Make that FUN! Gosh, so cool.

It was very well planned(they planned it for a year lor). The dragon boating, the christian walk, the everything else that I didn't mention(I will mention it later).

The theme was "By faith-Run Your Race". Theme verse, Hebrew Chapter 12:1. Really understood after the camp was this theme meant.

On the first day, we had icebreaker games! By Geraldine and Xiuli. Abit chaotic(the second part), where we had this piece of paper which had a few descriptions on it, in boxes, and all of us had to ask somebody else to sign over the description. First one to get five boxes in a row signed wins. Haha, none of us cared what description it was, we just signed anyhow...After that we had more games...like captain's ball and the usual stuff(always happens every year). We then had bath, then Dinner. Dinner was very special that night. Some of us sat at a table, the others sat on chairs surrounding the tables. The people sitting at the table got pizza, wings, pepsi etc...the others got baked beans with grounded maize(more of like flour and water)and we were liked forced to see them eat ther pizza while we only had that(I was one of them). Anyway, the baked beans were quite good. Didn't really mind actually, but after that I got really hungry. Worship was next, then theme talk by Pastor Yeo Lay Suan.Good pastor. Very dramatic, detailed. Easy to understand. Then we had group discussion. Oh yah, the ppl in my group:Hannah, Marlin(she only came on the second day!), Eugene, Ernest, Shi Ting, Michael(he left on third day) and me:). After discussion, did some other stuff. And lights out. The funniest. Marck, the troublemaker. He was bulldozing as in two meanings. Bulldozing as in bulldozing, and bull dozing. Geddit? Nevermind.

Second day. Woke up, then had exercise! We jogged from TA2 to Vivocity, then back. Then QT, breakfast, worship theme talk and discussion. Gosh we got scolded cause quite a number of us slept during the talk. After that dragon boating. Hey, it was special ok. River Wars, what the hell. Super funny sia! The 40 of us got divided to 4 boats. Everytime we passed by each other, WAR! Splashed water everywhere, with bailers and oars and whatever we had(even plastic bags...) After that, rowed out, did some fun and relaxing stuff(like looking at crabs and stuff). Haha, there was this guy who got angry with our boat's instructor. He was like shouting:"Hey, you stupid person, the river so big, why you row down here! People fishing you know!" But oh well, we didn't really give a damn. (There was only one fishing line....). Haha, when we rowed out, the instructor then told us, "Singapore so big, why you fish down here!" Haha. That guy scolding us could have gotten super jacked man. Anyway, after that, Mini Race! My boat came in third..haha. Had fun anyway. After that, bath, then OTOT(included dinner) until Worship time. Then the usual procedure. Worship, Theme Talk, Discussion. After that, treasure hunt! So cool, all of us had to look for the missing member of our group. Gabriel's group was damn funny. The thing they did was wander around the carpark, and guess was, they found they're missing group member already....LOL! Why is Dawn so good at hiding people.....Well it was quite challenging. Our group only had half strength, so we teamed up with Tim Chan's group. I remember there was this part where the clue's that were given to us were just a brush and a piece of paper. We all thought we had look for a painting, but guess what? It wasn't a painting. We were suppose to wet the piece of paper. Why? Wax stuff was written on it. Cool, right? Gosh, anyway, yep a few stations after that, we couldn't finish it, cause some other group took our stuff. So we had to answer this question, which was something about our missing group member. Yay, we found out Marlin's a coffee addict!. Hehe...After that, sleeping time. This time, Marck didn't cause too much trouble....haha....

Third day was the best! Had our last theme talk in the morning. The most meaningful one to me too. We then had other stuff, like games again(our group owned, I think), TALENT TIME, and CHRISTIAN WALK! Yay. Talent time, my group's one was the most obscene one. Harhar, and I think Tim Chan's and Gabriel's skits were the funniest one. Yoda and Vadar....haha..."You ask mother, I ask Father!" Lol...And Bejnamin, the dancing tree. After that, worship. I played the bongos. Damn cool man. :). After that, Christian Walk. Well, I was quite scared, cause well, the tekan and everything. But we were assured there was no tekaning, and well, there wasn't. It was more of a trust game. This was what it was about. there were four kinds of ppl, the christians, the church leaders, the spies and the policemen. The policemen were already chosen beforehand(Fanjun and Tim). The Gameplan:The christians were given verses each, and they had to put it in the underground church. However, only church leaders knew where the church was, and the christians had to follow them. However(again), the spies were pu in there to put mistrust in the people. the policemen had to just go around catching people. No violence though, just tapping the shoulders. Quite scary leh, like they suddenly come out of no where, then after that you seethehole flock of people running everywhere. Haha..was once I got cornered by FanJun, and oh well, didn't get caught, you know why? Cause I was crazy enough to jump over the "Wall", and I caused quite a mess in the end. FanJun and I cleaned it up, and I also got another chance! Oh well, just slacked around. Also forgot, I had to put the verse up...lol....and Jess was quite unlucky. She went to put the verse at the church, and got caught there. After she went out of the interrogation, she went back to put the church back to it's place, and she got caught, again. Well, at least she could keep on eating chips.....harhar. After the whole thing, we had debrief, and we learnt quite a few things, like some of us had 'fake verses', and the only way to get the real one was get caught and interrogated. We might get the correct verses. So cool. And we also learnt that there only two spies....and also the interrogators got confused between the spies and the church leaders...in the end Chng min(who was a spy) got caught and 'tekaned'(not really tekan, just some other stuff worse than the rest) Harhar, Dawn's fault again....:p After that, Free and Easy until as long as we want. Some of us just played cards first. Then after that Tim Chan started playing icebreaker games again. DAMN FUNNY SIA! The NIU NAI GAME! Super obscene lor. FanJun was like, "Eh after this don't spread this game around, play here, forget here." Hawhaw....hen duo nai....sick! Haha. Then we had other games like "Diu diu diu" (aiyah all the old icebreaker games). Was fun. We also had this game called Murderer. Quite lame, yet fun. Cracked our minds up. But Tim chan was shocked, he thought we were cheating or something, cause we were able to catch the murderers without putting any civilians to death by accident. And Benjamin was also super funny. He was like directly pointing everything to the murderers, yet nobody found out he was a detective...haha...well Ben's always crazy, even during the diu diu diu game...dancing around...lol....

The next morning, had some last discussions, then sai kang! Harhar joking la, just clean up. Had some last announcement's some red bean soup, then well, end of camp.

Some thoughts about it though, the lessons I learnt. Something like what Xavier put up on his blog, not being just a Sunday Christian. Running the race isn't about that. Learnt that running the race as a christian is not going to be easy. Just like running a real race, it takes perseverence, determinationm, passion. We will have all the 'cramps' and 'aches'. Also there are different types of people. There are some, just standing at the side of the track cheering the racers on, others, getting injured and just resting there, and others, running the race. The most meaningful one to me though, the last theme talk, is that Our Father isn't just shaking His leg up there, cheering or looking at us from up there. He is pushing us through this race. Like this video that Pastor Yeo showed us, about this crippled guy who wanted to be a athlete, and his dad had to push him. their teamwork, and so on.

The camp really taught me a few lessons.

Well right, I'm just slacking, playing games. Later I'll be going for cell again(Finally!). I'm listening to Hillsongs now, oh yah, and by looking at which song I started to typethis post, and what song's playing now, I've been typing this post for an hour(OMG). Well gtg bathe and do other stuff now.

"Are you going to be the one just standing by the track cheering those who are running, or are you gonna join the race?"

2006-11-29T01:24:00.000-08:00

Alrighty, I've finally decided to change my blogskin! Hurray, I may need feedback on whether it's nice or not...but I certainly do not want to change it back....takes time leh....erm, need any help on navigating, just tag me. The music player's right at the bottom, I really don't know how to bring it to the top....sorry..haha.

There's nothing much to say about the last two days. Just staying home, playing. Got tuition later. Also planning to go to Chia'a house tomorrow, with Brandon Tan. As I said, the two Must Dos in Chia's house, Snooker and Dota. Haha.

Well anyway, friend from Perth's gonna come back tomorrow night. Yay, can't wait. And bro's coming back in about a week or so. Yayyy :).

Don't know what to do after I come back from tuition later...

I think I'm gonna end my post here. Reminder, feedback about blogskin. Heh.

2006-11-26T08:06:00.000-08:00

Alright, posting again. Well, past week has been alright.

On thursday, went to watch 'Happy Feet' With Xavier, Damien, Faith and Becky. Was suppose to meet at 12. Lol, Xav and I met in the bus en route to Lido. Thought we'd be late, but guess what, Damien woke up when we reached there, Becky kinda forgot about it, and Faith, well I don't know...Anyway, Xav and I went to Becky's Uncle's shop at Shaw house. To wait, of course. Well her uncle wasn't there, only her aunt. Gosh, she's very kind. Gave us chocolate and water...anyway, Becky's bad at directing, so erm, nevermind. Alright. We met up, had lunch, and watched 'Happy Feet'. Quite a nice movie, I should say. Funny, especially. Well, dunnoe what else to say about the movie. After the movie, Faith and Becky went shopping, and Xav, Damien and I went to look at some stuff. I then went to Chia's house.

Gosh, he's got his snooker table! Yay, now I can go practice, or should I say learn first. Haha. Well, first thing when I went there, snooker. Haha I lost, of course. First time playing snooker. Haha, the table's damn big lor, it's harder than pool. Anyway after that, we had dinner. Fish and chips. At his house. And after that....*drum roll*....DOTA! What the hell haha. Played three dota matches with Chia, against AI, lol. Damn funny...but anyway I don't wanna spend lots of time describing the matches....Went back quite late, at around 10 pm.

Friday, nothing much happened, except for cell. It's always funny, as usual. We always manage to get to the point somehow. Talked about secrecy and freedom. But more of secrecy. Learnt quite a number of stuff...one of them is my nickname on MSN....I really think cell has helped me...After that went to Caltex to have the usual supper, then more supper at Newton. Got to know a few more people, like Shem(is that his name?). Quite nice and funny people.

Saturday. BAND. Haha, Choo's gonna play with me for PND next year, he has one year to train....hawhaw....anyway, we had usual pratice, and neither Ivan nor Joel came...sad...and Damien and Xav had missions camp...gosh...and guess what, we(drummers) had to pratice in the life sciences lab...with mosquitoes everywhere...harhar...After band, slack. Played tennis with Othniel, then went to watch Casino Royale with Nico. He got two free tickets, so yea. After that walked around. Then left to meet up with Brandon Tan, Ben Choy and Wei Wen. Had dinner at New York New York. Cool place man...nice food, though a bit overpriced. After that, guess what, I watched Casino Royale again. Qutie painful to watch it twice in the same day, as in moneywise...but anyway Brandon's gonna pay it for me...The movie's quite nice anyway, worth watching twice...but still, money...I'm already going broke...

Sunday. Went to church. Choir didn't sing, Diciple 1 class did the anthem instead. And guess what, after that I didn't go choir. Slacked around instead. Then went opposite to have lunch as usual. After lunch, went back to church, fell alseep, woke up to find out almost everybody left, including my parents. So yea, decided to go BRMC, have games. Waited for the camp comm meeting to end, which was like 1 hour. Then went to play soccer for a while, until everybody else came. Went to play tennis. Cool my skills have improved abit. And I love being the ball boy. Picking up balls everywhere, haha....Played until about 7, then went to Newton to have 'dinner'(well at least not for me, just a snack) with Abraham, Min Feng, Claire, Kenneth and Christine(I think that's her name). Ate carrot cake, stingray, rice, well nothing much. We had a chat for a while, then left. Gosh, btw I found out today that there's no 518 service towards Tampines! What the hell...haha.

And now I'm back. Doing whatever I can to satisfy me. Like playing CS on Xbox, talking to people. Dunnoe. I've been having weird feelings again lately. Can't tell what it is. Issit boredom, or anxiety(about next year's class), or excitement, or love? Well, I think I'm abit too young to tell....gosh...don't know what else to say...I'm tired, yet I don't fell like going to sleep. Well, gonna wander off now. Cya ppl...